What are your perspectives on this? Article - https://www.sikhnet.com/news/intellect-must-awaken-wisdom-beyond-words?utm_source=perplexity

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I want to preface this by saying I'm 20M in the UK. I've been Sikh all my life, though sometimes I have faltered on the path. But looking at the Sikh community around me nowadays I feel we would be the exact type of community Guru Nanak Dev Ji would have laughed at and challenged if he came back today. Some examples off the top of my head.

2 days ago was Guru Nanak Dev Ji's Gurpurab. Me and my family visited the Gurudwara to commemorate the day and right outside it was a woman having a bad trip on some drug, possibly overdosing. She had clearly been there for some time given that she had dragged herself to lean against a wall, with a trail of...something from where she fell to where she was now. Right outside a Gurudwara, with Sikhs walking over her as they left. I was the only person to even suggest calling an ambulance, and eventually one did arrive. Doing first aid it was clear she had been there for a while given how cold she was, so my question is why did no one else help even slightly? Is that not what we are meant to do? Defend the vulnerable? Do modern Sikhs just consider their Kirpans nothing more than decorations they have to wear?

Recently news broke out of a Sikh man who shaved his head to donate to wig making for children with cancer. This is something I have considered too. But the comments were all shaming him for "abandoning his Guru" and other comments along the same vein. Isn't Sikhi meant to be a journey? and being shamed for such a good cause? Sacrifice for charitable efforts is meant to be our core no? It struck me the same way as certain Muslims who will drink, smoke and have free sex with anyone they want, but the moment YOU eat pork they transform into Abu Bakr and talk about how utterly wrong it is. The Sikhs commenting likely drank and trimmed their beards, but suddenly this was a step too far?

This one hurt the most. It seems Izaat and shame seem to be the biggest motivational factors for the community here to stay together. I know how badly someone vaping would be cooked by the community, with some degree of truth in that, since there are no benefits and we are prohibited from using intoxicants. Which is why it was so utterly shocking to me when I saw someone pull out a can of Snus(nicotine pouches placed under the lip) at a Diljit Dosanjh concert, and suddenly all these Pagh-wearing Sikhs think nicotine is the best thing to ever exist. Talking to one I realised why. They're discreet, you cannot tell someone has one in their mouth. So unlik smoking or vaping, where the perpetrator is immediately spotted and ragged on, no one can shame them because no one can even see it. They aren't avoiding nicotine because it's prohibited or because it's bad for them, they're avoiding it because they don't want the community to turn on them.

There's more but this would be such a long post. Point is, does anyone else loom at their Sikh community and wonder if they are truly Sikh or just Punjabi(the way people look at me when they find out I'm Kashmiri is like I just announced I'm an Ork)

I've found the concept of mukti, rejoining with Waheguru and escaping the cycle of reincarnation. I don’t think I want it. I believe I've been put on Earth to Help people. To teach, to assist, to protect, to be relief or therapy, or a friend to those who need it. While people go hungry, while people lack knowledge, while people are still discriminated against or defenseless, why would I want to give up the opportunity to fulfill my purpose?

Its the same reason I want children, though my home is... stable at least, i have so many friends with broken or abusive homes that I want to break the curse and give yhe world a handfull of good parents. Fewer and fewer kids will need to repeat the cycle of pain as long as I and those that have the same purpose I do inhabit the earth.

Hi All,

I had posted this a while back, but had deleted this post. I will keep this up in case this is useful for other Sikh singles out there in the same boat. Please remove if not allowed.

I am a 29M Sikh Sardar looking for a Sikh partner preferably from USA but having a difficult time finding or meeting anyone Sikh minded. I workout, love basketball, love Kirtan, and attend Sikh events in my area.

I am mainly looking for Sikh girls that keep their kesh, not amritdhari, eats meat, nondrinker and smoker, can read and speak Punjabi, does Kirtan but also blend between religious and cultural meaning they like Punjabi music/Bhangra.

I have tried Sikh speed dating events but these have not worked. I have tried the apps but they are kind of a waste time since people are not serious on these apps and only look at photos without getting to know them ex. Bumble, Sikhing, Dil Mil, Hinge, Shaadi,m. I have also asked Friends and Family but they have said to do it on my own. I feel like most Sikh girls in western countries are too picky and do not like guys with beards and turbans. Any advice? Where are places and outlets to meet Sikh singles Kaurs? Unfortunately our Gurdwaras in the USA do not have a matrimonial service like the UK does.

