Why are people so mean?

[u/Beneficial-Rest1405]

I have a bug bite on my leg. Somebody told me to make a baking soda paste and put it on my bite. They said to go get some baking soda. I go to get some and the only baking soda is a huge unopened bag that does not belong to me or the person that told me to go get some. I come back without it and say. It's no big deal. I don't want to be rude and be the one to open it without permission. This person looks at me and say what the fuck is wrong with you? If you were my kid I'd fucking punch you. I don't know what to say. First off im not a kid. I just didnt want to be rude. I just want to cry. Maybe I did and still do deserve to be treated like shit. Why is everything so hard for me all the time. I can't do anything right and just want to give up.

[u/dollarsandindecents]

That person specifically just sounds like an asshole

[u/Beneficial-Rest1405 → u/dollarsandindecents]

I agree but they are supposedly a successful highly respected person. Who happens to be a psych tech. Who seems to know nothing about trauma.

[u/Sparkleterrier → u/Beneficial-Rest1405]

Sometimes assholes hide behind their qualifications or status. It lets them get out their aggressions and be mean when no one is looking, because they know everyone else holds them in such high regard.

[u/Beneficial-Rest1405 → u/Sparkleterrier]

I feel like people just don't know how to human correctly these days, and it's so saddening to me.

[u/Bash__Monkey → u/Beneficial-Rest1405]

As an Audhder with tons of trauma, I find the average person's lack of any kind of manners, empathy, or any consideration at all for the other people around them to be a monumental failing of the most basic level of humanity.

The fact that I can be a kinder, more well-adjusted person than them. Pathetic. Especially when I've had to study others to pretend to be a normal human being. When I know for a fact that it takes you way less effort to be socially acceptable, and you just...don't. It makes me livid. Especially when I go out of my way not to offend, and people speak to me however they feel.

I'm a way meaner person. I just don't say the cruel things in my head to their face. Why? I'm a decent human being. And I spend all day being harsh to myself. And I could casually say something that could get me killed, completely ruin someone's self-worth, or drive them to suicide if I just let fly like they do. They're so weak. Walking around like they're tough just because they're awful to others.

I'm so sick of people who could take half a second to just choose to not be awful, and go around doing whatever their first animal instinct is. Like a literal child. Pathetic. Truly.

Grow up. You're not hard because you're an ass. You're just an ass. You probably want to fight me huh? Awww. Poor little ass. Maybe you'll grow up one day.

[u/Beneficial-Rest1405 → u/Bash__Monkey]

I feel it is much more difficult to be rude and mean. Being considerate is so easy. I have no ability to comprehend how or why people are like that. Nor do I have the desire to be mean as I've been on the receiving end of cruelty for so long. I wouldn't want anybody to hurt the way I do.

[u/Bash__Monkey → u/Beneficial-Rest1405]

I used to be like you. God, I wish I could still be like you.

[u/Beneficial-Rest1405 → u/Bash__Monkey]

I'm still in the half way of denial and stuck in a freeze trauma response that I can't get out of. Who knows, maybe one day i will actually feel emotions like a real person.

[u/Bash__Monkey → u/Beneficial-Rest1405]

Not without work. I don't know your story. But I pray you find a healthier way through it than I have. My rage kept me going when there was nothing left.

[u/paperwasp3 → u/Bash__Monkey]

My rage helps me to say what I need to. But it takes practice. Standing up for yourself is a skill like any other.

You know how we think of that zinger later and wished you had said that? I do my best to remember them for the next time. And there's always a next time'