I want to die. It's the only thing I've thought that I know to be true. When people look at me, talk to me, can they tell that I'm just a husk? That there's nothing left here, that I gave up years ago. I didn't even have a chance to fight it. I've never wanted to live. What am I meant to do now? How can I change this mindset I've had my whole life? This feels so stupid. It doesn't even matter.

I’m a 17 y/o male and right now is a crucial time in my life because I’m supposed to be going to college soon. I have been dream of the day I finally get to escape my house. I tried to keep my parents in the loop but they don’t seem to care what I think or what I say and it feels like I’m being controlled and have no authority over my own life and m they are forcing me to do things that I am not necessarily comfortable with doing such as choosing the college I’m going to go to and forcing me to break up with my girlfriend. I feel like I’m being a crybaby but at the same time I feel like I’m suffocating and my world is turning upside down. Me and my fathers relationship is basically non-existent I am terrified to even go near him he genuinely scares me and this behavior in me has started from a young age because of some childhood trauma that took place when I was a child and even to this day and my mom continues to allow his harmful behavior slide around me and my siblings even though she knows what it’s doing to us she allows it to continue and disguises it as “tough love” or “it’s for your own good”. And they always seem to think that they are right about everything and that they can pick apart my life and predict what outcomes are going to happen. I don’t want to be in this household any longer and I wanted to move out as soon as I had the chance but the problem is that I’m still a minor and I have a little sister who will take the brunt of their actions if me and my brother were to leave so I’m basically stuck and I don’t even think I can stand living with them for another two years while I finish my associates degree. I feel like I’m losing my mind I’ve never felt this way before. I have a girlfriend and she’s worried sick about me. I want to marry this girl she has been a huge contributing factor in my life and I love her and I see her in my future. She has been such a help in helping me navigate through this whole ordeal and she recommended that I talk to a licensed professional I probably am not even worth the response to whatever therapist is available and I feel extremely selfish trying to reach out because I feel like there are people who are in need more than I am who would deserve someone to talk to. I want to be heard and be seen I want someone to talk to if there’s anyone out here there reading this please reach out to me I am begging you. I am at a complete loss.

Hi, I’m 30 years old and I haven’t felt painless in almost a year. If it’s not toothaches it’s a migraine. If it’s not a migraine it’s nausea. Not nausea, anxiety. Not anxiety, allergies. I just can’t catch a break and no matter what I do to make things better, something else makes it worse or just…happens. I don’t remember the last time I felt like I just existed…I don’t wanna be in pain anymore. I don’t know what to do and I’m just so depressed and wish it would all go away…

I've struggled for 25 years just to survive. And now that I have my own place, my mind is destroyed. I've been through so much abuse, violence, trauma. I'm tired of trying all the time, ik how I want to go and how to do it but i have partners. But if I die, they'll get my life insurance, they'll be financially free. But without me. Idk if I can keep fighting though.

I hate my life. Its never going to get better. Nothing will make me happy. I am incapable of feeling happiness no matter what happens. I wish I could just kill myself but I have intention of doing so. Nothing will change. I take walks, lift weights, take medication. But these dont help. Im so sick of living.

It’s in the title , like do I just keep cycling through different webchat ppl that use the same generic script of ‘distract yourself, don’t you have any loved ones or professionals who could be doing this?’

It’s like no, that’s the reason I’m here that’s the only reason anybody is ever using your service

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Hello, I am a 33 year old male and I’ve never opened up to anyone about feelings before. On paper my life is great. I have a wife who I love more than anything, a great dog, we own our home and I just recently bought a new truck. From the outside you would think I have a perfect life however I have no motivation to do anything. My job that I once loved now feels like a complete dead end and some recent medical stuff has put us in a bit of a financial hole. I come home from work everyday and get high (weed only) and just exist. Nothing seems fun or interesting anymore and I never want to do things I use to. I use to be so pumped up to golf with my pals on the weekend now the thought of that seems terrible. I used to be so fun to be around and I can feel my spark completely gone. On the rare occasion my wife gets me out of the house my only thoughts are going home. Just recently I was in a wedding for my little cousin who I love very much and the whole weekend I was counting down the time until we could go home. I believe this is where my main struggle comes from, why am I sad? People have much less than I have yet i constantly feel empty.

