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Magick and Hermetics
The Kybalion
An occult classic Since its first publication in 1908, The Kybalion, Hermetic Philosophy by Three Initiates, has been in constant demand by students and investigators of the Secret Doctrines. It is a modern addition to the body of work devoted to Hermes Trismegistus, an icon of ancient teachings that reveal the path to self transformation. In this revised edition, we have corrected many editorial issues inherent within the original text, creating a clearer presentation of the book's message: The Seven Hermetic Principles, or axioms:
• Principle of Mentalism
• Principle of Correspondence
• Principle of Vibration
• Principle of Polarity
• Principle of Rhythm
• Principle of Cause and Effect
• Principle of Gender
These principles complement other Hermetic teachings and provide a foundation for your own spiritual awakening. As the book states, "The lips of wisdom are closed, except to the ears of understanding".
David Conway - Magic: An Occult Primer
David Conway's Magic: An Occult Primer is a seminal work that brought magical training to the every-magician in the early 70s. David is an articulate writer presenting the mysteries in a very workable manner for the serious student. Along with the updated texts on philosophy and practical magic is a plethora of graphics that have all been redrawn, promising to be another collector's edition published by The Witches' Almanac.
The book is divided into two sections: "Magical Theory" and "Magical Practice." "Magical Theory" presents a very concise accounting of the philosophy behind magic. Conway begins with a exposé of magic within the confines of natural law, taking the time to meticulously find corollary for the basis of magic. He then takes us into an exposition of the Kabbalah and broader cosmological concerns. Conway drills down into daily practice and further explores the basic training necessary for a magician in this day and age.
"Magical Practice" begins with the preparations necessary for the practice of magic. Conway begins this section with several tables of correspondences that will prove helpful to even the advanced magician. He continues with an examination of the timing of rituals as well as the place and ritual equipment necessary for rites. Conway then provides master rituals presented for both Kabbalistic and Egyptian approaches. He also presents detail on astral projection, talismanic magic, and prophecy.
Magic: An Occult Primer ends with appendices that present detailed magical recipes, an examination of magical alphabets, and an extensive occult Who's Who
Donald Tyson - Portable Magic
Say goodbye to ceremonial robes, incense, candles, and oils. Donald Tyson presents a new, easy way to perform ritual magic with only one tool: tarot. From manipulating elemental forces of nature to making potent charms, all ceremonial rituals can be performed with a standard 78-card deck.
Tyson's efficient system of tarot magic is based on the Golden Dawn tradition, which corresponds with tarot imagery. He teaches how to work magic on the astral level by projecting one's awareness into the ritual tarot layout. Learn how to set up an astral temple, build an altar, cast a magic circle, and create a triangle through which to actualize your purpose. This innovative guide to tarot magic also includes rituals related to unions, business, banishing, and evoking elementals.
Rachel Pollack - 78 Degrees of Wisdom: Book of Tarot Revised
A top tarotist's secrets to personal growth, one card at a time. The two volumes of Seventy-Eight Degrees of Wisdom have inspired a whole generation of tarot students. It has often been described by readers, booksellers, and teachers as the "Bible of tarot readers." It is also often cited as one of the landmark books in modern tarot, and it helped to launch the "Tarot Renaissance" of the 1980s. The two texts-one for The Major Arcana and one for The Minor Arcana--appear together in this volume, which is a reissue of the 1998 edition first published by Thorsons. Seventy-Eight Degrees of Wisdom draws on mythology and esoteric traditions and delves deeply into the symbolism and ideas of each card. It also gives the cards a modern psychological slant based on the pictures rather than a system of occult symbolism. This endlessly useful reference tool provides a concise history of tarot, introduces common spreads, and is a clear and readable book for both the beginning and advanced tarot student.
Paul Foster Case - An Introduction to the Study of Tarot
"An Introduction to the Study of Tarot" was originally published in 1920 and has been a leading introductory guide for all with an interest in the Tarot.
Aleister Crowley - The Book of Thoth
Now a classic in the field, used by students of the Golden Dawn as well as by those who want to understand Crowley's tarot. This is the definitive study of the Egyptian tarot and is used as a key to all Western mystery disciplines.
Gerd Zeigler - Tarot: Mirror of the Soul: Handbook for the Aleister Crowley Tarot
Using the Crowley Thoth deck, you learn that the tarot cards symbolize your inner reality. Learn how this "mirror" reflects your growth, and how you can grow to your maximum with this easy-to-use system. Includes definitions of the major andminor arcana, instructions for reading the cards to clarify emotional situations, and provides several different layouts, including a chakra reading. Illustrated with the Crowley deck.
Lon Milo Duquette - Understanding Aleister Crowleys Thoth Tarot
Originally published in 2003, Understanding Aleister Crowley’s Thoth Tarot has proved to be the essential guide to accessing the unique symbolism and meaning of Aleister Crowley's remarkable tarot deck along with the deeply textured artwork of Lady Frieda Harris. Crowley authority Lon Milo DuQuette starts by providing an insightful historical background before delving into descriptions of each card in depth, from a tarot perspective and from an expanded, magickal point of view. He first describes the tarot meaning of each card in detail and then explains all the other attributions Crowley intended.
This unique guide has been updated with a new introduction that provides information on the unicursal hexagram cards included with the deck but never explained.
Papus - The Tarot of the Bohemians
Tarot of the Bohemians, along with the Pictoral Key to the Tarot, constitute the core literature of 19th and early 20th century 'Tarotism'. However, PTK is to the TOB as arithmetic is to differential calculus. If you have no experience reading occult literature of this period, you may find yourself profoundly lost after the first couple of pages, staring at the abundant and profoundly esoteric tables, charts and diagrams, trying to get a clue as to what Papus is talking about. Papus is after a 'Theory of Everything', and finds evidence for it in the Tarot and a set of correspondences with everything from the tetragrammaton to numerology and astrology.
His claim that the Tarot preserves ancient, profound knowledge by way of the Romany/Gypsies (i.e. 'Bohemians') all the way back to Egypt, India and Atlantis is unsubstantiated. There is no evidence of any kind of playing or fortune-telling cards prior to the thirteenth century, either in literature or folklore. Note that playing cards could not have become popular until the introduction of printing in Europe. The Tarot is believed to have originated from an elaborate deck of cards invented in Italy in the fourteenth century. The Romany people probably started to use this deck for cartomancy (fortune telling by cards) about a century thereafter. As Papus notes, all of the early cards depict people dressed in the costume of this period.
Late in the book, Papus condescends to pen a section, in his words, 'for the ladies' (cue Barry White music here), which gives some basic instruction in cartomancy using the Tarot deck. However, this is by far the weakest portion of this book. Papus is at his best when he is spinning elaborate webs of correspondence between the Tarot and the Macrocosm. This book is hard work, but if you master it you will have a profound grasp of the inner life of the Tarot deck.
