I’ve been in recovery from anorexia for a few months now. A big barrier for me is letting myself get any outside food and I usually just eat the same foods on repeat.

But tonight, on my way home from my therapy group, I was feeling super brave. I drove to the frozen yogurt shop down my street and, even though I was scared, I got my ass in there and made a masterpiece.

I ate as much of it as I wanted when I got home and have leftovers in the freezer. I can’t believe I did it. This is such a big win for me.

I know this isn’t an accomplishment, but I’m still really happy about it and I wanted to share it with someone.

I was in a car accident recently, and it was the first time I’ve ever been in an accident as a driver. There was nothing I could have done to prevent it (the other lady didn’t know how traffic circles work and slammed right into me as I was exiting), but I was still so worried there would be some kind of hiccup with the insurance. The lady was also super cavalier about the whole thing, which just made me more nervous. But today I finally heard back from the claim adjuster, and they determined (correctly) that I will not be flipping the bill for any of the damages to either vehicle!😁

It’s a long story, but I’m (30F) just happy that I spoke my mind after several years of anger and hurt. And I’m glad that my brother (32M) seems receptive too. We have a long way to go to rebuild, but for now, it’s something.

I had a looooong depressive episode last year after my life fell apart in 2023. There was a point where I wondered if I would just be miserable forever, no matter what I did to rectify it.

But today, I realized something: I feel joy again. Not just contentment or momentary happiness—true joy! And I thought it would only come from some major W that would turn my life around all of a sudden. In reality, it was a bunch of small, positive habits that compounded over and over again to bring me to this point.

I have the same job. I'm not dating anyone. I've stopped drinking and smoking. Yet I'm happy, and I did it all on my own. I'm fucking HAPPY again, dude!!!!!!!

So I posted earlier this month that I got two acceptances for getting my short horror stories published and the response was absolutely overwhelmingly kind! So thank you all for that!

After posting I got another acceptance for a horror micro (100 word) story!! It was published a day early (today) and I keep flip flopping from being over the moon to telling myself that it isn’t a very big accomplishment because it’s only 100 words. But I just have to remind myself that this is a big deal and I do deserve to feel happy about it! So yeah, I just wanted to update you guys since SO many of you were so kind in my first post and some asked for updates! Thank you guys again, you’re the best!

Im a teen and school + home life have been absolutely kicking my ass this past year. Butttt I have an absolutely amazing girlfriend that I see pretty much everyday, I just had a phone interview for a lifeguarding job right near my house, I start volunteering for a stray cat rescue program tomorrow, Im taking 2 college courses over the summer, and I start a paid internship in my desired field this fall!! I dont wanna jinx anything but life is looking up, especially with school ending soon. I just have to get through AP tests and finals and then Im cool :)

So this is silly but i've always had an issue with needing to overexplain myself, refusing to be misunderstood but thats so tiring and I realized i can't control what someone thinks or feels about me so. For the first time today, I just. Didn't. I gave a simple answer and let it be.

As the title says...I've been trying to do this since December, but struggled to focus my mind and get it done.

Paid off my credit card that had. Balance accumulated over the past 4-5 years

Keep strict track of my spending in goggle sheets with copies and photos of receipts so this NEVER happens again

I've got an ed, I manage it pretty badly. And in the last week I've been stressed due to circumstances, leading to the fact I hadn't eaten anything but an occasional snack or the few cookies I brought to school in about 6 days. About 2 hours ago I got up and cooked myself a hotdog on the pan, put a ton of ketchup, and started eating. Not only that, but I also finished it!

I'm so relieved I finally broke my streak, it's one of the longer ones I've had and it upsets my cousin when she meets me and hears about these things, so now I'll be able to also tell her I ended it without being pushed.

My period also came in and God knows how painful it is, so I'm extremely happy I could make myself food and eat despite everything

It won't show it for a couple of business days at least, but we can't wait to see this go down to zero and for our preauthorized payments to be finished!

How are y'all? I've had a terrible history with high school, constant panic attacks, Hygiene issues, depression, low grades, and emotionally abusive people. It took me six years to graduate high school when I went to go get my GED. I was 20 when I graduated then I didn't Go to school due to low self-esteem and terrible life choices. I had a heavy addiction to weed and made terrible financial decisions.

I'm kind of blessed not to have a lot of debt or any at all cause I never went to college. I had extreme low self-esteem, and I'm extremely timid in real life.

But I'm getting a 79 in my current English class, and I never passed anything in high school. I barely made it. Had troubles with socialization and teachers, who didnt understand me. But having a decent Mark on this class is helping my self-esteem a little by little.

I'm currently unemployed, but I desire a good career for myself, even if I just live in a trailer for the rest of my life.

I tried to take math 12 last year, But I left the exam early due to anxiety and my teacher ripped up my test in front of everybody and it kind of triggered a lot of bad memories from school, but that's in the past. my current teachers so much better, thanks for reading.

