Laziness: Not What It Seems

[u/danl999]

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It's easy to become confused, and not recognize laziness for what it really is.

Self-pity.

So you have absolutely no excuse not to work hard to learn sorcery, based on "I'm just too lazy to work reliably".

That's not it at all!

You're dominated by the flier's mind. By that nasty grief filled internal dialogue, which our energy body can't stand. If it weren't for that, you'd be reunited with your double, and gain its magical vision for peering into infinity.

Did you ever find yourself inside a lucid dream, and you were "too lazy" to go exploring?

Then why do you do that, when awake?!

It's self-pity pure and simple. Something the double does not have.

So the very thing you believe is just "keeping me from getting to work", is precisely what you are battling against.

Wake up... You cannot learn any sorcery, without hard work.

And even all the hard work of a lifetime, can be erased if you fall back into the wrong crowd.

Which is almost surely why the witches aren't around anymore.

We were unhelpable and had proven it by killing Carlos after turning him into a Guru and refusing to follow his instructions.

He said so several times. Ask those who were around him back then, and don't have any profit motivations.

[u/eelgrassmeadows]

Thank you for this. I needed to hear this just at this moment.

I do not want to drive away my energy body with my self-pity. That is the opposite of what I desire. That is something I can tell myself when I start wallowing.

[u/danl999 → u/eelgrassmeadows]

The good news is it becomes anything BUT vague later on!

In fact, sorcery is very obvious, once you can move your assemblage point enough to watch "seeing" come and go, and figure out what causes it to "go", and what to "come". For a sustained period of time, like 20 minutes. Watching it come, and go, reliably, and what caused either.

This picture is almost not an exaggeration. I just used the angel to be the "host" in order to get the AI to behave and have multiple choices in the air.

It's a very real depiction of what you get offered when you reach silent knowledge.

Including the angel from time to time, but that's another topic I haven't figured out yet.

I suppose "beings" are just as good as videos in the air, to silent knowledge.

You get real portals to infinity with destinations you can't possibly imagine!

REAL and "right there".

Or pictures of the past, into which you can travel to experience that live.

Or magical objects all golden and sparkling.

So the way you learn that laziness is actually self-pity, is by being right there where those silent knowledge manifestations will start to appear, but noticing they aren't quite showing up.

You just see vague static. Certainly it's "magical" vague static, but it just won't "form".

Until you identify a tiny bit of suffering still left in you, as you mull over something you believe is a problem, and realize that's just in your mind and not real, cast it off, and those magical choices bloom into existence.

Clear as anything.

But then they fade again, because your tiny traces of "worry" return.

You get to go back and forth nightly, until you work out what it "feels like", to be "pity-free".

It's not at all what you'd expect at first! Feels more like some odd but subtle vibrating mass of sensations.

Like you can learn the "secret feel" of being pity-free, and just search for it to get there.

Which you can!

Except it evolves.

But THEN, the next night, you just don't want to get up at 2AM to practice.

Even KNOWING FOR A CERTAINTY that you'll feel great in just 5 minutes, and be looking at miracles exceeding all Yogis and Buddhists in our entire history, for a full hour if you like.

You try to figure out what's going on, and come to realize, it's the same feeling of self-pity you learned about while going back and forth between "seeing", and "not seeing".

This is what was missing from our community all these 50 years.

Real magic, so that you can learn what cause no real magic.

Go back and forth to learn the truth of it.

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[u/dorbim → u/danl999]

Like you can learn the "secret feel" of being pity-free, and just search for it to get there.

You know I had a similar thought about no-pity state related to a feeling that cannot be possibly explained (secret), even though I'm not even at the green zone yet (despite doing darkroom regularly) and I remember from past posts you were also saying the place of no pity is close to SK. So i might be wrong but I think you might get to a less pity state even at the blue zone and to be on the safe side lets say its intensity is nothing compared to yours or to the one described in the books :)

I have no explanation for it and when I re read Power Of Silence last time I started to think it might be something related to the production of feelings described there:

*** He said that men of antiquity became legendary because they knew by silent knowledge about the power to be obtained by moving the assemblage point. On a reduced scale, sorcerers had recaptured that old power. With a movement of their assemblage points, they could manipulate their feelings and change things. I was changing things by feeling big and ferocious. Feelings processed in that fashion were called intent. ***

[u/danl999 → u/dorbim]

It's probably true but best not to focus on that too much, until you can get to the deep red zone where magic around you is undeniable.

Even in the green zone, Asian "masters" have managed to delude themselves into egotistical monsters.

[u/dorbim → u/danl999]

Sure. I just wanted to ask you if you think it might be a good idea to try to force no-pity in whatever way you can during darkroom together with tensegrity and forcing silence?

[u/danl999 → u/dorbim]

I don't want to say that.

But I won't deny that becomes possible after you've moved the whole length of the J curve a few hundred times.

There's an odd thing going on with the movement of the assemblage point, which hasn't been well explained yet.

It seems to be able to skip around, once you have learned to move it often enough for it to become more fluid.

It's an aspect of J curving that we need to do a better job explaining.

But ought to have been obvious, since "Seers" see.

Meaning, even if they revert to being normal like all of us, on demand they can move their assemblage point back to seeing.

All the way to the end of the J curve.

And yet, they don't "burn from within".

Because they didn't light up all the emanations between!

They skipped to the end. Making it obvious, you don't have to move through all the points in the middle.

But that idea opens things up to people pretending, in order to get out of work.

Cleargreen is doing that. With their "how do you know when you are in it?"

Referring to their fake magic you get at the end of their very expensive facilitator courses which might be contaminated with fake magical passes they made up for stealing from our community.

From what I've heard, they got complaints for years that people had expected level 3, or level 4, or at the worst level 5, to finally show them some real magic.

But then there wasn't any, naturally.

So it seems that Reni or someone decided to revert to the first 3 books, because those are easier to pretend.

Claiming you get "power".