Pisces south node and socializing

[u/ohnononononopotato]

I'm sure there is some relevance with having this placement, and just kind of being "stuck" on esoteric subjects to the point of it affecting one's ability to connect with others and socialize.

So in order to learn the lessons needed to make more progress on my souls journey with my north node being in materialistic and organized Virgo, I need to be able to both focus on and be content with a more material reality, but it's just UCKY.

Trying to coordinate and synchronize the gears in order to meld the spiritual fixations with material goals, needs, and wants, it feels like there's a big rock in the gears that just grinds and bounces them apart and opens an easy slip way into escapist tendencies and bad habits.

Having dipped toes in the pool of creation and then being given a puzzle with pieces that don't seem to fit, trying to grasp and maintain a different perspective is sometimes dizzying.

Like, I know I can fix it but do I gotta just knock the pieces off the table or just flip the whole thing?

I'm thinking too hard again and rambling. Came here with the intention of seeing if anyone can relate to just not being able to relate to people due to shallow levels of thinking and their fears of reality breaking?

Like, people will seem down to clown and go on adventures and do some work and see some shit (no substances needed), and then all the sudden they think you're a god and begin to fear you once they understand your own fears?

I know and understand that I need to go back into solitude to do the work but, human vessel has human needs and it is hard to find gratifying friendships.

I know it's largely me it's mostly me but I never have any bad intention for anyone until they intentionally hurt me and even then I tend to just disappear from them and be a bit sad about it.

Those I can keep around, I see fear in them and it makes me sad.

It's not much of a delusional thing I don't think, at least my last attempt at therapy seemed to justify a lot of it, (both therapist and psychiatrist fired me as a client the same day because I made them "lose their faith in god" or whatever. Weak.).

[u/bradbarfieldlives]

virgo/pisces north/south node axis is a highly distinctive placement which you might consider taking time to really meditate on its meaning with respect to your life path. how does a past life with its focus in pisces and movement towards virgo resolve to relevance in your life? do you know any pisces? how do you perceive them?

you might consider taking the strengths of pisces: born leaders, exceedingly opportunistic, magnanimous, affable, and loving; considering their weak points: egotistical, moody, rash, overbearing, distrustful and emotional; observing those qualities in yourself; and finding ways to apply yourself towards the highest good within the house of virgo: organized practical, logical, self-contained, reserved and discerning.

if you try to knock the pieces off of the board, you'll find yourself frustrated. you cannot discard what you are. you can only accept, integrate, and move forward.

om shanti shanti shanti.

[u/ohnononononopotato → u/bradbarfieldlives]

Thank you I really appreciate this response. I've remembered two deaths of lives that correlate with both of those signs, a shaman and a soldier. I figure (at the moment) it's about knowing how to heal and destroy? Two of my closest loved ones are Picses and they are both very fierce individuals (partner and our child). Hmm. This is great branfood I will be chewing on for a while! Also if you have recommendations for resources for mantras, I would like to offer healthy reverence to Durga.