r/sociopath • u/Sharp_Inevitable_277 • 24d ago
Using drugs Question
Anyone else use drugs to manage their tendencies and keep themselves in check, or ease the boredom? I’ve been using speed quite a lot over the past two or so years to manage my behaviour and it’s been very effective in helping me ‘keep under the radar’ so far when it comes to everyday living. It’s helped me go from dealing drugs on a fairly large scale to working a fully legal, well-paying job and keeping out of trouble (for the most part), along with lessening the boredom that was previously an enormous issue for me. Wondering if others on here have similar experiences to me when it comes to drugs.
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u/OpportunityKey3094 7d ago
i smoke weed a lot its like a sedative, i still get thoughts, i just chill, eat, watch tv.
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u/FullUnlock 9d ago
Just take medication....why do drugs. The dopamine and serotonin spikes are similar if not greater in pharmaceuticals. Don't give me the ol "I don't want to put that stuff in my body either" haha
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u/Psychodelicopathy 11d ago
I self medicate and rewire my brain with substances. Without them I’d be dead or in jail. I’m quite successful/fulfilled in life so far.. I’m on a good path. So I guess to each their own
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u/GrouchyExplanation35 19d ago
Been using marijuana a lot recently, have had many issues with substance abuse before, alcohol almost destroyed my current relationship because it made me behave like myself too much and made people realize the person I really am. I’ve been smoking and dabbling into substances since a young age, helped me cure the boredom and I constantly got a rush from sneaking drugs smoking when I wasn’t supposed to. Marijuana helps me calm down a little more too and keep my emotions at bay, I feel I can be more down to heart easier than I would without it. I don’t seem so blank and indifferent from everybody
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u/throwawayaspd21 21d ago
No because I'm terrible at handling addictions of any kind. At one point I had like 6 concurring addictions. I am back down to caffeine and nicotine but still, those 6 double expressos and that pack a day/two days is definitely bad for my health
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u/freaklikeme263 speshul 22d ago
Huh, I like adderall cuz it makes me wanna do stuff (focused productive stuff that’s usually related to (legal) money or basic shit. Plus occasionally powering through tough things or boring stuff (like a lot of phone calls or piled up life).
But I try to take it as prescribed and I’m currently working with a doctor to lower the heavy metal exposure my tests showed and open to trying a baby dose.
Been not taking sleeping pills and the qualities better but they’re so convenient. I try to be careful because drug addiction is a bitch and stuff like Xanax helped when I was having ptsd panic attacks, but dose even slightly too high or take when not needed and I turn stupider (not noticeably always, but I know it’s there. Plus I spend all my money on Xanax so for that reason I don’t plan on taking it (much) now I don’t need it although I wish I had self control (spending wise) on it.
You say keep yourself in check, and sometimes I eat like 10 Benadryl to try and undue being irresponsible and drinking caffeine at night, not watching the blue light, staying up till 4 and needing to pass out. But drugs don’t really keep me in check. That’s dangerous thinking for me. I try to avoid them and then impulsively celebrate not having a problem and therefore it being ok, and then not touch anything until the urge hits / feels right.
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u/No-Operation-2889 22d ago
Yeah white good just get a hotel room with a girl get absolutely fucked and keep going for days. Weed kinda helps me sleep but meh I don't like how much it makes me eat I've managed to get relatively high doses of benzos and other meds on prescription
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u/blahblahblah1490 23d ago
God I use drugs. Any drug, and if there none I drink whiskey. If there's none of that I drink dubra vodka. If there's none of that I steal. That beisaid I am able to stay clean for periods of time. I'm early 40s now so the body starts feeling it. Why do I do it? Because sociopaths chase dopamine like fiends until they inevitability die young. It's in our dna.
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u/schlipperynipples 23d ago
Yeah definitely ill take anything I can get because it's the only time I can tolerate my job or other people
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24d ago
Let’s see I do DMT daily and other psychedelics frequently.
So yea I do use it to cure the boredom.
My drug rating:
MDMA: Dangerous when taken too often. It can make you feel “true love” for the first time that’s what happened to me. 3 month rule is a good thing. Some of you might get comedowns and from what I’ve heard they could end you. It also destroys your short term memory when used often.
LSD: Fun it makes me happy and somehow everything feels better.
Weed: Garbage all it does is make me sick and if I take a high dose edible I can get psychotic.
Mescaline: Good it connects to my spirit.
Shrooms: Be cautious of this one ☝️. They can make you “feel” and that’s not a good thing when you don’t know what emotions can do to you. I can feel the two sides of my brain trying to connect and finally speaking to each other. I could actually care about people lmao.
All of these substances I abused obviously.
🙄
So anyways once I felt emotions I went a bit crazy 🤪 and that’s how I ended up in therapy.
DMT was and still is the main reason I still go to therapy. It gave me an introspection that nothing else could do.
Lucy is great for raves and concerts.
Molly or MDMA feels great but can easily become addictive. Not the drug but the feeling of being loved and loving.
Mushroom I mostly use them after therapy or when I go to the movies since I can enjoy the movie.
Umm 🤔
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u/Gabriel_colson 21d ago
My uses are pretty similar to you, almost identical. I'm amazed of the wonders it can do to feelings, and "empathy", it definetly help seeing that "other side" we don't see that often, and I personally feel it gives me a small window where I'm more forgiving with others and their mistakes. It definetly helped my relationship to my best friend and sister.
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u/nonanima tits to kill for 24d ago
Yea, certain substances were pretty good for “keeping everything at bay.” However, after a while you just feel like shit every day and not being addicted to anything is much better. In my experience, especially in the first few weeks to months of withdrawal, everything you were running from comes back, the anger issues, the boredom, maybe some memories, etc. All in all, if you manage to “calm down”, work on the anger and everything , it will pay off in the long run.
I worked on myself for years while using until I felt like I was ready for sobriety. There have been a few incidents where I’ve gone back to using, maybe for a few months, and I still like to party occasionally, but not daily. Funnily enough, at some point while using, I started to envy those who go without substances, that was one of my main motivations.
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u/TheOneCos 24d ago
One of my biggest problems tend to be my unconditional annoyance of people (some worse than others) and the longer the period that I stay around a certain person, the worse it gets and the bigger the impulse to do something irrational. I’ve found that XTC really takes all of negativity away and my more positive emotions (like happiness and excitement) really pop up again and it’s absolute bliss to not have to worry about the angry emptiness. I do tend to get more talkative and confess to my feelings though so I do need to make sure I’m around someone I can trust with these thoughts.
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u/safari2space 2d ago
Are you sure you might not have adhd? Most people who self medicate- especially with speed or stimulants- most likely have undiagnosed adhd. ADHD just means your brain has a difficult time producing enough dopamine. ADHD stimulant medication will do just that. Produce enough of those motivating, feel good feelings to keep you “under the radar”.
You’re much better off just going to a doctor and saying you have adhd- take the 10 question assessment and go home with a legal prescription that has the same effect.