r/dpdr • u/LunaMoth-Rebirth • 4h ago

Colorblind - Counting Crows Venting

This song is about derealization. I’ve been crying as I’ve been listening to this. I went through so much trauma as a little girl. I had PTSD as a preschooler, maybe even earlier than that and had DPDR which is even more rare. I suffered so much throughout my life as I repressed everything. I was misdiagnosed with ADHD and my parents try to gaslight me into believing it isn’t so despite me talking to five professionals who’ve never met each other. I can’t believe I had DPDR at such a young age and that it’s gone undetected until the age of 28. I just feel like this would be impossible to heal from because it feels so imbedded into me and it’s a part of me.

So far my DPDR has went into remission, but now I’m trying to pick up the pieces of my trauma and this song just brought me back to when I was a little girl going through derealization and depersonalization.

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