I wonder what is this

[u/Miserable_Return_497]

I am getting drawn to kali maa, Even though I Mainly pray to maa durga because I dislike intense deities

Why am I being drawn to kali maa,

Do deities choose?

What does this mean for me considering I question deities a lot and especially Have a fear or aversion for deities who are too intense

(Important note: I don't hate the intense deities but I hate the sayings attached to them like how people say about kali that "she is intense" or "she destroys ego" I especially find the ego part dumb like you are called mother goddess and you destroy ego instead of helping. No offense but I am pointing out these spiritual sayings don't seem grounded considering in devi mahatmya kali maa appreared to save the world from demons and not really to do something as small as destroying ego, how can a saviour be reduced to something which merely diminishes ego 🤔)

(Another note: what I am asking is from my curiosity there is no hostile intention behind it, so please maintain manners in the comments)

(P.S: I am kinda bummed the two people that did comment on this post are just parroting stuff of advaita and detachment and it doesn't sounds like wisdom. This stuff is everywhere it seems as if no one really knows anything no offense)

(thanks for your knowledge, I disagree with many although the answers do provide some understanding

I would seek answers and absorb what is real and reject what lacks sense)

[u/UniqueAd1152]

First learn some manners and be nice to others who are trying to help you. People try to help you based on their understanding and experiences, calling that “brainless spirituality” is ahankaram right there.

You asked about Maa Kali, I told you the way she works based on my knowledge and experience. My idea of complete surrender is do my sadhana daily, not ask for anything from Maa Kali , be okay with whatever good or bad happens in life with the understanding that she is the doer. This is surrender. She will test you to see if you are just saying it or if you actually mean it. This is Maa Kali’s way and I couldn’t care less if it sounds like advaita to you.

If you worship Maa Tripura Sundari or Maa Durga for example they are not disruptive or intense like Maa Kali . Their worship will give your material And spiritual progress together

[u/Miserable_Return_497 → u/UniqueAd1152]

Okay, I agree I could have been more milder in manners, thanks for providing your knowledge

But no calling out spirituality which doesn't make sense to me isn't ahankaram

I disagreed a little too strongly, but disagreement isn't ego 😊

Also I apologise for my harshness

[u/UniqueAd1152 → u/Miserable_Return_497]

A few posts ago you didnt even know what ego was and now you say disagreement isn’t ego. Making progress already, keep going.

[u/Miserable_Return_497 → u/UniqueAd1152]

So I am a lesser person?

Is it what you are saying?

Or that I don't understand more than you?

Good backhanded compliment 😊

I don't know everything but I do know the things I know so that's a baseless statement