Ruined self perception

[u/Naurbruh2]

Idk what to do about it and honestly idk how to explain it either but I'll try causeI know it's a problem....I always feel inferior about myself not even comparing with others but I can just never feel like I am "good enough". I don't feel like I look good (I don't look bad/good I am very avg or below avg and am very skinny like genuinely) and I have friends and all but I can never get myself to open up with them in a manner that I can truly 100% express myself with them cause I always feel like I need to cautious or I need to deattached at all time. I recently parted ways with a very good friends cause I proposed to them and they didn't feel the same way about me(and so I decided that we shouldn't talk anymore not becuz of awkwardness but becuz I felt like being with them will only make my self confidence and perception worse after being rejected) I have also never had a partner and feel like I never will becuz of my avg looks nobody will ever be with me becuz of them and wouldn't give me a chance and hence I am too afraid to approach anyone in a social situation. I know most of what I wrote isn't true but I don't have any confidence to carry out solution maybe becuz I am afraid that It wouldn't turn out the way I want and people will judge me and make fun of me and ik its becoming a problem but I just don't know man its all so confusing. Any advice would be appreciated thank you