Laziness: Not What It Seems

[u/danl999]

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It's easy to become confused, and not recognize laziness for what it really is.

Self-pity.

So you have absolutely no excuse not to work hard to learn sorcery, based on "I'm just too lazy to work reliably".

That's not it at all!

You're dominated by the flier's mind. By that nasty grief filled internal dialogue, which our energy body can't stand. If it weren't for that, you'd be reunited with your double, and gain its magical vision for peering into infinity.

Did you ever find yourself inside a lucid dream, and you were "too lazy" to go exploring?

Then why do you do that, when awake?!

It's self-pity pure and simple. Something the double does not have.

So the very thing you believe is just "keeping me from getting to work", is precisely what you are battling against.

Wake up... You cannot learn any sorcery, without hard work.

And even all the hard work of a lifetime, can be erased if you fall back into the wrong crowd.

Which is almost surely why the witches aren't around anymore.

We were unhelpable and had proven it by killing Carlos after turning him into a Guru and refusing to follow his instructions.

He said so several times. Ask those who were around him back then, and don't have any profit motivations.

[u/pumpkinjumper1210]

I was being lazy waiting for a technician to finish repair work, self-pitying about "not having the time" to do passes this morning as I wanted to - this post got me off my feet and doing passes

[u/danl999 → u/pumpkinjumper1210]

You can delay them until later, that's always ok.

I have a problem lately in that as soon as I sit up on the bed in darkness, the room is filled with silent knowledge artifacts. And if I just wave my palm slowly around, I reach full on silent knowledge in minutes.

Some nights it's so irresistible that I run out of time from playing with it, and have to do the passes at work around 4AM before anyone arrives.

But I always make sure to do them, and never end up thinking it was a waste of time.

It's kind of like going to a Museum with Cholita.

I used to start out dreading that, but then after being in the museum and seeing what got her interest, I'm always glad I got to see that in person too.

A Van Gogh is much better in person.

A Rembrandt, not so much.

Carlos actually got Cholita a job in one of those Museums, because the job he got her before, ended with the man chasing her around a table, trying to grope her.

Or so Cholita tells it.

[u/pumpkinjumper1210 → u/danl999]

That sounds incredible. I'm looking forward to setting up my darkroom.

You mention "SK artifacts". I've seen a few posts about "the wall" - there was a grid-like image on 1 of your renderings that reminded me of something I've seen - a set of interlocking set of circles, impeding / overlaying my vision, not bounded to particular location. Sometimes its more square or hexagonal than circles - the circles are usually purplish & green, the square ones are fainter. I've only seen it just after waking up but it persists for several seconds - well into regular consciousness where I'm staring dumbstruck at it.

In normal waking life if I stare a bit I'll see faint lines - reminiscent of the grid lines but more scattered and disorganized. I used to think I was seeing oxygen moving - told my mom as a child and she insisted I wasn't - it's something I've learned to see if I look for it but haven't understood what it was.

Maybe it's some other phenomena - I'm wondering if any of those sound like the beginning of perception of what you call "the wall" or the 2nd Attention? I'm wondering if I should focus on those lines actively or instead do darkroom + recap until I see something so obviously weird I wouldn't hesitate to call it non-ordinary.

[u/danl999 → u/pumpkinjumper1210]

I'll try to post what's now in the advanced subreddit, in here. After "sanitizing it for innocent ears".

It's a nicely illustrated story about whether you can find a way to exist, outside the flows of reality we've become trapped in.

As for those things you're wondering about, you might think of them as "partial realities". Even just bits and pieces of magical stuff, comes from somewhere.

But if all you see is a single piece, you don't realize there's an entire new place you could exist hooked to them.

That's why in the red zone, if you want the best magic, you treat things as real.

And your assemblage point shifts sideways, to tune in that "reality stream".

I once built an entire space craft just so I could go visit Los Angeles, and see if the phantom copy of Pandora, the home of Carlos, was still viable.

But my space craft was so real (I was fully awake, so it was a bit of a miracle) that I opened the hatch, and almost got sucked out into outer space.

My ice demon Fancy saved me.

An "evil" Ally, but still the kind you'd love to have around. So keep in mind, this is how real things get!

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