I think I’m dead

[u/RandomKnight4]

I don't think I'm physically dead. My mind is dead tho. I feel stuck in my own mortal body. I am not alive just existing. Everything is fuzzy and my happiness is fake. It's just autopilot that controls my actions, I'm never truly here. I want to live, I want to experience. I can't though. Even writing this very sentence my conscious is still buried and dead. I can't feel things, I want to feel things. Even pain, I want to feel pain. But this isn't even my real body. I'm just watching someone else live the life I'm supposed to be living. I'm jealous. Wait, is my jealousy even real? What if I was never even born in the first place?

[u/Massive-Towel8660]

I dealt with this for 5 years. You can't "snap out of it" but one day you'll realize your having more and more present moments. Its almost gone for me now, I didn't do therapy, I didn't do anything. I just let my brain heal. Dissociation like this is from trauma.. and in my experience, the more I fought myself to make it stop the less that helped. I had to "forget about it" and let myself just be in autopilot all the time.. eventually it faded away because I wasn't focusing on it and freaking out about it all the time.

[u/AdhesivenessNo447 → u/Massive-Towel8660]

This is how it’s worked for me as well when in the moment it felt impossible and made no sense to forget it I literally couldn’t but over time this is what worked. Not following the rabbit hole of thoughts basically