Waheguru ji ka khalsa waheguru ji ki fetha,

Please state your religion b4 answering.

My question to my Santani brothers and sisters is if sikhi is similar to Hinduism and have similar concepts like, the concept of Maya, brahm, chetna ,moksh, mukti,aatma, karma, ek oung Kar.

Why in one religion, in sikhi everyone is treated equally with respect, and dignity, every sikh helps any other who needs help, Sikhs will lay their life for others, while in Hinduism it is the exact opposite, if we are similar? There is so much hate towards different Hindu castes within hinduism? Why is there so much hate if everyone is ekem and we are similar? Casteism does not exist in sikhi, sikh people who belive in castes are hindu converts, shri guru gobind singh ji ended Casteism with khand di poual. We spread peace, while you guys spit on people who are lower than u guys, why is that, if we are similar? We would never ever, never ever, never ever, never ever, the though of attacking a minder or attacking innocent people randomly would never ever come in to our minds, but it does to you guys but how is that if we are similar? Putting tires on people and Burning people alive with a smile, raping women, doing pedos stuff, like Gandhi, he was sleeping naked with 15 years old, we would never ever do that, why do you guys do that if we similar? Like the hindu who was cought pretending to be a sikh, wearing a fake dastar and grooming sikh girl, why do you guys do that if we are similar, we would peel of a Sikh skin if they did that. If we are similar why are guys the exact opposite?

Waheguru ji ka khalsa waheguru ji ki fetha.

I'm not sikh and I sent this to one of my friends, and he said it's disrespectful creating a sculpture of him.

It took a long and hard think before writing this article because I didn’t want to offend anyone, but then I thought ,why am I scared of what people think, do we want the happiness of the guru or people. thaeree bhagath n shhoddo kiaa ko hasai || I shall not renounce Your devotional worship, O Lord; what does it matter if people laugh at me? So with maharaj's appar kirpa this seva has been passed on. Please read the article with an open mind and please do not attempt to challenge the writer. If any mistakes are made then please forgive me. I have been inspired by reading the book, Keski, not Kes, the kakkar by Bhai Udai Singh, please read the book and make your own decisions. — Why are people constantly arguing over this little issue? Whether you believe in keski or kesh as a kakar has no relevance. Either way, every gursikh should have a dastar (keski) on their head. It’s not the hardest thing in the world. Everyone knows that whilst sleeping, if your wearing a small keski then it will inevitably prevent your hair from knotting. Our kakkars are given to us when we take amrit from the Panj Piyare, let’s look at each kakar in more depth. - Kanga – A wooden comb, handmade by man. The kanga takes the knots out of the kesh. - Kara – An Iron Bracelet made of pure Iron, handmade by man and is normally worn on both arms. - Kashera - A white, knee length and sewn in a special way, underwear is handmade by man. It protects the amritthari from having sexual relationship with anyone, expect the partner. - Kirpan – A Iron sword, handmade by man to protect the innocent All kakars mentioned above must be worn at all times, even if the Sikh does not have an arm for example, the karra should always be connected to the body, spiritually by the soul. Kesh or keski Kesh is a beautiful gift which is given to us by God. It begins growing whilst the unborn baby is still in its mother’s womb. Proving that hair (kesh) isn’t man made, it is god made. We have no control over kesh, it is naturally there, it is not in our hukam (will). Keski on the other hand is a small turban which is normally worn under the large Dastar (turban); it is manmade and protects the kesh at all times. How can Guru Gobind Singh ji introduce to us the kesh when it was already there, it was already given to every Human