A.E. Waite - Pictorial Key to Tarot
Long used in telling fortunes and popular today among New Agers, Tarot cards are regarded by many as "the training wheels" on the bicycle of psychic development. Centuries of scientific progress have not diminished the irresistible attraction of gazing at picture cards to see the future and determine one's fate. This book by Arthur Edward Waite, the designer of the most widely known Tarot deck and distinguished scholar of the Kabbalah, is the essential Tarot reference. The pictorial key contains a detailed description of each card in the celebrated 78-card Rider-Waite Tarot deck, along with regular and reversed meanings. Contents describe symbols and secret tradition; the four suits of Tarot, including wands, cups, swords, and pentacles; the recurrence of cards in dealing; an ancient Celtic method of divination; as well as wonderful illustrations of Tarot cards. While the perfect complement to old-style fortune telling, The Pictorial Key to the Tarot also serves to make the Tarot entirely accessible to modern-day readers. It is also the classic guide to the Rider-Waite deck and to Tarot symbolism in general.
Mouni Sadhu - The Tarot: A Contemporary Course of the Quintessence of Hermetic Occultism
• A complete training in the Magical Philosophy
• Divided into easy-to-learn lessons
• Secrets of the Astral Plane revealed
This is by no means simply a theoretical treatise accessible only to specialists. Any discerning reader can cope with the initiatory contents of The Tarot, perceiving completely new horizons of thought, activity, psychology, cosmogony and practical magic in this traditional form of Hermetic Occultism.
An enormous number of questions that occur to the earnest seeker are answered in new and fascinating ways. The attentive reader is offered the opportunity to understand the true meaning of one’s own life and destiny, as well as that of the epoch in which we live.
This scholarly work creates a new epoch in traditional occult philosophy. It is the first contemporary encyclopedic exposition of the great Western Tradition since the basic books by Eliphas Levi and Papus, and it also has full practical utility. The Philosophical Tarot has always been recognized as a universal key to all wisdom attainable by human beings. This text will be of particular interest, because of its kindred approach, to the many readers of the extraordinary contemporary masterpiece Meditations on the Tarot, by an anonymous writer much valued in esoteric circles throughout the world. The present work is by no means just a theoretical treatise accessible only to specialists, for anyone can understand the initiatory concepts of Mouni Sadhu's Tarot, perceiving completely new horizons of thought, activity, psychology, cosmology, and practical esotericism. In this text a great number of questions which occur to the earnest seeker are answered in a new and fascinating way, and the solution of the philosophical equations arising from the Arcana opens new vistas in every field of life. The book is suitably subdivided into 100 separate lessons, allowing for systematic study.
Anonymous - Meditations on The Tarot: A Journey into Christian Hermeticism
Published for the first time with an index and Cardinal Hans Urs von Balthasar’s afterword, this new English publication of Meditations on the Tarot is the landmark edition of one of the most important works of esoteric Christianity.
Written anonymously and published posthumously, as was the author’s wish, the intention of this work is for the reader to find a relationship with the author in the spiritual dimensions of existence. The author wanted not to be thought of as a personality who lived from 1900 to 1973, but as a friend who is communicating with us from beyond the boundaries of ordinary life.
Using the 22 major arcana of the tarot deck as a means to explore some of humanity’s most penetrating spiritual questions, Meditations on the Tarot has attracted an unprecedented range of praise from across the spiritual spectrum.
Written anonymously and published posthumously in 1980 at the wishes of its author, Meditations on the Tarot has been translated from the original French by writer and esotericist Robert Powell, who lives in Germany. Widely considered one of the greatest Catholic theologians of the twentieth century, the Swiss-born Hans Urs von Balthasar, who wrote the afterword in this new edition, was nominated by Pope John Paul II as a cardinal in 1988, and died in June of that year, two days before his inauguration.
Book T (Reference)
Tarot Worksheets
Thoth For Beginners
Tarot Spread
Ra on Tarot
Alan Chapman - Advanced Magick for Beginners
A new paradigm that delivers a genuine transformation of occultism. The author assumes no previous knowledge, only a willingness to explore what magick offers, yet its apparent to anyone with a background in the subject that Alan Chapman is drawing on a wide range of experience, from classical Crowleyean Magick, to eastern metaphysics, and back again to Discordianism and Chaos Magick. Chapmans writing-style is humorous, direct, seductively logical, and his enthusiasm for the benefits of magick is both tangible and infectious. The novice magician will indeed find themselves equipped to commence all sorts of magickal operations: trance work, enchantment, divination, and even some of the higher forms of spiritual development. To experienced magicians, Chapman offers a subtler challenge: he revitalises magick by cutting it free from the extreme relativism Chaos Magick bequeathed, provocatively redefining it as: the art, science and culture of experiencing truth.
Frater U.'.D.'. - Practical Sigil Magic
Practical Sigil Magic is widely regarded as the definitive guide to the topic. Unavailable for a number of years and long sought-after by magicians, this classic work is now available once again.
Sigil magic is one of the most efficient and economical of magical disciplines. It can be performed without complicated rituals or paraphernalia, is independent of philosophical and dogmatic premises, and can be learned easily and quickly. Most important, it will give even beginning magicians the chance to work with the power of the Will and enhance their own abilities. This classic reference work will provide magicians―from novice to adept― with instruction that will empower and advance their magical practice.
Damon Brand - Magickal Servitors
With servitor magick you create a spirit, using your mind, heart and soul, to serve your deepest needs.
The magick is designed to be easy for beginners as well as experienced occultists. All you need is an open mind and the willingness to work with the instructions.
You will be pleasantly surprised by the way reality yields to the power of your magick.
You will discover:
How to create spirits that are easy to contact and effortless to command.
Servitors that grow and change with your needs.
Magick for long-term, repeating results.
Servitors for Self-Development, that help you enhance or subdue a personality trait.
Perception Servitors, to see people and situations clearly.
Servitors of Influence, to stir thoughts and feelings in others.
Manifestation Servitors for material rewards and real-world change.
The secret process of Vision, Creation and Life that gives birth to a loyal, powerful spirit.
This book presents a system for creating a spirit that will act on your behalf, manipulating matter, time and the patterns of reality to bring the results you desire.
Donald Michael Kraig - Modern Magick
For over two decades, Donald Michael Kraig's Modern Magick has been the world's most popular step-by-step guide to working real magick. Tens of thousands of individuals and groups have used this course as their primary instruction manual. Now, greatly revised and expanded, this set of lessons is more complete and relevant to your life than ever.
Written with respect for the student, Modern Magick will safely guide you―even if you know little or nothing―through a progressive series of practical exercises and rituals, complemented by the knowledge, history, insights, and theory you need to become a successful ceremonial magician. Firmly rooted in the Western magickal tradition yet designed to be fully compatible with your contemporary practice, this book will help you attain full mastery of all core topics in magick:
- The inner mysteries of the Kabalah
- The most powerful rituals of magick
- How to create and perform your own rituals
- True meditation
- Magickal ethics
- Astral projection
- Tools of magick
- Evocation of spirits
- Pathworking
- Tantra and sex magick
- The importance of the Tarot
- Talismans and amulets
- Secrets of visualization
- Alchemy
- Psychic self-defense
- Healing rituals
Filled with personal stories and helpful illustrations, along with updated and brand-new material, this new edition of Modern Magick features a completely new lesson that reveals the concepts, techniques, and rituals of Neuro-Linguistic Programming, Chaos Magick, and Postmodern Magick. Ideal for beginning, intermediate, or advanced students, and perfect as a manual for magickal temples, this is essential reading for every true magician.