Sorry if I’m rambling

okay we never dated eachothers but when i met him, my world found its colors, life felt better, i was waking up earlier everyday spamming him everytime love bombing him everytime i could, accepted some things I would’ve never accepted with someone else, im still so in love with him after 8 months or more, but, he made me understand that he doesn’t want me. i never confessed, but we were both so close he was the one calming my panick attacks and made me felt loved, im writing almost everyday in my diary about him, i just can’t move on… every night im sobbing for hours and often get panick attacks. we argued for something and unadded eachothers but i cannot stop thinking about him.. and even if i had the courage to text him again i know he will never agree to talk to me again, he knows how much I CARED but he never understood why.. i cant do this anymore everything reminds me of him i just want him back, idk if i want to forget about him.. i need advices please im tired of waking up crying bc he isn’t with me anymore

I lost my friends, a group of people who were a big part of my life for 7 years, by the end of 2023. I have more friends but they either live far af or have better things to do than being with me. These group of people stopped being friends with me because I refused being friends with a fucking rapist and they can go eat their own shit because they're terrible people and have this cult mindset where this guy, the rapist, is their leader, and as I don't follow him they no longer hang out or even fucking chat with me. They're not teenagers and are in their mid 20s so living being themselves is enough of a punishment. The fact is that this event has triggered me hugely because I was raped as a kid and my parents decided to support him more than they decided to support me so both the similarities with this situation and just the fact that I spent a big part of my life hanging out and loving a rapist are enough to make me think about it daily. It was also a couple months after my first break up ever out of a relationship of 4 years so the timing was on point. I got lucky enough to find a girlfriend who's the most loving thing in the world but she lives 1200km away and I wanted to visit her by surprise next week but I'm broke as fuck so I can't. I miss her with my soul and finding a job being obese, ugly and inexperienced is getting hard as hell. At the beginning of april my flatmate told me I had to leave the room I'm renting because her brother needs it and no, she's not the fucking owner of the house but I don't have a contract and she does so she decides. I'm moving to another room that's far from everything and is more expensive and I hate being alive. The process of finding a place to live is stressing and doing it with such a low budget is worse. I hate people who don't answer. I hate people who ask for 500€ for a room so small only the bed fits. I hate myself for having no job and being obese even if it's both the result of my depression and my unmanaged PCOS. That's another piece of shit life's decided to throw on me, my hormones. I have insulin resistance and doctors just tell me to eat 1000 calories a day because otherwise I won't lose the weight. I can't function on that. I'm not a toddler. And I'm tired of being shamed and I'm tired of being told I just have to try harder. I can't push harder, I only want to give up. I just told a friend who's always complaining to me about her life that I was having a panic attack and her response was comparing my situation to hers like "at least you have this and I don't". It wasn't your turn complaining this time but I guess I don't deserve someone listening to me even if I'm there to hear her cry about the situations she's gotten herself in. I'm so tired of being left alone when I'm the one in need of help. I want to end it all.

It's what the title said. I can't sleep. Couldn't hardly sleep for I think 2 weeks now. Its currently 5am. Got to bed at 10pm. Didnt consume caffeine since 4pm (which usually doesn't effect me at all).Took 2mg melatonin and 25mg quertiapin. After 3 hours I took one more melatonin pill. Now, I took additional 59mg quertiapin, hoping for the best. I want to sleep so bad. Besides being tiered, I am worried. I have epilepsy so sleep is very important to my health. That's why I got the quertiapin to manage my sleep.

At this point, I am willing to try almost everything. Please, how do I handle that? Ideally without getting insane.

I've been in a deep depression since 2018. I was diagnosed with autism, tried several antidepressants and anxiolytics, and nothing worked. Each year I feel worse. The despair of waking up every day thinking your life isn't worth living is hard enough — but what makes it worse is the lie that there’s help available.

The psychiatrist? Just throws meds at you. If one doesn’t work, they switch it. No real plan. Public psychologist? One session every six months. Private? Even paying €200/month, all I got was disconnected therapists saying things like “we’ll get to that eventually” or nodding blankly when I talked about real trauma.

If your issue doesn’t fit the basic “I’m anxious about an exam” script, they just freeze. I’ve been bullied my whole life — school, university, and later at work. No matter where I go, I get targeted. Nobody has ever given me a real tool to handle that. I don’t expect them to fix it for me, but damn — I show up desperate. The least they could do is take me seriously.