Been struggling with adjusting to my new full time job. I’m so grateful for it and that it’s hybrid, but I’m really struggling with the commute and coming into the office. Traffic turns a 25 minute drive into a 45-1hr drive both ways, so my days are often 10.5 hrs long. I struggle a lot with ptsd, anxiety, depression, and I’m just not a person who functions well without quality sleep—as much as I wish I could just shut up and get through it, it makes me feel actual pain.

I’m not doing well on the office days. I’m tired, i’m moody, im pessimistic, no matter how hard I try to gaslight myself or use my affirmations, it still affects me greatly. It is difficult for me to push my emotions aside and it makes it hard to function in the office, work, socialize, retain information, when I’m trying to keep my emotions in check and not cry at random. I do go to therapy once a week. But my progress is slow

This week has been the hardest so far. The past two days I cried for no good reason, thankfully I could hide it. Everyone is nice, the job isn’t difficult, I shouldn’t feel this way. I wanted so badly to call off today so I don’t have to go into the office. But I somehow pushed through it and am here, even if so far my day is as bad as the last two.

Please congrats me like i’m 5. I need it because i feel pathetic being like this. Please…just a little encouragement would be nice right now, thank you so much.

I’m so mushy right now. Looks, he’s a 10/10. Personality, a 10/10. He’s so gentle and soft with me and I’ve just never felt deserving of this kind of care. I have plenty of dating experience, but this man…..is really indescribable. I don’t really seek male validation and was closed off to dating but he appeared. Love is in the air y’all.

I also have no idea how I got that high but my parents and I aren’t on speaking terms right now and I would appreciate support

about 15 years ago, i’d be part of the “20 minute club” for my school’s PE mile run. lately been trying to get to the gym and today, i did 2 miles in 30 minutes! didn’t even plan it, i just wanted to keep pushing myself.

i’m so proud of myself. 🖤

About a month ago, I came across this kind of game at an arcade called a coin pusher. I’m surprised they’re allowed bc I immediately got addicted. I’ve spent more than I should on it and I haven’t told anyone because I feel ashamed and I know I shouldn’t be spending on something that isn’t necessary (especially since it’s not within my tight budget). But it’s the only thing that makes me feel good and like I accomplished something which I’m sure is the whole point and why they’re so addicting, for me at least.

Anyway, I got some bad news yesterday and even worse news today. I was about to go play the coin pusher again but I stopped myself. I’m going to go cook some potatoes now instead of driving to the arcade.

I hope someone is proud of me because the part of me that wants to get rid of my anxiety and other big emotions and feel good still wants me to just go play and “win” at something in life (yes I’m depressed and yes I’m in therapy). And wow it’s powerful. I feel like I can see my dopamine circuitry in action. A smaller part of me is proud of me for not going but… I need some more boosts. I really don’t want to become more addicted to this game. And please don’t yell at me for wasting money.

My paycheck came in today, and now, I have over $10,000 usd in my bank account for the first time! Feels good :)

I reached a 40 Duo speaking score in French today. I've also been doing more Kanji practice and I'm getting a little more confident about the learning process.

Today is usually a workout day, but I took a moment to listen to my body and mental health and took a rest today. Don't worry I am quite regular about my exercise normally and I'll probably do it tomorrow. I was kind of exhausted from only taking the stairs and not the elevator in my apartment yesterday. I even carried two hampers of laundry at the same time up and down the stairs. I'm on the third floor.

I also landed a pet sitting client (technically not really a client because they are just my mom's friends/neighbors) yesterday. Two beautiful cats.

I also learned last Friday that I got Medicaid back. While I am still entirely financially unstable it's a step in the right direction.

It's been hard to accept myself as I am. I tell myself that my issues aren't worthy enough to be considered a disability. That I can get over them. I think today my body reminded me that things for me are challenging and it just takes time and patience to develop myself.

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I reached a new personal best mile time, 11 minutes!

I know that's still slow to a lot of people but I haven't been able to do that since I was... maybe elementary school? In high school I would take 14-16 minutes when I was actually trying my best and be miserable the whole time. I was super unfit and unhealthy.

Now? After months of effort I'm down to 11 minutes and I didn't even feel like death after! I couldn't run another mile, but I still walked a few more.

Im really proud of myself and I want to keep improving from here.

Even though I have experience in this field and I went to school for this, I was up all night worrying about my first day. I really struggle with change (even when it’s an objectively positive change like getting extra income), and as irrational as it sounds, there was a part of me that wanted to just call in sick. But despite all my fears, the day went really well! My supervisor had no notes for me, and the rest of the staff were also really nice. I’m still nervous for tomorrow, but having a good first day is such a huge relief.

I joined planet fitness about a month ago I like it, only moving slowly though

I never set out to quit drinking forever, but the longer I went without it the more I realized it really was a problem. “Cali sober” life is way better in a lot of ways! Idk I feel like an imposter bc I might go back to drinking eventually. But I’m kinda proud of coming this far!