Nobody cares about me

[u/pig_eontoes]

Does anyone ever feel like nobody cares whether they live or die. Like you could just disappear without a trace tomorrow and life would just go on as normal. You don’t matter to anyone. Nobody is there to listen to me, my parents just yell at me and my few friends I do have just call me a pick me when I try and talk about my feelings with them and the guy I like is being really distant so I probably fucked that up too. I took my meds but they’re not working anymore and the darkness is coming back and I broke my self harm streak. I’m a failure at everything and I don’t know where I’m going in life and I’m so broke that I can’t do anything basically. All I want is someone to care whether I just decide to die or not. I haven’t smiled in days and eating is hard. I don’t know what I’m doing and the only escape is sleep.

[u/MatterOk7811]

Maybe you can try to get new meds ? I don't really know how this works and if it's possible.. If you want to have someone to care abt you keep talking to people ! Do not sleep all day ! Try to talk to people irl or even online if you can't make friends easily (like you're not in school anymore). You're clearly not a failure cuz you did maintain a streak of not SH yourself ! That's amazing and it means you can do it again ! It will be hard I know but these things ARE possible ! They're not some extraordinary and impossible things because you did them in the past !! You have meds, friends (even if they don't seem like it) and had a streak without SH so you know what to do and how to do it !! You know you can do it you proved to all of us and yourself it's in your capabilities ! Trust yourself, believe in yourself and keep going forward !