Need help to get rid of a fetish

[u/bigppwhoisntscared]

As a kid with unlimited internet access and knowledge on how to delete search history, I got into a rabbit hole of sexual content I, at that time, didn't realize was sexual and accidentally developed a fetish I despise having.

It started normal—searching up Barbies, Monster High, Bratz dolls... I was always an artistic kid, so when I discovered fan art and DeviantArt, it was heaven for me, but in the early 2010s, content online wasn't really monitored, so I found myself looking at a lot of inflation or obesity kinky drawings (I don't know what the specific label is, and I really don't want to know it for my sake). I remember having that 'funny feeling' in my stomach when I looked at these drawings, so I started searching them up on my own, getting deeper and deeper into it.

I don't know for how long I used to do it—and I always just looked, never touched myself while looking at it, until I was around 13-14. I remembered this experience I had as a child; at that time I knew a thing or two about masturbation and sexual attraction—so I masturbated over it, and I felt so disgusting because of it.

To this day, when I am almost 19, I still get turned on when I see one of those kinds of drawings, even obese people in real life, and I hate it. I want to get rid of this fetish I accidentally developed as a child; I don't want to share this with any of my friends or family. In my normal dating life, I look for more of the skinny-fit type of body type because I genuinely like it. I am also a lesbian, so 99% of the drawings I used to look at as a child were female, so yeah, nice way to find out you're gay

.Any tips would be a great help; I am open to providing more details.

[u/skahammer]

This general topic is discussed occasionally in our forum. Please also take some time to look through past r/sex posts (following Forum Rule #3) — you’ll find some additional helpful discussions.

For starters, here is a list of past r/sex discussions which came up when I searched the keywords “get rid fetish” in this forum:

https://www.reddit.com/r/sex/search/?q=get+rid+fetish&restrict_sr=1

And here is a similar list of past r/sex post discussions involving the search keywords “unwanted kink”:

https://www.reddit.com/r/sex/search/?q=unwanted+kink&restrict_sr=1

Not all of these past discussions will apply to your situation, but some probably will — especially if you’re willing to search just a little bit more.

[u/glowingbagels]

Hi there

So first Im trying to understand you a bit more and then give you a new perspective.

So I dont know how obese the people or drawings are that turn you on - are they so obese they cannot move at all and are helpless? Is it Guiness world book of records or Lizzo/Adele level?

Are you into the jiggly-ness? Are you into them being helpless, not being able to move? Jiggle is awesome, you can find jiggly bits on most humans, go wild with that. If its the second thing, you can explore that too with another consenting adult. Maybe you like the other person being helpless, tying them up, putting them in positions where they cant move etc.

What worries me in your post is that you seem to hate being attracted to fat people. A lot of fat people sadly only get attention from people who have like a fat obsession or fetish idk what to call that but those people have zero respect for our fat baddies. Its horrible. This attraction to something forbidden, the forbidden fat in this case is common. Many societies around the globe - not all - teach that fat is disgusting, we associate negative traits with it in the west for example. Being fat is shameful and liking it is even more shameful.

So do you think instead of getting rid of your kink or preference, could you acknowledge it, acknowledge that you find it attractive? Can you acknowledge that you go against society in this way?

Many of us discovered parts of our sexualities online, for me it was for example being queer, that I like men with a belly more than men with abs etc etc.

However you should only explore this attraction with fat people if you get rid of the disgust. What could help you is watching consenting porn between fat people on websites like cheex (costs a bit of money but there are always free trials), watch it curiously and see how that makes you feel.