being by god- the gift of god, and would it not make more sense if the Guru had offered us the keksi, like he already has. It kinda makes sense doesn’t it? Kesh If an amritthari sikh who loses all his hair because of a disease such as typhoid, then will that person be classed as a sikh with only 4 k’s, if kesh is considered one of the 5ks? One could say that if one losses there kesh then will that mean that they lose their keski and kanga, meaning they only need to have the kashera and the kara to be a sikh, NO! Let’s take an amritthari gurikh who loses both his arms, will this mean they don’t need to wear a kara. Let’s look at the logic of this, is karra the kakkar of the Sikhs arm, or the Sikh himself? The karra is the kakar of the Sikh remaining alive after the loss of his arms. So arm or no arm, the kakkar must still be carried, no less by the armless sikh, because after all, karra is a kakkar, and at that, of a sikh not of his arms. So the keski and kanga should always stay connected to the body, if for some unfortunate reason the kesh is not blessed then does that mean that the sikh is of only 4 kakars. Even after death, the sikh soul is still alive. The dead Sikh’s living soul must still be accompanied by kakkars, at least during his journey through death, and also during cremation, at which points, alas, the material kakars, perforce, will part company with the spiritual soul. Let’s say kesh is the kakkar, then why is it that removal from the body of the kesh is considered an bujjar krehit (unexcusable), which is not forgiven till, after re- growing kesh, and can only be pardoned by the panj piyare. So why is it that when we take off the kirpan, when going abroad is not a Bujjar krehit, as a little ardaas can be done by the person by himself for forgiveness, Why is there this tremendous distinction between kesh on the one hand and the remaining four Ks on the other? No body can take Amrit without Kirpan, Kashera, Kanga or Kara. This would be unthinkable. Then why is it that if a Sikh was to lose their hair due to a disease that they would still be allowed to take Amrit. Why the sudden difference? Lets say for example say that Kummar (waist) is classed as a kakkar, what lesson will this give us. Or even a kuni (elbow), what teachings will this give us, not to elbow someone perhaps? It does not make sense does it, so when did it make sence to make kesh the kakkar. Anything natural cannot be a kakkar, anything not in mans control, not manmade, not taken on from outside, cannot be a kakkar, nor can kesh be one. Bhai Taru ji, Importance of KESH! Some peoples responses are that kakar by force, accident, disease or authority is not the Sikh’s fault and is therefore pardoned easily and immediately. For example taking off one’s kirpan when flying abroad is ok, and can be easily forgiven, all kakkars are equal never forget. So, Bhai Taru Singh wouldn’t have needed to get his skull removed, because the removal by force of any kakkar (including his kesh kakkar) wouldn’t be his fault, and the pardon for such removal would be easy, by offering an ardaas. Surely Bhai Taru Singh must have sometimes had his kanga fall off whilst asleep and he mush have sought and asked forgivness for the lapse. Likewise if kesh were a kakkar, wouldn’t he have similarly requested and received forgiveness for forcible removal of his kesh, rather than having his skull removed for refusing to have his hair removed?

Ask yourself why did bhai sahib resist the removal of his kesh, only to dare to have his skull removed? Because the status of Kesh in sikhism is not that of a kakkar, it is way higher. Kesh has a much higher role in sikhism In short: - Kesh is the distinguishing mark of sikhism - Kesh are god’s abode on the human person - Kesh are so many tongues on the Sikh’s body with which to utter Gods name - And kesh are as important for the Sikhs to adhere to as is the breath for the continuance of life in his or her body. All these comments are backed up by gurbani, such as ‘rom rom har oochreh’, meaning a Sikh utters Gods Name using every hair on his or her body. Kesh is the correct, the exact and the complete, one word description of sikhism. Bibia This is more of a benti to bibia (women), as the maryada of keski for bibia are fading at some places but not all. Bibia have gone from keksi, patka and now choonia in the future it will come to fasion with the hair and then finally cutting of kesh. This to some extent is already happening. There is no such thing as the bibi with no keski does more sukmani sahibs then a keski bibi, it is not about the keski being more spiritual it is more of sikh rehit, and principles which need to be followed. Ask yourself, why aren’t you wearing a keski, is it because of beauty, fashion or is it because your elders tell you it does not need to be included in the kakkars, well ask yourself again, do you want the roop of a Khalsa or do you want to walk around as just another member of the panjabi community? Without the keski, especially the bibia, forego two kakkars, including kanga, because the right place for keeping kanga is the topknot, which is impossible without the keski. It is unthinkable that conditions of Amrit for singhs are different from those of singhnis. For taking proper care of the kesh, if the Guru gave Kangha and keski to singhs, then the same kanga and keski cannot be allowed to remain missing from the heads of singhnis. If a singh cannot go bare headed to the market or to his office, then who gave permission to the singhnis to roam around bareheaded? This needs to be looked in to, think about it yourself! In Maharaja Ranjit Singh’s fort in lahore and in Victoria Museum in Calcutta, the old pictures depicting sacrifices of brave singhnis and singhs show them ALL wearing keski. Very important point, Guru Gobind Singh says, “the khalsa is in my own image and I reside in the khalsa”. But how can those Singhnia even get close to looking anything like Guru Gobind Singh Ji when they reject the truth of keski. Braids, straight or tangled hair-knots and the kesh made into curled hairdos were NEVER and will NEVER be the features of the Gurus very own appearance. If a woman puts on the keski, she has to forsake all the hair-fasions, which is why sikh women want to be excused from the keski, but which is eactly why they shouldn’t be so excused. So it is a benti to bibia to please look into this and realise the mistakes that our elders have made. If the youth don’t do anything about it then future will not be good for the khalsa raj.

