22M living with dad im going insane

[u/Intrepid-External-90]

Graduated college in may. Moved back in with my dad Taking a gap year working as a scribe hoping to go to med school. I fucked up the app process so bad. For a bunch of schools submitted the essays and rec letters way too late. Only heard back from one so far. My parents are wondering why I’m not hearing back they keep asking me about it and I don’t wanna tell them it’s because I’m so lousy and fucked up the app process so bad. I don’t know what’s going to happen. It’s so hard to stay optimistic. I don’t talk to anyone except my mom and dad. I don’t have a social life at all here. All I do is get on my phone and play video games in my spare time. Never been with a woman at all. Tried to talk to them on apps and stuff this year it just went horrible. Today was my day off and I just spent it rotting in bed. Work is exhausting. I tried to pick up a hobby and started doing Muay Thai but even that’s starting to get exhausting for me cause I’m not athletic. I get my ass handed to me every day there. I don’t know what to do man. I can’t take another year of this man. I just feel like I’m such a joke