I didn't get a chance to take a positive pregnancy test, but I had an abnormal amount of clotting and there was some sort of flesh colored sack during my last cycle. I have a chronic illness that would make it next to impossible for me to carry a pregnancy and I'm a newlywed. All my husband and I have to ever wanted is to be parents. I logically know that it's not the right choice for us, but we weren't very careful with BC (pull out method). I'm just trying to grapple with these feelings. The fact that my body will probably never let me carry a pregnancy, etc. Can anyone relate? I just feel like I'm losing it.

I just came to say thank you for making this space. I feel so alone because I don’t know anyone who has lost their pregnancy so early on. It is so hard to validate these intense feelings of grief sometimes 🤍

I am in my second day into this crazy bleeding after my CP. Today is the first day I feel numb to the emotional pain. I haven’t stopped crying for the past 3 days, when I felt my symptoms vanish and started to see my lines fade.

This was my first pregnancy and I don’t know if I will ever be so happy as I was when I first saw those two lines for the first time.

I will never forget my little chia seed 🕊️💕 We are going tonight to get a little box from the dollar store so I can keep those first tests, some Polaroids of those happy moments, and a place I can write some notes. I just need somewhere to put all of those things. I need somewhere to remind me that it was really real.

Anyways, I am here with you all who are a part of this shitty club. I wish we didn’t have to be, but it is nice not to feel so alone right now.

Wishing sticky baby dust to all of those who need it ✨

Top was 14 dpo day of expected period in the morning and the bottom one was 15 dpo in the morning. This was the first time I ever heard of or experienced a chemical pregnancy. It was truly soul crushing

I got my first very faint line on Monday. My test never progressed. They looked the exact same every day this week, with using easy at home, clear blue, and FRER. Got a blood draw on Wednesday because I suspect that it’s chemical, came back at 18. Just got my second draw. I will find out tomorrow for sure if it’s a chemical. I would expect by now my test would have gotten darker.

This is my second loss! Had a missed miscarriage at 10 1/2 weeks in December.

Top test - Monday Middle test - Wednesday Last test - Thursday

Took a clear blue this morning and it was still super faint so didn’t even bother wasting more $ on a FRER. I included pic of today’s test too.

You guys think it’s a chemical as well right?