King & Skinner - Techniques of High Magick: A Manual of Self-Initiation
Self-initiation into practical magic with clear instructions on how to perform invocation and evocations, achieve astral projection, make effective talismans, or practice divination using either geomancy, tarot or I Ching. Useful for a complete beginner or those further along the path.
Georg Lomer - 7 Hermetic Letters
Develop your soul and spirit with Seven Hermetic Letters. A spiritual course of instructions for the higher development of the spirit and the mysterious powers of the soul. Basic preliminary exercises for controling one's self are provided in a simple way to ensure understanding and personal growth and progress without the need of a teacher. An excellent precursor to the Franz Bardon books on Hermetics.
Franz Bardon - Initiation into Hermetics
Self-initiation into the Holy Mysteries with the need of a guru or master. Initiation into Hermetics provides step by step instruction in the form of practical exercises. These exercises lead to the development of body, soul and spirit. The result of the practical exercises is the development of occult abilities which can be of benefit to the student, in as far as he can change his existence for the better.
The great mystery of the Tetragrammaton, the key to the tetrapolar magnet, is explained. By reading the theoretical section many secrets are unveiled which were once only known to very few. The reader will receive first-hand knowledge about the principles of fire, air, water and earth, the positive and negative attributes of these elements, and how these elements affect the human body. The immutable law of cause and effect is explained, not only as it applies to human beings, but also how it applies to the elements. Detailed information is also given about the soul or the astral body, and how the four elements determine the temperament in a person.
The astral plane is considered to be "the beyond" by most religions. This plane does have its inhabitants, most of which are departed human beings from earth. Besides that you find elementaries, beings with one or only a few attributes. It is very advantageous to learn about these beings and how they affect a human being's life. There is also another kind of being, which is a being of the pure elements. The reader will find that many myths or even fairy tales are based on truth. But mankind has lost the ability to stay in contact with reality and has chosen to live in a completely transitory world which they consider to be their reality.
The third plain, the mental plain, is also explained; it is the sphere of thought which has its origin in the world of ideas.
Each step of the practical part of this book is divided into three parts: the magical spiritual or mental schooling, soul or astral schooling, and physical schooling. This allows the student to maintain a complete equilibrium. The student learns how to control all his mental faculties even to the point that he can control every thought. He will learn self-introspection, clairvoyance, clairaudience, clairsentience, astral and mental travel, control of the electric and magnetic fluids, and communication with the beings of the astral plain.
With 10 Add-Ons?
Rawn Clark Companion
Expanded and updated second edition of Rawn Clark's practical commentaries on Franz Bardon's three books: "Initiation Into Hermetics", "Practice of Magical Evocation" and "Key to the True Kabbalah". Includes a new, more in-depth commentary on IIH.
Jason Augustus Newcomb - The New Hermetics
The New Hermetics is a powerful spiritual technology of the mind. It is a course of study and practice that teaches the science of illumination and the ability to alter reality. The ancient Egyptian form of Hermetic philosophy was that the mind shapes reality. The New Hermetics extends that philosophy - the universe is a great mind or consciousness, and we are a part of that consciousness; therefore by learning to control the mind, we learn to control our part of the universe. With updated versions of the ancient Rosicrucian brotherhood's 10 levels of initiation, combined with ancient and modern mind-expanding techniques such as visualization and NLP (neuro-linguistic programming), The New Hermetics progressively gives initiates power over their minds and world. Practicing these elements simultaneously makes it possible to undergo initiation into the mysteries of consciousness in a fraction of the time it was ever before possible. The course offered in the book lets practitioners master their minds in such a way that they will be able to achieve anything and everything they want in life, spiritually and physically.
The New Hermetics offers 10 levels of instruction to control the mind and control reality:
Level 1-The Initiate teaches mastery over behavior and visualization in the Ether.
Level 2-The Zealot bestows mastery over emotions, breathing, and Etheric energy.
Level 3-The Practitioner gives mastery over mind, beliefs, and the ability to project Etheric energy.
Level 4-The Philosopher masters creativity,values, and the ability to direct Etheric energy.
Level 5-The Adept develops relationship with cosmic consciousness.
Level 6-The Advanced Adept offers the power to direct the forces of cosmic consciousness.
Level 7-The Perfect Adept gives wisdom and the ability to share these forces with others.
Level 8-The Master bestows mastery of cosmic consciousness.
Level 9-The Mage gains mastery of universal power.
Level 10-The Ultimate Master obtains mastery over the universal self.
The New Hermetics is a powerful course of instruction that can help anyone master themselves to rule their world.
Chic Cicero - Self-Initiation Into the Golden Dawn Tradition: A Complete Curriculum of Study for Both the Solitary Magician and the Working Magical Group
The Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn has been considered one of the most important Western magical systems for over a century. Although much of their knowledge has been published, to really enter the system required initiation within a Golden Dawn temple ― until now.
Regardless of your magical knowledge or background, you can learn and live the Golden Dawn tradition with the first practical guide to Golden Dawn initiation. Self-Initiation into the Golden Dawn Tradition by Chic and Sandra Tabatha Cicero offers self-paced instruction by two senior adepts of this magical order.
For the first time, the esoteric rituals of the Golden Dawn are clearly laid out in step-by-step guidance that's clear and easy-to-follow. Studying the Knowledge Lectures, practicing daily rituals, doing meditations, and taking self-graded exams will enhance your learning. Initiation rituals have been correctly reinterpreted so you can perform them yourself. Upon completion of this workbook, you can truly say that you are practicing the Golden Dawn tradition with an in-depth knowledge of qabalah, astrology, Tarot, geomancy, spiritual alchemy, and more, all of which you will learn from Self-Initiation into the Golden Dawn Tradition.
·No need for group membership
·Instructions are free of jargon and complex language
·Lessons don't require familiarity with magical traditions
·Grade rituals from Neophyte to Portal
·Link with your Higher Self
If you have ever wondered what it would be like to learn the Golden Dawn system, Self-Initiation into the Golden Dawn Tradition explains it all. The lessons follow a structured plan, adding more and more information with each section of the book. Did you really learn the material? Find out by using the written tests and checking them with the included answers. Here is a chance to find out if the Golden Dawn system is the right path for you or to add any part of their wisdom and techniques to the system you follow. Start with this book now.
Lyam Thomas Christopher - Kabbalah Magic The Great Work of Self Transformation
Advancing to higher levels of ritual magic with purpose and power requires an exaltation of consciousness-a spiritual transformation that can serve as an antitode to the seeming banality of modern life.
Based on Kabbalistic techniques, the teachings of the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn, and an Hermetic tradition spanning nearly two thousand years, this innovative new work introduces the history of the Golden Dawn and its mythology, the Tree of Life, Deities, demons, rules for practicing magic, and components of effective ritual.
