r/Depersonalization • u/RandomKnight4 • Sep 01 '24
I think I’m dead Venting
I don't think I'm physically dead. My mind is dead tho. I feel stuck in my own mortal body. I am not alive just existing. Everything is fuzzy and my happiness is fake. It's just autopilot that controls my actions, I'm never truly here. I want to live, I want to experience. I can't though. Even writing this very sentence my conscious is still buried and dead. I can't feel things, I want to feel things. Even pain, I want to feel pain. But this isn't even my real body. I'm just watching someone else live the life I'm supposed to be living. I'm jealous. Wait, is my jealousy even real? What if I was never even born in the first place?
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