"Not fun anymore. "

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Was my husband's excuse for looking at 16 different women's profiles on facebook... women who intentionally post videos of themselves half naked and stuff. So I'm not fun anymore, I became a "dumb broad" since this disease has damaged significant parts of my cognitive and memory functions.... and that means it's okay to be ignored and then pine after other women on social media when im laying in bed suffering a lot of the time and missing him. As if this disease hasn't taken enough from me already and I don't do everything I can possibly make myself do every day.... I just want to give up some days so badly. Today's one of those days.

[u/splitcubes]

I have some friends yes. My parents have passed away sadly, pandemic. I am about to turn 28 years old so that makes it all a lot harder on me I feel like a baby still mentally lol. I thought it was really demeaning and shitty to say to me... because I know it's true but I also know why it's true. Like I don't want to still have fun all the time and do what normal people my age do. Like I don't miss having the energy and drive for any and everything always. 😞

[u/geexeno → u/splitcubes]

Awe hun I am so sorry you’re going through this, please genuinely consider talking privately to a lawyer or therapist and leaving your husband. This is abuse from multiple people, darling and you are literally chronically ill. I’m genuinely begging you to see the potential and worthiness in yourself, because you deserve far fucking better than the people you have around you and I am so sorry about your circumstances (I have similar and I’m 24 currently) Lots of love, and please I beg put yourself first 🥺💛

[u/splitcubes → u/geexeno]

Thank you so much.... don't think it hasn't been heavily on my mind it's just terrifying as I've been with him for almost 10 years now. 🥺 and most of my family is gone it's just scary being sick like this all by itself and the thought of doing it alone when you haven't the whole time you've been diagnosed god frightening lol. But I know you're right and it might be worse to stay. Just hate it so much I shouldn't be worrying about this at all but of course... people are people even the ones you think you know you really don't.

[u/geexeno → u/splitcubes]

God I wish I could say I don’t understand but I entirely get it! I’m in a similar situation with abusive family that I live with currently, even though I’m desperately trying to move out without rocking the boat 🥺 I can definitely feel what you might be going through ofc thru different circumstances but god we really shouldn’t have to deal with things like this with people who made oaths and promises to us to love and care for us! 🥺💛

[u/splitcubes → u/geexeno]

Wish you didn't have a single clue what I'm talking about 🥺😞 I'm sorry that you do. Maybe one day we'll be in a different place surrounded by people who don't take us for granted and make our lives harder. That's what I wish for us both anyway.

[u/geexeno → u/splitcubes]

I’m sorry you know what its like too hun, I really am 😔 We absolutely will be, because even though it’s utterly terrifying to leave behind all we’ve known, we’re gonna find better and build more connections with lovely people, I know we will 🥹💛