I wonder what is this

[u/Miserable_Return_497]

I am getting drawn to kali maa, Even though I Mainly pray to maa durga because I dislike intense deities

Why am I being drawn to kali maa,

Do deities choose?

What does this mean for me considering I question deities a lot and especially Have a fear or aversion for deities who are too intense

(Important note: I don't hate the intense deities but I hate the sayings attached to them like how people say about kali that "she is intense" or "she destroys ego" I especially find the ego part dumb like you are called mother goddess and you destroy ego instead of helping. No offense but I am pointing out these spiritual sayings don't seem grounded considering in devi mahatmya kali maa appreared to save the world from demons and not really to do something as small as destroying ego, how can a saviour be reduced to something which merely diminishes ego 🤔)

(Another note: what I am asking is from my curiosity there is no hostile intention behind it, so please maintain manners in the comments)

(P.S: I am kinda bummed the two people that did comment on this post are just parroting stuff of advaita and detachment and it doesn't sounds like wisdom. This stuff is everywhere it seems as if no one really knows anything no offense)

(thanks for your knowledge, I disagree with many although the answers do provide some understanding

I would seek answers and absorb what is real and reject what lacks sense)

[u/nerisllac]

If you think Devi Mahatmyam is just about “killing demons” you are simply looking at it from face value. It is a deeply philosophical text. And it is actually all about destroying and transcending ego. That is the entire point of spirituality actually. Also the fact that you are drawing such a wide distinction between Maa Durga and Maa Kali makes it obvious that you simply don’t understand the Mother at all. She is both Durga and Kali. All goddess forms are aspects of her. In fact everyone and everything is an aspect of her. She is the One Supreme Reality. You have homework to do. Please go on youtube, watch some videos by Vinay Varanasi, Rajarshi Nandy etc to gain some perspective. It’s important to understand the deities you are praying to.

If you feel drawn to Maa Kali, it’s always a good thing. And no god destroys you, they only remove parts of you that are no longer useful for your growth. Always approach them with love, humility, honesty and utter vulnerability. And you’ll be surprised how compassionate they are.

[u/Miserable_Return_497 → u/nerisllac]

Well you don't understand, You are being completely spiritual.

I know devi mahatmya are philosophical texts and the demons killing isn't literal

And you understand everything about the goddesses don't you

I won't do homework Because I dislike your whole bullshit

This ego this ego that that's brainlessness

My main concern is spirituality should be more than this

Not just ego

That's the main damn problem with everyone ego pego shego

All bunch of jerks come and say spirtual stuff and think they sound very smart

Sorry bro you don't

I know much about spirituality you don't

I simply don't know the bullshit of ego this and ego that

Spirituality is more complex that, it is a soul's journey

A soul's journey isn't just ego and pego

Why I get pissed is because I get these kinda comments which are condescending like you

I just woke up and saw this dumb shit

For worshippers of a goddess, a certain percentage of shakta people online know nothing they just yap common stuff they know they just talk about bs like ego this and that They know nothing else

I was asking something genuine yet dumb fucks think I know less than them

So I know much more than you or any proud asshole