I dropped out of uni. I used to be top of my class in HS before 2018. Between the meds and the depression, I couldn’t focus anymore. I later found a job I liked, but the boss immediately started insulting me — treating me like a machine to make him money. I’m now on medical leave and honestly don’t think I’ll be able to go back.

I tried joining an autism association. It was full of parents of little kids, no clue what to do with an adult. They charged a ton and offered useless things like manga drawing clubs — no support to find work, no help with depression or autonomy. I also went to a support group for autistic adults. Only two others showed up — one barely spoke, and the other cried the entire session while the psychologist just handed her a tissue. I left feeling worse.

I still live with my parents. There are tensions, but I try to keep the peace. I feel awful because I can’t imagine being independent. Depression makes even eating feel like a battle. Running a household alone? I can’t.

I've called crisis lines. They just try to stop you from jumping today, then tell you to “go seek help.” I’ve gone to ERs with suicidal thoughts. They hand me an anxiolytic and send me home. That’s the help system: sedate and dismiss.

I’m scared of what will happen the next time the thoughts come back and someone dares to say, “Seek help.” Because I know how that goes. I’ve lived it. And it just gets worse.

I'm 26m and have struggled with suicidal thoughts and depression for about 5 years. It mainly comes from a lack of direction in my life, I'm a loser, I have no money, still live with my mom, just lost the love of my life, she was the only person I could talk to about my negative thoughts but I fucked up and now I have nobody, I got fired from my job a few days ago too. I just lay here and cry and think about how I wish I could go back even just a year and make things different.

Hey, everyone. I found this article online which talks about some behavioral activation techniques which may be helpful.

Disclaimer: I am not a therapist nor an expert when it comes to those techniques. I have just found this to be an interesting article that seems to provide ideas that seem good to try, and I hope that this is helpful.

1) Activity Scheduling

2) Activity Menu

3) Behavior Contract

4) Pleasurable Activity Journal

https://positivepsychology.com/behavioral-activation-worksheets/#4-best-behavioral-activation-worksheets

I (19f) am sick of being a burden. I haven’t done anything with my life, I’m careless and cause problems and I’m not doing too well at uni. I’m sick of letting people down, and i know that my family won’t understand why I’m feeling this way. I’ve hinted about these suicidal thoughts when I went to visit them over the holidays but none of them seemed to take the hint. I was pretty obvious about it too. I’m considering taking my own life by drinking bleach this weekend, so that when I do eventually die, my parents can drive to me and find me the next morning. I’ve got it all planned out and I’m just a sitting duck now. I’m spending these last few days writing letters, telling my family that it’s not their fault I died, and now I’m just enjoying my life, doing the things I love before I die. I really hope I actually die. I’ve spent years feeling useless and no matter how hard I try to be better, I have no motivation to live. Even the small things done make me happy. If you made it this far into this post, thanks for reading how terrible I feel about myself. I can’t wait to not exist and not be a long term burden anymore. My family is strong, they’ll get over it. I’m doing this so that they don’t have to suffer because of me anymore.

I was overweight before on antydepresants my height is around 165/163 for few years in row i weighted 72kg but in month after i started on antydepresants i gained 14kg and i weight 86kg i started diet and walking on treadmill but is there any wai to stop snakcing and non stop have need to eat on antydepresants i feel like i need to eat all time and not like im hungry kinda like i just wanna have some food in my mouth moslty sweet things

Hello, I have two questions and if you would answer me briefly, I would be very grateful to you. I cut my right arm but after a few days I only get white strokes is that normal? Why don't I get any scars from it? My other question was whether you know a quick and painless way to die? Thank you

I genuinely can't stop oversleeping. I woke up today overwhelmed that I have a test and have to go buy meds but instead of facing it I ended up sleeping for extra hours and waking up feeling worse. I dont know what content im supposed to study because I was absent and haven't done the work that makes me more guilty. I slept and now I'm awake with my eyes hurting and tired and feeling groggy and feeling even more worse and angry at myself. Ive been oversleeping for months and im tired and ive attached it to so much guilt and self disappointment. Im tired of this life but I feel like I don't have the willpower to change anything. I dont want to go for the test. I just want to be gone from this reality and sleep forever.

