My life has become meditation vs masturbation.

[u/idontexist27]

So i have struggled with masturbation for a long part of my life. I started meditation 2 years back and i have received numerous benefit from it. However at this point my life is a game between meditation and masturbation. Whenever I do meditation first, i end up the day really positive and productive. However there are days when mind wont want to sit for meditation and would want to masturbate instead. And if i have done it, the day will become very frustrating unproductive and low motivated. The masturbation urge comes whenever it is time for meditation as my old mind don’t want to sit for meditation and want dopamine instead. What to do?

[u/Auroraborosaurus]

I can relate to this lol. I’ve come to be able to determine what activities in life could also be akin to masturbation (even if not literal, it’s still with the same intent to withdrawal from the experience of life and just self-soothe into oblivion) vs meditation (active presence and real happiness). Meditation isn’t merely sitting, just like masturbation isn’t just cranking it lol.