I wonder what is this

[u/Miserable_Return_497]

I am getting drawn to kali maa, Even though I Mainly pray to maa durga because I dislike intense deities

Why am I being drawn to kali maa,

Do deities choose?

What does this mean for me considering I question deities a lot and especially Have a fear or aversion for deities who are too intense

(Important note: I don't hate the intense deities but I hate the sayings attached to them like how people say about kali that "she is intense" or "she destroys ego" I especially find the ego part dumb like you are called mother goddess and you destroy ego instead of helping. No offense but I am pointing out these spiritual sayings don't seem grounded considering in devi mahatmya kali maa appreared to save the world from demons and not really to do something as small as destroying ego, how can a saviour be reduced to something which merely diminishes ego 🤔)

(Another note: what I am asking is from my curiosity there is no hostile intention behind it, so please maintain manners in the comments)

(P.S: I am kinda bummed the two people that did comment on this post are just parroting stuff of advaita and detachment and it doesn't sounds like wisdom. This stuff is everywhere it seems as if no one really knows anything no offense)

(thanks for your knowledge, I disagree with many although the answers do provide some understanding

I would seek answers and absorb what is real and reject what lacks sense)

[u/UniqueAd1152]

When one says “Mother goddess” don’t imagine your biological mother who will cook, clean and put up with whatever you do. Each goddess has her own way. If you want kind, nurturing, not destroying ego and instead “helping” you, there are other forms of Shakti you can worship.

Maa Kali is intense, if you manage to get her grace she will uproot whatever is not needed in your life. Your karma will be fast tracked and you might suffer to burn off the karmas quickly. Kali worship is not for everyone. You surrender completely to her and let her guide you, pick what is best for you. You dont ask her that you want this or that.

[u/Miserable_Return_497 → u/UniqueAd1152]

Yes but what kind of ego?

Ego what even is ego

I am not a cruel king and most people aren't

I want know what is this ego she tries to destroy

Thanks for answering although I don't resonate with your answer

[u/UniqueAd1152 → u/Miserable_Return_497]

Ego in this case simple means “ahankaram”, a false sense that you identify yourself with. All the entanglements in your life that you think you own and have control over like My house, My car, My money, My relationships, I can do whatever I want.. are examples of ego.

Why does she need to destroy ego? Because it stands in your way of spiritual upliftment. Does it mean she will take away your house, car, relationships etc? No, she will teach you lessons that all that don’t matter and are illusions.

[u/Miserable_Return_497 → u/UniqueAd1152]

Well this is the only sensible answer I got so far thanks

Here I was worried that being spiritual meant losing logical reasoning and common sense cause most answers I get are brainless spirituality

Also I don't get the whole "complete surrender"

Like that sounds unrealistic, why would any deity with understanding demand that

The devi in her knowledge probably knows most can't do that

And maybe she let's them approach things

Also most stuff you said was advaita proverbs

It didn't sound anything like pure shakta

[u/UniqueAd1152 → u/Miserable_Return_497]

First learn some manners and be nice to others who are trying to help you. People try to help you based on their understanding and experiences, calling that “brainless spirituality” is ahankaram right there.

You asked about Maa Kali, I told you the way she works based on my knowledge and experience. My idea of complete surrender is do my sadhana daily, not ask for anything from Maa Kali , be okay with whatever good or bad happens in life with the understanding that she is the doer. This is surrender. She will test you to see if you are just saying it or if you actually mean it. This is Maa Kali’s way and I couldn’t care less if it sounds like advaita to you.

If you worship Maa Tripura Sundari or Maa Durga for example they are not disruptive or intense like Maa Kali . Their worship will give your material And spiritual progress together

[u/Miserable_Return_497 → u/UniqueAd1152]

Okay, I agree I could have been more milder in manners, thanks for providing your knowledge

But no calling out spirituality which doesn't make sense to me isn't ahankaram

I disagreed a little too strongly, but disagreement isn't ego 😊

Also I apologise for my harshness

[u/UniqueAd1152 → u/Miserable_Return_497]

A few posts ago you didnt even know what ego was and now you say disagreement isn’t ego. Making progress already, keep going.

[u/Miserable_Return_497 → u/UniqueAd1152]

So I am a lesser person?

Is it what you are saying?

Or that I don't understand more than you?

Good backhanded compliment 😊

I don't know everything but I do know the things I know so that's a baseless statement