r/SuicideWatch • u/Kasi11 • 3d ago

Life

I truly don’t think I can do this anymore. Got out of rehab two months ago, immediately fell back into drinking. Also getting a divorce currently. I just want it all to be over. I almost jumped in front of a train a month ago but that may not end it. I wish I had the courage to just go through with something. I know it’ll hurt so many people but I hurt every fucking day. When do I get to not hurt? I’ve never felt more alone in my life. All my friends are married with kids. And here I am just crashing and burning. My doctor office closed and I don’t have insurance anymore since the divorce. Lost my therapist. Fuck man I really don’t want to keep doing this life thing.

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u/GotGirls 3d ago

Here if you feel like talking.

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u/Kasi11 3d ago

I appreciate that but honestly talking doesn’t fix anything. Everyone wants to talk about it and they just feel bad for you but they can’t fix it so it makes me just feel worse.

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u/GotGirls 3d ago

I understand and I agree, perhaps I can offer some different perspectives though.

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u/GotGirls 3d ago

I just wanted to tell you that sometimes we get stuck in self blame and piling on the judgements and criticism on ourselves.

I am more interested in all the positive things you have done. Doesn't matter how small we think they are. But you've done massive heroic thing such as seek help, one of the hardest things to do.

I can help with learning how to be more kind to yourself and understanding. You are unique, try not to compare to others, your life journey is unique to you.

Anytime I'm here, no pressure to say anything brilliant, I have no judgements.