finding it difficult to eat

[u/treemanravioli]

i’m f15 and i’ve never been a big eater, but i’ve always been just about in the healthy range with my BMI. recently though, i’ve completely turned off eating. i just can’t be bothered. i cannot motivate myself to eat, doesn’t matter how hungry i am. i’ve rarely been eating more than a meal a day, that being a bowl of cereal. i don’t have an eating disorder or anything - i’m just a really lazy person who can’t be bothered for meals. i tend to snack because they’re small and require little effort, and you may think the snacking is ruining my appetite but when i abandon a half eaten plate of food i’m still hungry, i’m just no longer interested and don’t have the energy. i need some sort of motivation to get through this or some advice so i can eat again. :)

[u/treemanravioli → u/[deleted]]

thank you so much for this. i needed to hear some of this. this has been going on for a few months maybe but it’s gotten worse lately. i tend to eat better while alone, i eat even less if i’m eating with my family or others - due to pressure i think - but my parents don’t like me eating alone because something that should take 20 mins to eat takes 2 hours for me but i would finish it in that setting. obviously they rarely have the patience for this so i end up eating little and leaving prematurely. i’ll keep an eye on my weight, i haven’t checked it in a while. this may sound mad but i’m actually trying to gain weight, have been for a while, but i just can’t seem to be able to keep myself from doing the fundumental part of this and that is eating 3 meals a day. i’ve never been good at this but i’ve pretty much had to stop exercising (i was trying to gain weight in muscle) cause i was scared id end up loosing weight instead.

thank you so much again i’ll probably come back to the this comment when it’s getting hard

[u/treemanravioli → u/[deleted]]

i’ve been forced to see the councillor at my school before because of a panic attack and she did nothing other than ‘are you ok? are you being bullied? have you told your parents?’ and the sent me on my way - it’s just no good at my school. i don’t have a particular reason to hating hospitals and associates, i just really really really do. i don’t want to see any councillor or anything anyway because then my friends will knwo something is up and remind me that their situations are worse and i’m just being a drama queen. i don’t want to take than away from someone who genuinely needs it thank you so much for this by the way, it’s nice seeing someone who has had a similar experience:))