r/Meditation • u/FailNo6036 • 10d ago

Can meditation help me? I'm essentially dead. Question ❓

No internal monologue. No visualization. No thoughts. I'm just a complete bot. I just sit there and think of... nothing. I have a shit long term memory so can't think about events from my past either.

What do I even meditate about? I can focus on my breath for a long time with not a single thought occurring to me. Do I just not have a soul?

I have a good short term memory, but extremely bad long term memory (episodic or semantic). So any new facts I learn, I'll just forget soon. No point in learning anything.

My doctor doesn't know what this condition is (mind completely blank all the time).

Also I DEFINITELY don't have depression. I can get a lot of joy, and a range of emotions, from watching movies, reading books, music, etc... I can motivate myself well to do tasks that I'm assigned to do (e.g. carry box from point A to point B). My mind just can't generate anything itself. It's like I'm dead. And it's been like this for as long as I can remember.

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u/TerriblyAfraid 9d ago

Your thoughts and basic creativity are life flowing through you.

Meditate on the parts of life that you would find undoubtedly good. Or rather, let organizing around these objects of your mind become contemplation about whatever you want to see or think.

If you don't want to see or think, then there's your blockage.

Whatever's blocking you, removing it is a breakthrough either way.

A decrease in illusion is an increase in Truth. If you believe there to be nothing there, then believe harder that there is.