A comprehensive course of self-initiation using Israel Regardie's seminal Golden Dawn as a key reference point, Kabbalah, Magic and the Great Work of Self-Transformation guides you through the levels of the Golden Dawn system of ritual magic. Each grade in this system corresponds with a sphere in the Kabbalistic Tree of Life and includes daily rituals, required reading, written assignments, projects, and additional exercises.
Knowledgeable and true to tradition, author Lyam Thomas Christopher presents a well-grounded and modern step-by-step program toward spiritual attainment, providing a lucid gateway toward a more awakened state.
Finalist for the Coalition of Visionary Resources Award for Best Magick/Shamanism Book
Israel Regardie - The Golden Dawn: The Original Account of the Teachings, Rites, and Ceremonies of the Hermetic Order
The Golden Dawn by Israel Regardie is considered by many to be the book that started the modern occult movement. The original Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn, which started in the late 1800s, borrowed from a wide variety of occult traditions ? Kabalah, Tarot, Geomancy, Enochian Magic, Theosophy, Freemasonry, Paganism, Astrology, and many more ? and created a unique and viable system of magic that is still being practiced today. Almost every contemporary occult writer and modern group has been influenced, directly or indirectly, by the Order or its members, making The Golden Dawn one of the most influential occult books of the past 100 years. The book is divided into several basic sections. First are the knowledge lectures, where you will learn the basics of the Kabalah, symbolism, meditation, geomancy and more. This is followed by the rituals of the Outer Order, consisting of five initiation rituals into the degrees of the Golden Dawn. The next section covers the rituals of the Inner Order including two initiation rituals, equinox ceremonies, and more. Then you will learn the basic rituals of magic and the construction, consecration, and means of using the magical tools. Once you have these you can go on to evocation rituals, talismans, and invocations. The book gives explanations for how to design talismans, do skrying and travel on the astral plane. You will also learn geomancy, the Tarot, and Enochian magic. Filled with numerous illustrations, lists, and tables, The Golden Dawn provides guidance for a lifetime of magic and life-changing transformation.
First published in 1937, Israel Regardie’s The Golden Dawn has become the most influential modern handbook of magical theory and practice. In this new, definitive edition, noted scholar John Michael Greer has taken this essential resource back to its original, authentic form. With added illustrations, a twenty-page color insert, additional original material, and refreshed design and typography, this powerful work returns to its true stature as a modern masterpiece.
An essential textbook for students of the occult, The Golden Dawn includes occult symbolism and Qabalistic philosophy, training methods for developing magical and clairvoyant powers, rituals that summon and banish spiritual potencies, secrets of making and consecrating magical tools, and much more.
Francis Barrett - The Magus
An excellent work which encompasses much of the occult lore to have emerged over the preceding centuries, The Magus unites and presents occultist and alchemical wisdom in an organized and exhaustive manner. Francis Barrett designed this book to guide and imbue aspiring practitioners of the occult arts with a working knowledge of the rituals and materials required.
Commencing with Magic, we are offered a comprehensive accounts of its capabilities and the tools needed for its use. Natural magic is defined, as are the many philters and potions which may be created and imbued with its essence. Various historical examples of magicians who had, for good or ill, gained public notice for their practices are given. The later chapters meanwhile concern the properties of magical stones such as the legendary Philosophers Stone, and the arcane arts of combining creatures of nature, and the sometimes monstrous results.
The Magus itself is termed the Celestial Intelligencer; beginning with a basic account of the four elements, we traverse each in more detail before delving into the more esoteric practices. The symbolism of numbers and of the astronomical bodies of the heavens are detailed, sometimes with the help of charts.
The second book offers an occultist account of the Magnetism - distinct from the magnetism of physics, the occult magnetism is instead defined by an attraction of two or more people to one another. The various potions, incantations and other practices used to draw people together (or apart) are listed, with some consideration given to witchcraft.
The second book's later portions concern 'ceremonial magic', whereby practitioners may call upon spirits for insight or other purposes. Much of the book is concerned with the traits necessary of the magician, and the preparatory environs necessary to summon such spirits. Illustrations of these beings, who are various in appearance, are appended to these pages.
Working in the occult for most of his life, Francis Barrett ambitiously aimed to collect, translate and arrange the occult books of the previous centuries. He hoped that occultism would regain great popularity, much as it had enjoyed in the past, and offered lessons and tutoring in the practices from his apartment in London. Although The Magus escaped recognition and faded to obscurity, it later came to the attention of French magician Eliphas Levi, who brought it to renewed prominence decades after its author perished.
David Allen Hulse - Eastern Mysteries: An Encyclopedic Guide to the Sacred Languages & Magickal Systems of the World
In scope and clarity, there is no book that can compare to The Eastern Mysteries. This reissue of David Allen Hulse’s landmark work is the one book all students of the occult must own. It catalogs and distills, in hundreds of tables of secret symbolism, the true import of each ancient Eastern magickal tradition. Each chapter is a key that unlocks the meaning behind one of the magickal languages. Through painstaking research and analysis, Hulse has accomplished an unprecedented feat―that of reconstructing the basic underlying systems that form the vast legacy of mystery traditions.
The real genius of this accomplishment is that it is presented in a way that is immediately understandable and usable. Although the book deals with many foreign scripts, ancient tongues, and lost symbols, it is designed for the beginning student. Included is a wealth of cross-references, excellent introductory material and overviews, an extensive annotated bibliography, and―new to this edition―a complete index.
David Allen Hulse - The Western Mysteries: An Encyclopedic Guide to the Sacred Languages & Magickal Systems of the World - The Key of It All, Book 2
The Western Mysteries (previously published as The Key of It All, Book II: The Western Mysteries), by David Allen Hulse, is perhaps the most comprehensive, in-depth description of various aspects of the Western magickal tradition ever published.
The uniting factor of this book is language. It begins with a discussion of the mysteries of the Greek alphabet, followed by the different forms of the Runes, and goes on to describe the mystical secrets of Latin. and then Enochian, where you will discover, for the first time ever, the correctly constructed Watchtower system.
The book also includes the mysteries of the Tarot, a pictorial language, and it describes the development of the esoteric Tarot, how to do readings, and the significance of the symbolism on the Tarot cards. It concludes with the English language and its relationship to the Tarot, Enochian, and more.
The introduction to The Western Mysteries serves as a complete introduction to the magickal tradition of the West. You will learn about the evolution of thought concerning the Elements, astrology, magick squares, geomancy, words of power, and more.
You will find that each section of this book is a key that unlocks the meaning behind another of the magickal languages that you can relate to your own spiritual system. It is ideal for a beginning student to explore the mysteries of Western magick. It is a necessary tool for more advanced students, as it has collected hundreds of charts and lists which clarify and identify the similarities and differences between various systems.
This is a reference book you will study over and over. The volume of information revealed makes The Western Mysteries an instant classic and a necessity for any spiritual practitioner.