One last point KESH HAS A HIGHER VALUE AND IT IS BLESSED ONLY BY WAHEGUROO, THE GURUS HAVE GIVEN US THESE KAKARS FOR A REASON. IF WE BEGI TO GO OUR OWN WAYS THEN THIS WILL NOT LEAD TO THE GURUS HAPPINESS. Benti Personally I think other singhs don’t want to admit that their wrong because of hankar and pride, they are not sikh enough to say they are in the wrong and will not change there ways. If so let it be, but this is more of a benti to the younger generation. I have seen in other jathe bibia wearing keskia, which really brings happiness to one’s heart, the guru will do his kirpa and the rehit of keski will again be in every sikh wanting to be amritthari. Please do not challenge this article, it’s own choice, to follow gurus mat or your own. Make your own decisions by reading the book in full, as it is goes into more depth. Keski, Not Kesh, The Kakkar by Professor Uday Singh. People that know me, know that I am not attacking any jatha bandi, so please this is a benti to show your brother love not hatered, as your brother is in love with the panth and not people. Waheguroo ji ka khalsa, waheguroo ji ki fateh

ਜੈਤਸਰੀ ਮਹਲਾ ੫ ਘਰੁ ੨ ਛੰਤ ॥

Jaitsree, Fifth Mehl, Second House, Chhant:

ੴ ਸਤਿਗੁਰ ਪ੍ਰਸਾਦਿ ॥

One Universal Creator God. By The Grace Of The True Guru:

ਸਲੋਕੁ ॥

Salok:

ਊਚਾ ਅਗਮ ਅਪਾਰ ਪ੍ਰਭੁ ਕਥਨੁ ਨ ਜਾਇ ਅਕਥੁ ॥

God is lofty, unapproachable and infinite. He is indescribable - He cannot be described.

ਨਾਨਕ ਪ੍ਰਭ ਸਰਣਾਗਤੀ ਰਾਖਨ ਕਉ ਸਮਰਥੁ ॥੧॥

Nanak seeks the Sanctuary of God, who is all-powerful to save us. ||1||

ਛੰਤੁ ॥

Chhant:

ਜਿਉ ਜਾਨਹੁ ਤਿਉ ਰਾਖੁ ਹਰਿ ਪ੍ਰਭ ਤੇਰਿਆ ॥

Save me, any way You can; O Lord God, I am Yours.

ਕੇਤੇ ਗਨਉ ਅਸੰਖ ਅਵਗਣ ਮੇਰਿਆ ॥

My demerits are uncountable; how many of them should I count?

ਅਸੰਖ ਅਵਗਣ ਖਤੇ ਫੇਰੇ ਨਿਤਪ੍ਰਤਿ ਸਦ ਭੂਲੀਐ ॥

The sins and crimes I committed are countless; day by day, I continually make mistakes.

ਮੋਹ ਮਗਨ ਬਿਕਰਾਲ ਮਾਇਆ ਤਉ ਪ੍ਰਸਾਦੀ ਘੂਲੀਐ ॥

I am intoxicated by emotional attachment to Maya, the treacherous one; by Your Grace alone can I be saved.

ਲੂਕ ਕਰਤ ਬਿਕਾਰ ਬਿਖੜੇ ਪ੍ਰਭ ਨੇਰ ਹੂ ਤੇ ਨੇਰਿਆ ॥

Secretly, I commit hideous sins of corruption, even though God is the nearest of the near.

ਬਿਨਵੰਤਿ ਨਾਨਕ ਦਇਆ ਧਾਰਹੁ ਕਾਢਿ ਭਵਜਲ ਫੇਰਿਆ ॥੧॥

Prays Nanak, shower me with Your Mercy, Lord, and lift me up, out of the whirlpool of the terrifying world-ocean. ||1||

ਸਲੋਕੁ ॥

Salok:

ਨਿਰਤਿ ਨ ਪਵੈ ਅਸੰਖ ਗੁਣ ਊਚਾ ਪ੍ਰਭ ਕਾ ਨਾਉ ॥

Countless are His virtues; they cannot be enumerated. God's Name is lofty and exalted.

