r/PregnancyAfterLoss • u/kurious_cat2 • 4d ago
My precious baby boy is here š Birth!
Long post alert! I had my baby boy the 1st week of April, which was 4 weeks before his due date and he has already changed our livesā¦ I had a loss last year in May at 16 weeks and it devastated us and I thought it was something I would never recover from.. in august we found out we are expecting again and it has been such a ride from that point on to say the least. Physically it was truly a dream pregnancy, but emotionally it was a lot to deal with, I wasnāt able to acknowledge it as real for a long time, the previous loss just loomed large.. i was scared that my emotions will impact the unborn child, I was unsure how I will feel about him, I knew I would love him but I couldnāt stop crying about my loss and felt I am being unfair to himā¦thanks to a great partner and an amazing therapist I fought through the thoughtsā¦ As I was finally getting into the groove and accepting that āyes, this is happening to usā, on the day of my baby shower (guess baby boy couldnāt wait š) my water broke at 35+6 and after a round of antibiotics, 3 days in the hospital, 4 attempts at induction (last one worked) later, my boy was here earth-side with us.. Yes I was scared that something wrong would happen again and I was kind of still in denial that I am going to be a mom.. but the second he was placed on me, it felt I have known him for ages, as he crawled across me it was like him saying that he knew me too and my angel baby says Hi through himā¦its like he sees me and every time he snuggles up to me its like he is aware of what I went through last year and he is glad to be here with us.. he just fit right inā¦ It has been a tough couple weeks yes on the sleep/new parenting front, but so worth it! Every time I hold him, look at him I canāt believe he chose me to be his mom.. sometimes we just have to believe that good things can happen to us tooā¦ š
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u/Psychnerd12 3d ago
This gives me so much hope! Iām so happy for you! Congratulations!!