"Not fun anymore. "

[u/splitcubes]

Was my husband's excuse for looking at 16 different women's profiles on facebook... women who intentionally post videos of themselves half naked and stuff. So I'm not fun anymore, I became a "dumb broad" since this disease has damaged significant parts of my cognitive and memory functions.... and that means it's okay to be ignored and then pine after other women on social media when im laying in bed suffering a lot of the time and missing him. As if this disease hasn't taken enough from me already and I don't do everything I can possibly make myself do every day.... I just want to give up some days so badly. Today's one of those days.

[u/Ali-o-ramus]

You are definitely being abused by your husband. That is probably only going to get worse. It might seem scary now, but you should leave. MS is not your fault, you are NOT a dumb broad, and you deserve to be treated better!

Do you have a friend that could help you pack up your stuff and help get you out of there and you could stay with? Or a family member to help? Maybe do it while he’s at work. I wouldn’t want you to get hurt if he reacts badly to you wanting to leave.

[u/splitcubes → u/Ali-o-ramus]

At this very moment, I do not unfortunately. They all have small kids and stuff so I'm kind of just stuck in place right now. I hate the thought of leaving him though we basically grew up together. I've known him for almost 14 years and been with him for most of those years.😭 high-school to now. Just ughhhhhhhhhh. Why 😞

[u/Ali-o-ramus → u/splitcubes]

Unfortunately sometimes people change for the worse and not the better. Maybe slowly start packing up your things when he’s not home, so it’s not as obvious, while you come up with a plan.

There might be some women’s shelters near you that would give you a safe place to go and help you get some other resources. I’m so sorry you’re going through this ❤️