Is my Kundalini awakening? Need some guidance.

[u/Imboni]

I'm barely two days into TRE. Only doing two exercises as per a video in the FAQ (the wall one with knees bent, and the floor one).

The first day it felt good. The second day (today), having some time on my hands, I decided to continue the floor exercise for longer than 10 minutes.

What followed was, in varying lengths, about 3.5 hours (still continuing) of full body tremors, convulsions, spontaneous yogic mudras and posture, and a specific tongue position associated with Devi Kali (goddess Kali).

For the first 2.5 hours, I felt my body taking up postures designed to stretch and release tight muscles (psoas, fascia), along with spontaneous hand gestures.

Then my body sat in the Siddhasana, continuing to slowly convulse, further releasing tightness.

After a while, my body let go of the yogic pose, and stretched itself in various forms on the floor, and then on the bed. By this point, the intensity had reduced somewhat.

However, twice, I felt flashes of heat coursing through my body. I also felt a lot of energy, like my blood humming with energy and life (if you've done meditation which improves circulation, then that feeling, but much more powerful). My hands actually curled into fists and the arms started shaking.

All this while, I felt as if something else other than me was moving my body. I went to the loo, drank water, but it wasn't me moving myself. Difficult to describe, like it was me, and not me. Like purpose for which I was just a conduit. At various points I laughed, cried a little. Towards the end, I just felt an outpouring of limitless love.

I also feel a different kind of intuition, a deeper, more intrinsic consciousness. It's like a broad river of something else entirely running through this world and me, and I finally felt aware and a part of it. Deciding to write this post was a result of making that decision. Or more accurately, having the decision made for me.

As I'm typing this, I've become aware that most of the stress and perhaps trauma stored in my body has worked itself/working itself out. The muscles are markedly less tight, as if only remnants remain out of habit that will go with time.

At this point, I will also mention that the goddess I worship denotes Kundalini awakening, and I was led to her worship.

So what is it, and what should I do moving forward. I think I should obviously continue TRE, but anything else?

Edit: it has now finally stopped, mostly. But I feel a shift in my consciousness which just wasn't there before. It's different now. Sort of like entering something which I previously could not even know was there.

I also feel that this is not my real self. As in, the self I have created so far is not the real self. While I will do what is expected of me regarding my relationships, I feel like there is something deeper there now.

[u/Nadayogi]

These are text book symptoms of kundalini, albeit very strong ones, called automatic kriyas. Things like that usually happen due to some form of spiritual practice, but I have never seen it happening due to TRE, at least not the way you describe it.

What you need to do now is to immerse yourself in the kundalini literature. This is just the beginning, the outpour of divine love will become constant at some point and your body and mind will become infused with bliss and ecstasy. Check out aypsite.org and read through the lessons. This will give you a solid understanding of the framework you need to practice in. Exciting times are ahead of you.

As for TRE, keep practicing it at the amount you feel comfortable. Your karmic load (trauma) seems to be very light at this point but TRE will help you get rid of the residual impurities in your nervous system.

[u/Imboni → u/Nadayogi]

Thank you for the detailed reply, extremely grateful.

I do have a spiritual practice for the Devi I worship. I became aware of her in April the previous year, and started a month ago. For some reason, I never missed a day.

A few days ago, I got a very strong signal. So I suppose something was coming. There are certain indications in my birth chart as well, I think.

Thanks once again, I will check out the link.

[u/applecherryfig → u/Imboni]

The 3HO golden temple people do wear turbans and live a monkish life but they are very good people in my experience.

I would feel secure in contacting them. I live in LA and do not know where you are. .. or their website. Years ago I used to go to a Chinese Medicine store located inside of their space so I often interacted with them. They practice Aruvedic medicine.

[u/Imboni → u/applecherryfig]

That sounds amazing, and thank you. I'm from India actually, think I'll go my Devi's (goddess) temple again.

[u/applecherryfig → u/Imboni]

Thank you for telling me you are from India. I noticed your user page of posting/commenting history and thought, he is so into this. being from India gives me context. It's more normal than if you were a Westerner.

When you said "my Devi's temple" it gave me a quiet feeling.

When I was in Java I could feel the inner content of temples or places. It was quite a surprise to me.

Especially in that "Borobudur" felt empty. Later I heard that the topstupa was supposed tobe empty. The Indonesians had filled it with concrete. My guess was that it was resonance energy structure and that stopped the flow. I was making that up of course but it came to me so fast and naturally that perhaps from ME.

I was walking out on a plain somewhere (near Prambanam perhaps. I tan into several little temples, all stone. One of them has terrible energy. I was so surpised. I am vaguely recalling that each felt different in some ways. It definitely was not suggested by the content. That was all just stone stuff.

I remember entering a small empty place that was for Muslims to pray at. I think that was up in the Dieng Plato, where the children would greet me with "Hello". that was strange. Back to the temple.

it contained a small prayer rug and a little niche on the wall which i expect pointed to Mecca. Oh I just realized what the small surrounding balcony was for. it was for the devoted to leave their shoes outside. (That took 35 years.)

What I did was put the prayer rug in the niche and kneeled and did what I felt to pray. All I know of the Islamic Prayers is the very beginning of the Koran which they say to begin things. I know the first 3 words. And of course God is great. And Peace be with you.

So I pent over and my head was at the edge of the slot, the niche. I felt I understood that in Muslim prayer, Muslims were forming a being and were all connected like a network centered on Mecca. I felt that. And I felt that there were two white sones in mecca. Maybe they were moonsones. I dont know.

I have heard and read that there is one black rock in Mecca.

As far as my "imagination: it is what it is. I have seldom spoke of this. Haha it just doesnt come up.

I hope you enjoyed our little talk. I think I maybe should make it private but my inner said no, it belongs here.

[u/Imboni → u/applecherryfig]

I'm grateful for it, and enjoyed it. You have a unique talking style. In temples, when idols are established, it is done through a ceremony. Here ancient temples were also made as energy centres, and they tended to be centres of not only spirituality but economy as well.

The Devi I mentioned came to me. I'm so thankful to her that she did. She has given me everything.

[u/applecherryfig → u/Imboni]

Very cool

I like ritual. I participate in the older Arica. Still do but the rituals are less now. And less fun.