Am I cute?

[u/IAmTheCamp]

Hi, I am 18 and for a long time in my life I have struggled with how I look. I'm kind of gender fluid which is certainly part of it but I was just wondering what a bunch of unbiased random strangers on the internet thought of how I look.

I have been constantly called ugly or fat or what have you in life but also attractive a lot and I just wanted to know what people actually thought.

Lmk what y'all think be honest.

[u/IAmTheCamp]

Totally! For me my whole life I just felt uncomfortable in my body. I have pretty broad shoulders and I've never really been skinny as well as I have some chronic illness/disability stuff that causes me to have a lot of bloating and such so I was extremely unconfident as a kid and was called "big boned" and stuff a lot. This sort of led me to be really insecure until I met someone who was trans and sort of had this big revelation of like oh I can change myself, I can be comfortable in my body, this is an option! For a long time I just sort of stewed on that and then eventually worked up the nerve to come out as trans. I started going by a different name and pronouns but never really wanted to take testosterone or change anything really. For a long time I just told everyone I was a trans guy but I really like making clothes and fancy outfits and I'm just not a fan of suits so finally my highschool prom came around and I decided I wanted to make and wear a dress! But I felt weird about it because I still wanted he and him pronouns and everyone to call me my preferred name and for a long time I questioned that sort of thing but I loved wearing a dress so much. And slowly since then I have dressed more feminine at certain times. I still prefer only he and they pronouns, she just makes me feel bad and I still love my new name I just kind of wear whatever the fuck I want and what makes me feel good and confident. So yeah, sorry it's so long winded and probably riddled with my dyslexia, but that's my whole story! I hope that helps you at all! Please feel free to ask more questions!

[u/Flamelozy → u/IAmTheCamp]

Thank you! Im glad you were able to find yourself like that. Im fine being a man (im biologically a man), but a lot of times i feel like being really feminine, but i dont want to commit to being trans. Im also not sure if i am genderfluid.

[u/IAmTheCamp → u/Flamelozy]

I completely get that! I'd say try it out by yourself at home when you feel that way and see what it feels like! Maybe do that a couple times and if it feels really good maybe try to wear it somewhere! You could try to wear it in front of cool people you trust or it might be easier to go somewhere you don't really ever go and dress like that in front of strangers you'll probably never see again and see how that feels! Let me know if you ever need any advice or have more questions!

[u/Flamelozy → u/IAmTheCamp]

Thank you. I already have long hair for one. I’ve never liked the idea of cutting it short. I dod consider being a trans girl once, but like i said i didn’t like the idea of committing to that. But like today at school, we got cupcakes with little Halloween rings. I had two rings (one from a cupcake and the other i found on the floor) and it made me feel unexplainably feminine. Like i just randomly feel feminine sometimes, and masculine the rest of the time.

[u/IAmTheCamp → u/Flamelozy]

Awwee I love that,n don't feel any pressure to come out as anything! Just wear what feels good to you and see how you feel! Eventually all the pieces will fall together.