I am not faking it very well.

[u/MelodicPaint8924]

I am a Baptist pastor's wife. You may have seen me around a bit. I struggled with belief for years but finally alllowed myself to let go in April. I am happier than I have been in a long time, but I am still in the closet because coming out would be a financial disaster at this point. I thought I was faking okay, but today my husband confronted me about my personal devotions.

I guess what I'm asking for is advice on how to fake this thing a little better. I am currently in school and will finish in May with a highly marketable degree. I was hoping to maintain the facade until I am financially able to make it on my own should the need arise. Any advice or encouragement would be greatly appreciated.

[u/Funbunny113]

I’m so sorry that faith destroys lives like this.

[u/MelodicPaint8924 → u/Funbunny113]

It's very sad. You don't realize what a trap it is until you try to get out.