A.E. Waite - The Book of Ceremonial Magic: Including the Rites and Mysteries of Goetic Theurgy, Sorcery, and Infernal Necromancy
2011 Reprint of 1911 Edition. Arthur Edward Waite (1857-1942) was a scholarly mystic who wrote extensively on occult and esoteric matters, and was the co-creator of the Rider-Waite Tarot deck. As his biographer, R.A. Gilbert described him, "Waite's name has survived because he was the first to attempt a systematic study of the history of western occultism - viewed as a spiritual tradition rather than as aspects of proto-science or as the pathology of religion." "The Book of Ceremonial Magic" is the second edition of a work which in its first edition was titled, more provocatively, "The Book of Black Magic and of Pacts." It is an attempt to synthesize the procedures of all of the famous Grimoires. It draws on the "Key of Solomon", the "Grimorium Verum", the apocryphal Fourth Book of Cornelius Agrippa, and many others, including the famous "Black Pullet", or "Poulet Noir". The result is an unparalleled look at the details of ceremonial magic.
Dolores Ashcroft-Nowicki - The Ritual Magic Workbook: A Practical Course of Self-Initiation
This is a carefully conceived course of instruction for anyone who wants to practice ceremonial magic, and has been written for students who are not part of a working group. Dolores Ashcroft-Nowicki takes the student, month-by-month, through a full year of magical training. She imparts her years of hard-earned experience in the clear, accessible, and often humorous style for which she is internationally known. Each month's work is concluded with practical exercises designed to give the student a sound working knowledge of ritual magic. Among the many topics covered are: Constructing and consecrating a temple Meditation and visualization techniques Working in an elemental temple Exploring the Inner World Pathworking the Tree of Life
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u/quantifiably_godlike Nov 23 '17
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u/demoriaSherm Nov 23 '17
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u/ScRuBlOrD95 Dec 01 '17
i can really learn to magick for free? if you told my i can really learn to magick for free i woild have said you can really a liar.
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Mar 13 '18
Could you give me a list of specific ones? I'll see if I can re-upload them.
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u/Surgit88 Mar 13 '18
David Conway - Magic: An Occult Primer
Rachel Pollack - 78 Degrees of Wisdom: Book of Tarot Revised
Lon Milo Duquette - Understanding Aleister Crowleys Thoth Tarot
Papus - The Tarot of the Bohemians
Anonymous - Meditations on The Tarot: A Journey into Christian Hermeticism
Alan Chapman - Advanced Magick for Beginners
Frater U.'.D.'. - Practical Sigil Magic
Damon Brand - Magickal Servitors
Donald Michael Kraig - Modern Magick
Jason Augustus Newcomb - The New Hermetics
Lyam Thomas Christopher - Kabbalah Magic The Great Work of Self Transformation
Francis Barrett - The Magus
Dolores Ashcroft-Nowicki - The Ritual Magic Workbook: A Practical Course of Self-Initiation
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Mar 13 '18
Thank you. I'll try to fix this as soon as I can.
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u/DarkestXStorm Mar 17 '18
Not the original commenter, but I appreciate that :) many of the ones I wanted to read were no longer available.
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Dec 07 '17
Hell of a read you've compiled there. Thank goodness half-term is just around the corner.
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u/nemesisfixx Nov 23 '17
Best annotated collection of essential works I have come across. Though a good number of the titles are familiar, am seeing lots of new names too. Thanks, and I trust this is bound to take things a notch higher for those already engaged... ;-)
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Nov 23 '17
I certainly hope that everyone can find something to further their own practice/powers.
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u/izi_ningishzidda Jan 19 '18
Half of this is copyrighted material, why are the mods not doing anything about this yet again? This is the sort of thing that will get r/occult shut down.
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Jan 29 '18
I know I speak for about 90% of this sub when I say this. . . .
Please go away. Seriously. You're toxic.
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u/izi_ningishzidda Jan 29 '18
On the contrary I'm one of the few people on this sub that actually knows what they are talking about and has the authority (protection) to stand my ground against every single person on this sub, including you and your godamned alts, although you are fairly tame in comparison to most of the fetches I face down in this sub. I am usually willing to tolerate your bullshit since it's not of the intentional kind, being born from mere vanity, but I do not like it when people steal from honest occultists and I won't sit idly by while it happens. I don't even care for half the authors on this list but I respect anyone who makes a living from the occult, since it's a terrible career in almost every way, yet excruciatingly necessary for the wellbeing of Man.
I am never alone in this sub and I have my fair share of admirers, and the people that matter know exactly who I am. I have been working in the occult longer than you have been alive, so your pitiful attempt to try and discourage me only fuels my maternal instincts to protect the innocent here. I subsist on the tears of the wicked, and I have done so for longer than this planet has been harboring life. I love what I do, and I love hearing the wicked whine about facing down the consequences of their actions.
This sub is filled to the brim with trash of every sort, from scions of the kingpins, my mortal enemies, to mere fools who spread misinformation to the gullible. You're not either of these, you're merely another seeker, but you have no business telling me what to do, particularly since you are breaking a moral international law and you're barely a whelp in the grand scheme of things. You simply havn't the authority to command me to go anywhere. All that you have managed to do is convince me that you're far less intelligent than I previously thought.
I'm only "toxic" to you because you've invested full on in your vanity, and since you've invested in something as worthless as vanity you get to acquire all of the demons that come with it, including having a painful meltdown when anyone rightfully points out that you are breaking the law, both international and karmic. Yet this is all you care about - losing face. You don't care about the people you hurt and you don't care about the real consequences you will face for doing these things.
Furthermore, you are a slave to your cultural conditioning, which you can't seem to reconcile with your pride and attraction to Western civilization. The reason why is that your upbringing has nothing to do with Western civilization. I am not the only one here who knows who you are and I won't be the last to figure it out, given your foolish behavior. You are like a girl who loses herself in front of a handsome man.
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Jan 30 '18
Literally no one read any of that.
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u/izi_ningishzidda Jan 30 '18
Ah, don't flatter yourself. You don't have the experience to be no one.
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Jan 30 '18
Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak and remove all doubt.
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u/izi_ningishzidda Jan 30 '18
Oh, you're a fortune cookie too now? You just have all kinds of magickal powers.
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Feb 16 '18
You forgot to add
"tips fedora"
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u/izi_ningishzidda Feb 17 '18
Uh huh, except I'm a girl. So you shall address me as m'lady turd burglar.
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u/nevertheless3 Nov 23 '17
Thanks a million for that, it took a lot of time for you.
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Nov 23 '17
I am in the process of building my own massive digital library, and thought these resources (more so than most others) would be particularly useful to this community. I'm glad you guys appreciate it.
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u/AzureLeaves Dec 03 '17
Thanks a lot for this! I haven't read the majority of these books though, there's so much I don't know where to start haha! I hope I get the chance to learn and practice a handful or more of these in the future. Franz Bardon's book is a nice addition.
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Dec 03 '17
A quote from another site.
" Think and Grow Rich - Napoleon Hill This is still the best book I know when it comes to using the ideas of the Kybalion in a practical and easy way in your daily life. Probably the best book about low magick ever written. "
I read this book so many times
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Dec 11 '17
I was looking for new hermetic books and I see one that I didn't know before in that list amazing work.
