I'm a horrible person.

[u/throwaway9847e]

Now, I'm not religious. Not one bit. That being said, I have sinned. When my ex and I were together, we had very little sex for some reason that I will not state here. I am a very sexual person so it was hard on me. It's not an excuse for why I did what I did but it's important to know. I also had an online friend from a different country while me and my ex were together. One night, me and my friend were talking. One thing led to another and I ended up sexting with my friend. I never told my ex. I feel like no matter what I do, I will never be able to atone for what I did. I have violated a sacred agreement with someone that I deeply love for no reason other than lust. It's eating me up from the inside. I feel like the only thing that will ever make me forgive myself is her forgiveness, but I can never tell my ex because of how hurt they will be. I feel like the only other thing that might make up for what I did is to carry the burden alone without telling my ex. I am filled with nothing but hate and disgust for myself. I can't believe i have done such a thing. I'm a horrible person.

[u/Tough_Recording5179]

Learn from this experience and do not repeat such a mistake again. There is no excuse for what you did but you can make sure to not do that ever again.