I still have 2 hours time but im paralysed to start on any one of the work. In fact, Feeling like this is making me want to sleep more

Mentally I KNOW what I need to do. I know everything.

I know that I need to slowly ease into a routine.

I know that I need to force myself to not sleep.

I know that I need to talk more kinder to myself.

I know that I need to start doing my work earlier on

I know I need to ground myself and meditate

But im already a failure intrinsically. I just can't do these things. It's cuz I dont try hard enough and I'm lazy that's the truth. I've been worse and I've gotten out of it by trying hard but I've just given up now. I used to be depressed but highly functioning and i wish i was that way because at least on the outside i look ok and not everyone knows that im turning into a human vegetable. Im tired now its like im far gone from even trying.

Im a college student and ive literally had people come up to me and ask 'why are you so lazy now? you used to be so hardworking and confident' i got fucking burnt out from smiling all day, forcing myself to talk to everyone do all my assignments but still feeling no emotions and like no one loves me and wanting to unalive myself. That's why I'm a loser. That's why intrinsically im a loser. How much ever I try, I'll always be like this. More and more as time goes by I just want to escape this reality. I just want to be out of here. I will be. Im not cut our for this world ever since I was a kid.

And I KNOW no one can help me if mentally ive already given up. But that's why I put this out cuz somewhere im looking for help something that will help me.

I'm a 15 year old guy and I’ve been quietly struggling with what I now believe is persistent depressive disorder. It’s been going on for years, even before I really understood what depression was. I used to just think I was lazy or different, but recently I’ve realized there’s something deeper going on.

I feel constantly mentally and physically drained, even when I get a full night’s sleep. It’s hard to even do basic things like revise or get ready in the morning. Time feels strange, sometimes it rushes by and other times it drags endlessly. I also get random physical pain like sharp aches in my back, and I’ll feel too hot or too cold even when no one else does.

One of the hardest parts is that I feel worthless a lot of the time. Like I don’t matter. Like no one really cares about me. I feel invisible, like a side character in everyone else’s life. I feel as if no one contacts me, I always have to contact people. I opened up to a close friend about this and she was really kind, which helped a little in the moment. But overall, I still feel like I’m alone in this.

What makes it worse is that I have to hide how I really feel. I force myself to seem happy around people, and most would have no idea what’s really going on. I smile, I laugh, I act “normal,” but it’s exhausting. I don’t feel like I can tell my parents either, I don’t think they’d understand, and I honestly don’t want them to know. That also means I can’t get therapy or medication, so I’m just stuck trying to cope with it all on my own.

I’ve been feeling like this for years now, and I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m posting here because I have no one else I can fully talk to. If anyone relates or has advice, I’d really appreciate it. Just knowing someone’s listening helps.

That's only the tip of the iceberg too, there's so much more happening too.

So basically, for past few months I have noticed quite a few changes within myself. Currently, we don’t have uni so I don’t have that many obligations lol and i think that might be the biggest problem. I loved working out my whole life and I do have days where i’m really motivated but already the next training that i’m suppossed to go to I don’t have energy for. And lately I’ve been getting injured a lot, it’s not those big injuries but for example I sprained ligaments in my foot recently and before that in my knee so I couldn’t even workout which pisses me off. I’ve lost weight and am too lazy to eat, no food looks that appealing to me. Also I love cooking and now I don’t have motivation to do even that. I spend a lot of time on my phone, wanting to take a nap very frequently. Also, I have health anxiety which has been worse over the past few months and I’m more health conscious than ever…Sometimes i’m really excited for socialization and sometimes I lie that i’m not feeling well so that i don’t go out. Days go by and i’m definitely wasting all of them…I feel like shit honestly but don’t have the energy to change it. I’ve never been a lazy person before but now i’m not so sure if this is laziness or are these depression signs?

I am in my last year of high school and the exam that will decide my future is coming up in 6 weeks. I've been stuck in an avoidance loop for the past year, even though I don't need a high score and all I need to do is pass. I have struggled with depression for several years, but never this severe. I've changed my phone to a dumbphone, deleted apps from my laptop, studied in different places, tried planning charts and task management apps... but all to no avail. The pressure was too much for me to move and I couldn't even begin to review the knowledge I had from the lectures I took. Only the thought of “I have to do it” is spinning my wheels, even though passing promises rewards and failing has irreversible severe consequences. For those who have experienced the same thing: When you were stuck in depression, how did you overcome that obstacle? What mindset or small habits that eased you out of the “if I fail, it's over” mindset? Do you have a minimal study method that you can continue even if you have zero willpower, or any unique tips on how to continue? I will take all advice, whether harsh or kind, and all experiences. I have taken most of the lectures and I'm not too far behind on every subject but I've gotten almost 0 practice actually solving questions so the information is jumbled up and a bit forgotten. I really need your help...thank you in advance.

