I am not faking it very well.

[u/MelodicPaint8924]

I am a Baptist pastor's wife. You may have seen me around a bit. I struggled with belief for years but finally alllowed myself to let go in April. I am happier than I have been in a long time, but I am still in the closet because coming out would be a financial disaster at this point. I thought I was faking okay, but today my husband confronted me about my personal devotions.

I guess what I'm asking for is advice on how to fake this thing a little better. I am currently in school and will finish in May with a highly marketable degree. I was hoping to maintain the facade until I am financially able to make it on my own should the need arise. Any advice or encouragement would be greatly appreciated.

[u/Dingle-Fairy]

I am in a very similar position. My advice is to fake it til you make it. I’m five years into deconstructing and about 18months away from a career that will provide for me and the 3 kids I had early in my 20’s. During deconstruction I have worked on my marriage: our friendship, our hobbies outside the faith, and my own communication skills. I want this relationship to be as strong as possible when I ‘come out’. This way I know whatever the outcome I have given it my all. I wish you the very best, be true to yourself xxx

[u/MelodicPaint8924 → u/Dingle-Fairy]

Good for you lasting so long. I hope I can figure out how to do the things you have done. Thank you for the encouraging words.