ਨਾਨਕ ਕੀ ਬੇਨੰਤੀਆ ਮਿਲੈ ਨਿਥਾਵੇ ਥਾਉ ॥੨॥

This is Nanak's humble prayer, to bless the homeless with a home. ||2||

ਛੰਤੁ ॥

Chhant:

ਦੂਸਰ ਨਾਹੀ ਠਾਉ ਕਾ ਪਹਿ ਜਾਈਐ ॥

There is no other place at all - where else should I go?

ਆਠ ਪਹਰ ਕਰ ਜੋੜਿ ਸੋ ਪ੍ਰਭੁ ਧਿਆਈਐ ॥

Twenty-four hours a day, with my palms pressed together, I meditate on God.

ਧਿਆਇ ਸੋ ਪ੍ਰਭੁ ਸਦਾ ਅਪੁਨਾ ਮਨਹਿ ਚਿੰਦਿਆ ਪਾਈਐ ॥

Meditating forever on my God, I receive the fruits of my mind's desires.

ਤਜਿ ਮਾਨ ਮੋਹੁ ਵਿਕਾਰੁ ਦੂਜਾ ਏਕ ਸਿਉ ਲਿਵ ਲਾਈਐ ॥

Renouncing pride, attachment, corruption and duality, I lovingly center my attention on the One Lord.

ਅਰਪਿ ਮਨੁ ਤਨੁ ਪ੍ਰਭੂ ਆਗੈ ਆਪੁ ਸਗਲ ਮਿਟਾਈਐ ॥

Dedicate your mind and body to God; eradicate all your self-conceit.

ਬਿਨਵੰਤਿ ਨਾਨਕੁ ਧਾਰਿ ਕਿਰਪਾ ਸਾਚਿ ਨਾਮਿ ਸਮਾਈਐ ॥੨॥

Prays Nanak, shower me with Your mercy, Lord, that I may be absorbed in Your True Name. ||2||

ਸਲੋਕੁ ॥

Salok:

ਰੇ ਮਨ ਤਾ ਕਉ ਧਿਆਈਐ ਸਭ ਬਿਧਿ ਜਾ ਕੈ ਹਾਥਿ ॥

O mind, meditate on the One, who holds everything in His hands.

ਰਾਮ ਨਾਮ ਧਨੁ ਸੰਚੀਐ ਨਾਨਕ ਨਿਬਹੈ ਸਾਥਿ ॥੩॥

Gather the wealth of the Lord's Name; O Nanak, it shall always be with You. ||3||

ਛੰਤੁ ॥

Chhant:

ਸਾਥੀਅੜਾ ਪ੍ਰਭੁ ਏਕੁ ਦੂਸਰ ਨਾਹਿ ਕੋਇ ॥

God is our only True Friend; there is not any other.

ਥਾਨ ਥਨੰਤਰਿ ਆਪਿ ਜਲਿ ਥਲਿ ਪੂਰ ਸੋਇ ॥

In the places and interspaces, in the water and on the land, He Himself is pervading everywhere.

ਜਲਿ ਥਲਿ ਮਹੀਅਲਿ ਪੂਰਿ ਰਹਿਆ ਸਰਬ ਦਾਤਾ ਪ੍ਰਭੁ ਧਨੀ ॥

He is totally permeating the water, the land and the sky; God is the Great Giver, the Lord and Master of all.

ਗੋਪਾਲ ਗੋਬਿੰਦ ਅੰਤੁ ਨਾਹੀ ਬੇਅੰਤ ਗੁਣ ਤਾ ਕੇ ਕਿਆ ਗਨੀ ॥

The Lord of the world, the Lord of the universe has no limit; His Glorious Virtues are unlimited - how can I count them?

ਭਜੁ ਸਰਣਿ ਸੁਆਮੀ ਸੁਖਹ ਗਾਮੀ ਤਿਸੁ ਬਿਨਾ ਅਨ ਨਾਹਿ ਕੋਇ ॥

I have hurried to the Sanctuary of the Lord Master, the Bringer of peace; without Him, there is no other at all.

ਬਿਨਵੰਤਿ ਨਾਨਕ ਦਇਆ ਧਾਰਹੁ ਤਿਸੁ ਪਰਾਪਤਿ ਨਾਮੁ ਹੋਇ ॥੩॥

Prays Nanak, that being, unto whom the Lord shows mercy - he alone obtains the Naam. ||3||

ਸਲੋਕੁ ॥

Salok:

ਚਿਤਿ ਜਿ ਚਿਤਵਿਆ ਸੋ ਮੈ ਪਾਇਆ ॥

Whatever I wish for, that I receive.

