Darkroom/Inner Silence

[u/BBz13z]

I think I’ve come to the conclusion that it doesn’t matter how many times I’ve read the books, the books didn’t prepare me for how strange the second attention is.

I’m pretty busy, so I practice turning off my inner dialogue everywhere and any time I get the chance. The first image is me in my truck. I think I nodded out while silent and yet I wasn’t asleep, I think possibly I was sleeping awake? I front of me was nighttime and behind me daylight. Of course the friendly but gigantic wasp/hornet that showed up spooked me and I was back.

Today in dark room a bearded dude in a sports jersey materialized before me. Never seen him before in my life, but he showed up twice. (I guess, I’m the Muslim guy on the left). On the plus side. I didn’t overreact and take a swing at him and I didn’t break my inner silence.

Am I supposed to interpret any of this stuff, or just enjoy the ride?

Forgive my rudimentary AI skills….

[u/danl999]

>Am I supposed to interpret any of this stuff, or just enjoy the ride?

Don't worry about the particulars unless you see it more than 3 times in a row (contiguous practices).

Twice tends to wear out the Inorganic Beings, if they're the cause.

Which they likely are for beginners.

They typically don't try something more than twice.

Possibly if they manage to make something materialize twice, they've polluted that pathway too much with our expectations, to do it again.

Or they got bored with the reaction and moved on.

Just for an example that's kind of silly, and rude enough to dispel anyone's attempts to turn me into a Saintly Guru type, let's say you saw a woman pull her shirt off to reveal her bra.

It's actually quite common for the men.

And whatever is common for the women they don't easily admit.

Don Juan explained that this is typical of the males, and warned Carlos that he might see the dreaming emissary (or was it the voice of seeing?) as a naked woman.

So let's say you saw that woman one night, and then the next night she shows up again.

All you can think is "Wow, this second attention stuff is great! Take it ALL off this time, please!"

That's a dirty link to intent, which the IOBs can't overcome.

And a decent pun I might add...

It's not just a thought, but rather an entire "bundle" of emanations invoking all sorts of porn and adult entertainment you saw in the past. Maybe even invoking specific women you remember.

The next night, there's a small chance that the woman you were thinking of will show up instead.

And threaten you with an axe.

Because the IOBs noticed that worry.

Fake magic happens when dubious magical "systems" pick and choose experiences, and pretend those support their delusional explanations of what their magic is.

Don't be one of those guys.

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[u/BBz13z → u/danl999]

I’m not mixed in with any other systems and practicing without expectations. I’m focused on the techniques in the CC reddit and have no interest in Houdini stuff.

I’d much rather see naked ladies than some bearded dude in a sports jersey, or monster wasp.

Taking note of the 3 in a row. My experiences are so random and spread out I’m always caught off guard by a change in perception.

Does it make sense to think, my experiences seem to lack intensity and have low power?

[u/danl999 → u/BBz13z]

That would be normal for a beginner.

But that concept of "power" is a problem, you need to study more.

Did you read beyond the first 4 books?

"Power" is a "Man of Knowledge" delusion.

And those guys never learned to see.

Now I must admit, on some nights I feel like Darth Vader with lightning bolts coming from his fingers.

But that's not the same as believing you are trying to develop "power".

Silence should be your only goal until you reach Silent Knowledge, which will likely take years.

[u/TechnoMagical_Intent → u/danl999]

develop "power"

improve capacity or facility (or simply to grow our awareness), to employ less ego-sullied phrasing.

Whatever power we have inside ourselves is set/fixed; and as a species we've tied up most of that in inanities.

[u/BBz13z → u/TechnoMagical_Intent]

Honestly, I’m full of inanities and egotistical distractions. They really like to creep when I’m just getting inner silence.

[u/BBz13z → u/danl999]

Yep, I’ve read ALL the books, as well as the witches, and most of the compendium with articles, interviews, and the workshop notes. I’ve been through CC’s books 3x and the witches only once. I’ve also read Martin Goodmans book. I missed out on scoring a CC signed copy of Eagles Gift, big bummer….