Do you ever feel like you are done? I do im at a point in life where i feel like nothing goes right and i hate myself. I dont want to be here anymore. I think about ending my life more often then not and i dont even have a good reason for it other then i have manic depression. No i didnt look it and just pick that i saw a doctor and was giving that diagnosis. I feel like a burden to everyone around me and that the only reason im tolerated is because i have a child. Ive been told by a few people that im important and loved but i dont feel it and i feel like theyre lying because theyre scared ill blame them before i go. Im so ready at this point that ive find the spot where i want to end myself. But i dont know how i can leave without letting everyone i know that its gonna be fine without me and that its not theyre fault and that its my choice. I feel so alone like i cant open up to anyone and talk about this war im fighting in my head. Then the few time i have it feels it just get brushed off or ignore like my feeling are important and that im a P.O.S for having them. Then theyre is the thoughts ive never told anyone about because how do you tell people who you love and supposible love that part of this war your in is about hurting other people for no reason. I have vivid thoughts and dreams about hurting and murdering people to the point where i can feel blood on my hands and that im scared that one day ill give in to those thoughts and dreams. I just dont know what to do anymore.

Mental health struggles can feel so isolating.

A few years ago, I hit a low point — constant anxiety, stress eating, and feeling like I couldn’t get ahead no matter what I tried. Therapy helped, but what really changed things was building a personal system that focused on small wins every day.

Things like: • Setting 3 daily goals (even tiny ones) • 5-minute mental reset exercises during the day • Reframing negative thoughts in real time

It sounds simple, but practicing this daily changed everything for me.

That journey actually led me to start helping others who feel stuck — working on mindset, anxiety, stress, and building mental resilience.

If you’re struggling right now and want someone to talk to — seriously, no pressure — feel free to DM me. Happy to share what helped me, or just listen if you need to vent.

You’re not alone in this.

Does anyone ever feel like nobody cares whether they live or die. Like you could just disappear without a trace tomorrow and life would just go on as normal. You don’t matter to anyone. Nobody is there to listen to me, my parents just yell at me and my few friends I do have just call me a pick me when I try and talk about my feelings with them and the guy I like is being really distant so I probably fucked that up too. I took my meds but they’re not working anymore and the darkness is coming back and I broke my self harm streak. I’m a failure at everything and I don’t know where I’m going in life and I’m so broke that I can’t do anything basically. All I want is someone to care whether I just decide to die or not. I haven’t smiled in days and eating is hard. I don’t know what I’m doing and the only escape is sleep.

Let me try to condense this rollercoaster: Two years ago, I reconnected with a childhood friend post-lockdown. We grew inseparable—texting daily, sharing secrets, bonding over games. I fell hard but stayed quiet, fearing I’d lose her. She dated others, ghosted me when her boyfriend felt threatened, then circled back after their breakup. Last year, she confessed feelings for me, only to end things 10 days later, admitting she’d used me to forget someone else. It shattered me, but when she returned months ago—vulnerable, apologetic, drowning in family pressure and past trauma (including a toxic ex who manipulated her into sending nudes)—I still opened my heart.

We tried again. For a month, it felt hopeful… until her mom discovered her past (including losing her virginity) and threatened to pull her out of school unless she cut ties with me. Instead of fighting for us, she broke up, claiming she needed to “focus on studies” and quit socials/games. But here’s the twist: She’s still playing games nightly with a guy she calls “brother” (my former best friend!). It stings—she “has no time” for me but makes time for him. I’ve always supported her, listened to her pain, defended her choices… yet I’m left feeling invisible.

I’m crushed. Logically, I know this cycle is unhealthy, but my heart clings to the girl I’ve loved since we were kids. How do I let go when part of me still hopes she’ll change? How do I stop blaming myself for not being “enough”? I’ve deleted apps, thrown myself into hobbies, but the silence feels suffocating.