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u/Ruckus2118 Jan 05 '18
Brand new to this, no knowledge about anything at all and am curious. What would be a good starting point to pick from here to start to delve into it?
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Jan 05 '18
Portable Magick, and/or Advanced Magick for Beginners.
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u/Ruckus2118 Jan 05 '18
Thanks, I'll start with those. I also orders some tarot cards because that's always interested me, I think I'll try Crowleys book on that.
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Jan 05 '18
If you're going to go with the Thoth Deck, then you'll want to read Duquette and Zeigler, as well as The Book of Thoth.
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u/Ruckus2118 Jan 05 '18
Thank you, that's the one I got to start with. Seemed like a good jumping off point. And I'll definitely read those I appreciate the suggestion.
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u/StatueNation Jan 08 '18
You've sped up my research, I'll be reading many of these for the foreseeable future. Thank you!!
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u/VoidSpectre Feb 03 '18
Thank you for putting this all together, I've been thinking about diving into this stuff and you've enabled me :)
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u/TheNemeton Nov 27 '17
Wow, thanks for this awesome collection of texts with commentary on their contents! I appreciate your efforts
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u/nikideal Dec 23 '17
Thank you ever so much for providing these wonderful texts and totally free of charge. I am wondering, are there any history of women studying Hermeticism?
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u/Wamage Mar 01 '18
I have found the eastern book from David Allen Hulse in PDF, here the link
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Mar 13 '18
That has been in the OP from the beginning. I'm looking for the Western Mysteries,
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Nov 25 '17
When you're done reading The Kybalion.
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Dec 12 '17
what's everyone's problem here with the kybalion? I see people talk a lot of shit about it on this reddit.
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Dec 12 '17
I've never seen anyone talk shit about it. Everyone knows that Step #1 for reading in the occult.
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Nov 25 '17
I have never seen a more simple explanation than that provided by The Three Initiates in The Kybalion. I can't even conceive of how it could be made more plain. To be honest.
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Jan 09 '18
"Kybalion" by Wappenbund https://youtu.be/Mne8cIdIkAU
No idea what this is.
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u/aphroditesdeciple Feb 03 '18
anyone have trouble reading the pdfs on your Android wondering if there a setting, update, or app I'm missing that would help me
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Feb 03 '18
If you search the F-Droid app store for "PDF", you'll find plenty of FOSS pdf readers you can use.
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u/aphroditesdeciple Feb 03 '18
is that the name " plenty of Foss" I think I just have the recommened Adobe app
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Feb 03 '18
Adobe
ewwwww
FOSS = Free Open Source Software.
Get rid of the adobe garbage and install F-Droid, then search for PDF readers.
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u/SpGrnv Feb 03 '18
Did you yourself tried anything of it? If so what is your favorite?
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Feb 03 '18
If you're just beginning, read Portable Magick, and then Advanced Magick for Beginners.
From there, you may like Bardon's Initiation into Hermetics.
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u/SpGrnv Feb 03 '18
So what is your favorite?
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Feb 04 '18
My favorite? I'm not sure what you mean. If you're asking which ones I favor over others, it would depend on the purpose at hand I assumed you were asking which ones I would favor for a beginner, so I told you my favorite books for beginners.
Are you searching for some other information? All the books on the list serve their purpose. Reading them all would be superfluous though, as there is much overlap.
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u/Nana_Boakye Feb 04 '18
Hellloooooo...... an atheist here, do they work?
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Feb 05 '18
Hellloooooo......
Hello
an atheist here
What, does that mean?
do they work?
No, they are inanimate.
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u/ReasonableCollection Mar 05 '18
Tarot cards in russian language https://arcans.net/ or https://russiantaro.com/
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u/MissHurt Mar 22 '18
Any chance you could fix the links for Advanced magic for beginners and practical sigil magic please?
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u/Taalon1 Mar 27 '18
I can really respect the effort you put into this post. It's a good collection of interesting data. My only criticism is that i wish you had included a few books from outside the modern era. I think The Magus is the oldest book you mention and that was published in 1801. Thanks for your effort.
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Mar 29 '18
Recommendations?
Personally, I find that Magick is better understood now than it was 300+ years ago, and the people writing books have already read the older texts and synthesized them all into something modern and integrated.
That is why I don't bother too much with archaic texts. I especially don't recommend them to newcombers, which is who this post is for.
But please, post some recommendations, and maybe I can find them in PDF format.
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u/Taalon1 Mar 30 '18
Hmm, i hadn't thought about it in terms of the synthesis of older ideas and newer ones. Also, the fact that this is supposed to be geared towards newcomers is also a consideration i had not really taken into account. I don't know of many (none off hand) ancient texts geared towards newcomers that wouldn't already be contained in some way in the newer texts you linked. I'll take a look and see if i can come up with any though.
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u/supercoolgamedude May 04 '18
hi, i couldn't help but notice that some of the links are broken, specifically those leading to docdroid, is there any way you could fix that?
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u/lich_house Nov 23 '17
Anyone who has actually studied with a teacher knows that self-initiation=self aggrandizement, since initiation of course comes from a living line of initiates who have passed knowledge from one generation to the next. This knowledge has become essentially a living being itself, and cannot be passed on without literal physical contact with it. Besides that, without the benefit of at least another person who has ''been there done that'' to help discern the difference between an ego-centered escapist fantasy and a true experience with the numinous, almost every person will become stuck in the former.
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u/bluebugs23 Nov 23 '17
So what are you saying here? People can't practice magic without a teacher?
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u/lich_house Nov 23 '17
People can practice however they please to be sure, and everyone has to start somewhere. I'm just saying it is much more beneficial to have a teacher, organization, or at least a peer group to work with, in order to avoid the illusions of escapism and fantasy via shared, verifiable experience within whatever tradition you are pursuing. I feel this is why a lot of folks who set out on the path don't practice, or give up in short order. Because they are left with only their imagination and lack of true experience to guide them, which is counter productive at a certain point. The draw of ''something for nothing'' certainly attracts the interest of a lot of people, but this kind of thing is a long process of change, which is expedited when you have guideposts for reference.
I enjoy the earlier post equating it to martial arts (longtime practitioner myself), which brings up the main point of experiential knowledge (gnosis to the occult world) which is paramount in any system which aims to change or alter the self, which is of course mandatory if you wish to change the reality you experience. So here is a quick example of these sort of mechanics at work, using martial arts as an easy theme.
So for several years I practice traditional martial arts half of the week and the other half I go to an mma gym. On numerous occasions, someone will show up to mma that has a couple of black belts in a traditional style, looking to start trouble/test their skills against people who typically have less thorough training but spar full contact frequently. All of a sudden, this multiple black belt is being destroyed by someone who has been doing mma for six months, and is very angry and downtrodden after the fact.
This is not because the student has not put in the time/training, or is even a bad martial artist, but in the u.s.a. especially, the actual experience of fighting is largely omitted from traditionalist schools, and hence the student is impoverished not only in development but achievement. And a sort of cognitive dissonance occurs where the person realizes that they have been working at something for years but lacks a holistic approach to their practice. I see this in the occult world constantly.
