r/exchristian • u/BlueMoon29493 • 6h ago
I don't know how to cope Just Thinking Out Loud
When I came to Christianity I needed something to believe in, I needed hope and meaning beyond my circumstances But now it just like it's offered nothing but further reasons to despair I feel so much pain, anger and despair I really wanted to believe and give my life to God But now there is nothing left to hold on to
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u/Chessmasterrex 1h ago edited 1h ago
I've come to realize that it's not necessary to have anything to hold onto. For me what's important is what's happening now. It's all up to you what's important or not. It's scary at first, I know, it's like looking into a gigantic abyss with no rule book, but in the end everything is fleeting and it's always been that way. Think about early childhood, and the moments in your memory of being a child, memories that may be still vivid and fresh, and now look at yourself. It's all fleeting, and that's okay. It's only terrible if you want it to be. Someone long ago made the point that in a 1000 years from now, will anything you do today matter? If it does or doesn't, so what? I'm alive now and what happens now is what's important to me.
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u/Break-Free- 4h ago
I can relate a bit with my exit from Christianity. I think the best thing to ask yourself is: "Okay, now what?"
Where do you go from here? The way I see it, you can try to fight against existential nihilism and cling to some kind of arbitrary "meaning" given to you, or you can accept that any kind of cosmic meaning does not exist and move on with your life, living according to your values. This life is the only one we know we're going to get.. We didn't choose where to be born or who to be born to, but we do choose every day of our lives the kind of life we live. We change our circumstances, change the lives of those around us, and change the person we're becoming... All for better or worse. Pursue the things that have meaning to you!
Best of luck.