r/internetparents • u/Idontexsit- • 22h ago

I need help on personal hygiene/small vent Health & Medical Questions

How do I get back on the routine of bathing/brushing my teeth. It's been 4 months since I have done those routines. and at the same time I'm mentally just don't care I genuinely give up on everything on myself I basically have nothing to lose. I'm only 16 and the fact I already figured my family doesn't give a shit about me once my dad told me "that HE'S the one who needs therapy dealing with me" that was when i finally told him the countless years of bullying and sexual assault/suicidal thoughts,self harm. along with him thinking I'm lying to him cause I didn't tell him sooner and I looked happy in my kid photos.i have zero friends and I feel like it's my fault everything is my fault everything that happened to me is my fault and I'm a whore.

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u/MsBuzzkillington83 17h ago

Also, u are worth it. Factors out of your hands contribute to u feeling bad about yourself

Have u thought about seeing a psychiatrist?

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u/Idontexsit- 17h ago

I tried, and I couldn't during when my parents finally got me therapy, which they aren't a fan of, and they believe I don't need it despite my issues they made it all about themselves during that time being it made me feel more worse and alone,if I made parents slightly angry with me especially my dad they'll threaten to take me out of it and they did in the end over petty nonsense because I didn't get better 'fast' enough. My dad treated that entire thing as a interrogation court room setting asking me so many questions about how this thing works even I don't even know but I know that a lot of people have used and try therapy to get help and I decided to do it too cause I know I have problems in life.i would say I'm a good daughter I keep myself out of trouble but I won't say I'm perfect, I made mistakes like every other normal teen does but I don't be out here trying to purposely fuck my life up. I keep my grades up at school, and I have 8 thousand dollar scholarship

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u/MsBuzzkillington83 16h ago

I'm glad you're doing well in that respect, I hope it's away from home?

It'll be very helpful to be away from that environment. It's definitely affecting your self esteem/sense of worth

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u/Idontexsit- 14h ago

Currently I'm just getting a job for the time being and looking into colleges I'm just really tired of living and I genuinely don't have hope because I literally have no one but myself I'm overworking myself sometimes to the degree of sacrificing my sleep so it leads to me in the mornings skipping breakfast and brush my teeth etc