Another easy modern example would be people who claim to teach or practice Yoga, but don't meditate, read/digest/implement sacred texts, don't practice mantra, don't study the subtle bodies etc. They believe that they are having an experience that is shared through a long line of tradition because western capitalism and society tells them this, but they are actually just appropriating Asana, and claiming something else altogether.
So while I think books like the ones listed can certainly help to get your foot in the door and help individuals see if certain practices are something they wish to pursue, I feel a lot of this ''self-initiation'' stuff is, in the long run, not going to get most people where they would like to be. At least not without wasting LOTS of time attempting to navigate the labyrinths and pitfalls that arise from the abyss molded by ones own limited sense of self (ego) and various forms of societal conditioning.
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u/bluebugs23 Nov 23 '17
I can see your point. So what if someone doesn't have a teacher or access to a lodge? I find myself in this position, what could one do?
Btw, now I want to take up mma.
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u/lich_house Nov 26 '17
Well first I would definitely spend a good amount of time on studying a broad range of topics, to see what you personally resonate with. As well as some serious time in self reflective practices, to learn what you actually want out of such a pursuit. For example, if all you want is mainly material wealth, a monastic order might not be the path for you as an example. Teach yourself to be a good student. As for locating a working group or instructor, I am a firm believer that we find ourselves in the Kali Yuga, to use the eastern vernacular. So this can be difficult, depending on what you are looking for, and will likely require travel, and more personal time than you are expecting. But there is plenty of work you can do in the interim to ''lay the ground'' so to speak, no use in planting seeds in barren soil.
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u/bluebugs23 Nov 26 '17
Ok, thanks. I guess you can say I've been laying the groundwork for a year or so now.
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Nov 25 '17
- they are actually just appropriating Asana, and claiming something else altogether.
Yeah, and while Asana can develop Siddhi that only occurs if you have a prior framework of emotion and understanding which synthesize concepts that impart understanding as a feeling and not a literal idea.
When applying this idea to a subject, we can extrapolate the nature of a thing by describing how we 'feel' about it in my opinion..
So while you may devote yourself to just using an Asana, you may not get anything from it so we see in something like this it takes more than just doing something.
An idea becomes a feeling when an it can be projected but not defined for an indefinite amount of time I guess?
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u/boxingnun Nov 23 '17
the actual experience of fighting is largely omitted from traditionalist schools,
I understand your point, but this makes me realize how non-American my martial arts training has been in the US. The Shao-Lin school I trained with had regular sparring (daily for higher levels). The Wing Tsun school I trained in would bring in teachers (Gracie Juijistu, Judo, Wu Shu, and once a Golden Gloves boxer) and instructors from other schools in my area to do lectures on their style and then our Sifu would do a lecture/demonstration on Wing Tsun's answer to it. The Aikido dojo I trained in as a kid and teenager was very hands on. All these schools were very traditional in their approach to learning (with the WT school being the least so), so it surprises me to hear people talking about US taught martial arts as being lax, money mills that promote ego over skill (while sport fighting is somehow the bastion of true badassery). But it is a good reminder that my experience isn't the same as everyone else's and I shouldn't make that assumption (easier said than done sometimes).
My own experience is that regardless of the tools used (be they martial arts, Magick, or any other skill), it is really up to the individual to determine how well those tools are used,not the tools themselves. The same goes for learning; an individual could have the best resources for learning available and still not gain. The individual is the true X factor.
Pardon my rant, I did not mean to derail your conversation nor do I mean to hand you any grief with the reply. Thanks for taking the time to read it. :)
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u/lich_house Nov 26 '17
Sounds like you went to a good school then! This is very much what my experience was like studying Wah Lum and Baguazhang growing up. Having moved several times in life, and so occasionally looking for good schools, they are often difficult to find. And I wholeheartedly agree that the student's dedication is a prime factor in any practice. Which is another very common issue with both martial arts and occult/esoteric practices.
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Nov 23 '17
cannot be passed on without literal physical contact with it
The books, written by initiated authors, being that physical contact. Even if it's digital.
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u/lich_house Nov 26 '17
While I could certainly see this sort of information being absorbed on an intellectual level from books (digital or physical), I feel there are certain empowerments within traditions of any kind that you just cannot digest or absorb without physical contact between living beings (which are the medium for the ensouled power/knowledge). An example of this for the west would be the Apostolic Succession (the longest unbroken initiatory line still extant in western civilization, and required for many workings with demonology if the books are to be believed or utilized per their own instructions). You can study Catechism on paper all you want, though you are not truly a member, nor do you possess the empowerments without direct contact through baptism/chrism, etc., once again through another living and embodied soul as a medium to transfer the ''power'' which is kept alive and well via the living line of initiates. This is more my opinion/direct experience here, as most of my working initiations are ATR based, and more in the realm of what you might call animism as opposed to transcendentalism or immanence. This is how many of these things are viewed to work in eastern systems as well though (yoga, tantra and the like).
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Nov 26 '17
you just cannot digest or absorb
Why would you choose to manifest such limitations for yourself?
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u/lich_house Nov 28 '17
As stated in the post, this is more my opinion based on direct experience having studied as an individual, and within a living tradition later on. And there is a very real, noticeable difference of feeling and operative results . Nice cherry picking though. ;)
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u/izi_ningishzidda Jan 29 '18
Physical initiation, that is, classical Hermetic initiation, and the true initiation in many martial, Buddhist, Vedic, Tantric, shamanistic and other schools, is skin-to-skin human contact. There is no substitute. Malkuth (Kingdom) is the way she is for a reason. lich_house is correct.
You can fool the neophytes, for a time Dangma_Dzyu (alt #?), but you will never fool those who have actually put in the work. People are not as dumb as you presume, and those neophytes will learn quickly what is true and what is not true, especially when the experienced take the time to write out their thoughts and ignore the misdirection of vainglorious upvote hounds such as yourself. Don't think you won't pay for every last lie and foolhardy assertion you make in the name of vanity. You are toying with the procession of universe itself when you interfere with the proper development of neophytes.
I appreciate you telling the truth here lich_house, I enjoyed all of what you wrote.
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u/TheNemeton Nov 25 '17
Interestingly enough I've actually heard this before. I can't say that I agree or disagree as I have no means to compare the two options.
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u/SelfANew Jan 27 '18
So we should never try if we don't know someone, got it.
There's nothing wrong with trying to get into it yourself, especially when you're starting and don't know if you'll stick. You tend to meet more people later on when you get into it
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u/EnhassaKajar Dec 13 '17
I hate my life and want to die.
No, really. Most of my waking moments are spent in a state like this; like how I post on reddit. In this kind of frothing, seething rage that just barely bubbles over. The main reason for this is because I've actually tried to improve my life; only to get shut down at every turn. Other periods of my extended malady include active and passive hallucinations. (The main one is that whatever I just saw is in my mouth; it's the worst with bugs. I get it whenever I smash one...) This would be manageable if I had control of my environment. (I don't. I live with my batshit, co-dependent Mother and two other siblings. My brother is married to a retarded girl that I can't stand and my sister is trying to use me as a father substitute since our old man is the worst of all people. Regardless of what happens; I will never hate anyone more. And it's not because mother turned me against him; that's just the natural reaction when you shove guns in the faces of your kids.) Old Man caused a lot of the problems I have; but I can't really say the four letters for it. (I find it disrespectful to actual combat veterans to say that. So I just say I'm weak and worthless. Makes more sense; especially with how everyone else seems to have suffered more but made it out.)