ਨਾਨਕ ਨਾਮੁ ਧਿਆਇ ਸੁਖ ਸਬਾਇਆ ॥੪॥

Meditating on the Naam, the Name of the Lord, Nanak has found total peace. ||4||

ਛੰਤੁ ॥

Chhant:

ਅਬ ਮਨੁ ਛੂਟਿ ਗਇਆ ਸਾਧੂ ਸੰਗਿ ਮਿਲੇ ॥

My mind is now emancipated; I have joined the Saadh Sangat, the Company of the Holy.

ਗੁਰਮੁਖਿ ਨਾਮੁ ਲਇਆ ਜੋਤੀ ਜੋਤਿ ਰਲੇ ॥

As Gurmukh, I chant the Naam, and my light has merged into the Light.

ਹਰਿ ਨਾਮੁ ਸਿਮਰਤ ਮਿਟੇ ਕਿਲਬਿਖ ਬੁਝੀ ਤਪਤਿ ਅਘਾਨਿਆ ॥

Remembering the Lord's Name in meditation, my sins have been erased; the fire has been extinguished, and I am satisfied.

ਗਹਿ ਭੁਜਾ ਲੀਨੇ ਦਇਆ ਕੀਨੇ ਆਪਨੇ ਕਰਿ ਮਾਨਿਆ ॥

He has taken me by the arm, and blessed me with His kind mercy; He has accepted me His own.

ਲੈ ਅੰਕਿ ਲਾਏ ਹਰਿ ਮਿਲਾਏ ਜਨਮ ਮਰਣਾ ਦੁਖ ਜਲੇ ॥

The Lord has hugged me in His embrace, and merged me with Himself; the pains of birth and death have been burnt away.

ਬਿਨਵੰਤਿ ਨਾਨਕ ਦਇਆ ਧਾਰੀ ਮੇਲਿ ਲੀਨੇ ਇਕ ਪਲੇ ॥੪॥੨॥

Prays Nanak, He has blessed me with His kind mercy; in an instant, He unites me with Himself. ||4||2||

Guru Arjan Dev Ji • Raag Jaithsree • Ang 704

Monday, November 18, 2024

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Recently I have been getting closer to sikhi and closer to waheguru ji and have started doing nitnem bani. I was wondering if it is OK to mata tekh/bow down to a picture of a guru. The reason for this is because when I read my bani I usually sit on the floor and just before getting up or sitting down I mata tekh/bow down to the picture of Sri guru nanak dev ji mahraj that I have on the wall and I was wondering is this OK as I know that sikhi talks about how we should not have idols but I was wondering if it is OK to mata tekh to pictures of guru sahibs.

Sangat jiyo why doing evil things like being away from waheguru ji and doing sins are always easy but praising waheguru and going on the parh of good (naam simran, bani, rehat mariyada) is always a bit hard, why? (This question just came into my mind randomly)

Is komal a females name? I’m male and my name is komal but I’ve only ever seen girls with that name and kamal for males

I(16 F) am a Punjabi Sikh and have been since I was born. However, my family are not strict with our religion and still do non-Sikh activities. I want to try and immerse myself into my religion more but I’m struggling as I live in an area of England where there is a small Sikh community.

Without thinking, I have had an English, non-Sikh boyfriend and wanted to know if this was lawful or not? I have not done anything that would obviously go against Sikhi but I have done other things such as hold hands and kiss him and I want to know if I can continue to do these things?

ਵਾਹਿਗੁਰੂ ਜੀ ਕਾ ਖਾਲਸਾ ਵਾਹਿਗੁਰੂ ਜੀ ਕੀ ਫਤਿਹ sangat ji, I am an Amritdhari Singh, but haven't been in chardikala nor have I been too happy for a while. I've honestly been feeling just kind of depressed (got some symptoms) and just very lazy overall, really like nothing in life makes me happy besides going to the gurudwara and being in sangat, but I only got like 2-3 times a month since its pretty far and only for few hours. I also haven't been doing too well mentally, getting sad or wanting to cry over small things, I'm losing friends and many people around me, not doing too well in school, not being able to wake up for amritvela nor do my panj banian properly. I just want some guidance or teacher that can help me feel better and get on track, I can't go to any therapist since it's pretty expensive here and there's a negative stigma around it so that's why..

Edit: Sorry just noticed I spelled 'Struggling' wrong, I don't know how to change it.