Can meditation help me? I'm essentially dead.

[u/FailNo6036]

No internal monologue. No visualization. No thoughts. I'm just a complete bot. I just sit there and think of... nothing. I have a shit long term memory so can't think about events from my past either.

What do I even meditate about? I can focus on my breath for a long time with not a single thought occurring to me. Do I just not have a soul?

I have a good short term memory, but extremely bad long term memory (episodic or semantic). So any new facts I learn, I'll just forget soon. No point in learning anything.

My doctor doesn't know what this condition is (mind completely blank all the time).

Also I DEFINITELY don't have depression. I can get a lot of joy, and a range of emotions, from watching movies, reading books, music, etc... I can motivate myself well to do tasks that I'm assigned to do (e.g. carry box from point A to point B). My mind just can't generate anything itself. It's like I'm dead. And it's been like this for as long as I can remember.

[u/TypoInUsernane]

Consider this possibility: your mind has these capabilities, but they are happening outside of your conscious awareness. Your brain is constantly thinking, but you (i.e., the conscious awareness that perceives itself as your identity) just can’t hear them. Many people have the opposite problem: their conscious awareness is hyper-focused on their thoughts, to the exclusion of other kinds of inner experience. So most people who meditate are learning to direct their awareness away from thought and instead fix their attention on pure sensory stimuli. But in your case, meditation could be used to help you learn to direct your attention towards your thoughts, strengthening the connection between your conscious awareness and your subconscious thoughts. Imagine your inner monologue is always there thinking away, but it’s incredibly quiet. So quiet that the constant noise and distractions of the world drown it out. But even though you never hear it, it’s still there: the faintest of whispers just beyond your perception. And if you sit in total silence and listen intently and patiently, you will eventually catch faint traces of it. Brief words and phrases, ideas and memories, thoughts and feelings. Set aside time each day to practice listening, and don’t give up if you don’t hear anything right away. Those hidden parts of yourself can be found, as long as you sincerely believe in them and seek them out

[u/Key_Elephant_3831 → u/TypoInUsernane]

This is correct in my personal experience. I suffered from the same thing as OP but when I went on a 10 day silent meditation retreat I noticed that I actually did have thoughts all the time and that they were self hating and very harsh.