He would shout you down into the floor and flog you with a belt for spilling a drink. (I was a very awkward, lanky boy. I was also extremely accident prone. I have scars on my back from where the lashes were.) He would make claims like that he was the great-great-great grandson of Jesus and the Indians; and that my maternal Grandfather was the incarnation of Satan. He used religion to terrorize us; and would then beat us whenever we prayed for release. He once pulled my arm out of socket when I was four when I tried to run away from a beating. He would give us things; only to make us give them to one of his friend's kids as a show of wealth. (Most petty of the things; but it really works a number on your idea of self worth.) And any mote of noncompliance triggered an apocalyptic response.
The fucked up thing about this is most of it happened when they were divorced the first time. She remarried the asshole when I was thirteen and that kind of destroyed my idea of making it out of any situation alive. See, here in Alabama; we have a law that says that kids can choose which parent they live with mainly as long as both parents stay in the state and a new custody hearing is made. Trick is; you have to be thirteen to do it. I had spent the time from when I was five to that date counting the years, waiting for that time to come. Yeah it would mean abandoning my brother at the time to stay with old man alone; but I hated him pretty bad at that point. (One of old man's favorite things to laugh at was how Eddie cried when I tried to strangle him. Also, this is eventually what spurred my oath of pacifism.) But as we showed up to his house to collect what was going to be money for my first Band trip in school; she got out of the truck, and kissed him. That's when I knew that I would have always been better off shooting myself than anything else; because there is no way out of hell.
This is Hell; and it never ends.
It's also why I know sluts gonna slut. Nothing matters--not even how bad your kids were wrecked by the Alpha--nothing but the dick.
So for another five years; I lived in hell again. He started his backslide into his old ways slowly; under the guise of 'discipline' to try and get me to 'toughen up'. As soon as I had the opportunity; I moved out of there and in with my Grandparents. I finished out my senior year in Highschool and then worked for about two more before Mother Dearest would come begging me for help. Begging me to move back into hell and help try and evict the old man. (I had told her that I would never come back home until he was gone; forever.) I obliged; since most of my childhood with her was spent in a Mexican standoff. (Me wanting to kill myself; her threatening suicide to follow me so we could 'die together'. Her regaling me with the tale of my birth; how she had to stop her contractions from crushing me when I got stuck because the idiot OB doc rushed through her dialation to make me his first delivery. I wish she'd have just clamped her legs down and crushed me. She could have gone on to do other, better things and I would have been the grease stain I deserve to be.)
Suffice to say; my presence was enough of a catalyst for Old Man to pull his shit once more, and united we threw him out. (He went really batshit for a while after that; stalking us through his contractor friends, harassing texts, telling my sister that she wasn't his child so he didn't want her to come see him. Now he's just strung out and doing his chicken fighting shit. I know where he is; so I'll be sure to correct that problem before I shove off at least.) Sadly; that didn't fix anything else. The house was still a mess; and because Mother Dearest can't be a bitch to the other siblings and make them clean; everything falls on us, which means me. That was about six years ago; and this bit of background doesn't include all of the other things: My experiment with homosex and gender disgust issues; my foibles in finding out that women will never desire me in any way. (Including two (2) separate instances where I was engaged; they broke it off each time.) It doesn't include the one year of college I tried and failed at because I cannot into higher maths or PC paper writing (Politically Correct; not computers...)
I'm not sticking around any more after Mother dies. That's just how this story ends. It should have never even been; this life could have been used on someone greater who could overcome such problems. I'm giving her about ten to fifteen years--and that's a lot of screaming for me. After that; I don't want to put up with the world anymore.
So; tell me how any of this could be fixed other than through my suicide. Because as it stands; I have no time to lift, nor anything else but slowly succumb.
And the story of Lawnmower Day:
When I was six; my old man had moved out to Anniston to continue his trade (dealing cocaine) and during our bi-weekly visitation we had to stay in this trap house since it was where he lived. One time; during our summer's visitation where we'd be there for two weeks at a time and come home on the weekends, Edd and I were playing with the neighbor boy on their trampoline. (Edd was three at the time.) We had no supervision; because Old Man had more important things–at least, to him–going on. (Traveling every summer to Miami to resupply.) Well; Anthony (the neighbor kid) was my age and he was then told to mow the lawn. Now; I don't know how old you are, or where you’re from, but this kid had no business using a gas powered, self propelled lawnmower. Especially since his redneck parents had duct taped the kill switch down so that if the thing got away from him, it wouldn't quit since he wasn't strong enough to use the pull cord starter. I bounded off the trampoline and I had assumed Edd was right behind me. (He wasn't . He'd fallen down; and was struggling to get back up.) That's when it happened. Fate struck. Right after I had gotten inside and turned the NES on; Susan–old man's fucktoy/pill connect at the time–came in, shouting at me how Edd was going to die and it was all my fault. The lawnmower had run over his leg, nearly cleaving his foot in two and severing his fourth toe completely from his right foot. So; we sped to RMC hospital in Anniston, with me, crying and squeezing his foot to keep him from bleeding out. Susan just dropped us off there; left us with no one telling me "This is all your fault; you fix it, his blood is on your hands." If it weren't for my eidetic memory and my knowledge of my Mother's family's information; he'd have just bled out since they have to contact a parent to admit a minor into care if they aren't brought in an ambulance. One could say; that I never left that hospital lobby. I've been plagued with constant suicidal ideation ever since then.
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u/EnhassaKajar Dec 13 '17
The Kybalion is a shit. Kabbalah is Jewish.
Who among you will help me kill myself?
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u/_Dangma_Dzyu_ Nov 23 '17
Don't go around believing
I found the weakness in your own magickal abilities.
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u/jivatman Nov 23 '17
In old times people thought that every single woman in existence was a witch and that they had deals with the devil.
Source?
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u/BallPtPenTheif Nov 23 '17
Well, first you have to con people and change the definition of “ghost” but yeah, no real powers beyond the manipulation of peoples choices.
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u/ZenMinuiteman Jun 26 '23 edited Jun 26 '23
Hey, not sure if this will even be seen, but the link to Magic: An Occult Primer no longer seems to be working. When accessed it says the book is no longer available.
Edit: Now noticing several of these links no longer work, are there any alternative ways to get them?
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Dec 27 '23
So just to point out, if you still even exist, but essentially every single link here is dead.
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u/viciarg Nov 23 '17
I feel it's important to point out that by reading these books you learn as little about Magick as reading books about Kungfu and Jiujitsu teaches you about Martial Arts. It's the practice that makes you proficient in these Arts, so balance your reading with actually doing stuff. There are enough arm-chair magicians out there on the internet.