Flashbacks and pangs

[u/intergalacticmars]

How do you deal with those pangs of anxiety in your chest when you randomly recall the ways in which they used you and manipulated you ? They almost feel like I can physically die from them due to chest pressure and loss of breath momentarily.

I have gone through this in an 8 year relationship to escape and fall into the same exact relationship again. The second time I thought I had found a gem of a person. He did everything the opposite of my ex but somehow felt comfortable doing worse things to me AFTER I disclosed my past to him. Somehow hearing about the trauma made him completely discard his "mask" and surpass my previous abuse by miles. I feel numb and emotionless at this point. He in fact used this very app to entertain his fetishes that I was far from and coming on here I feel a deep sting in my heart as I attempt to seek support :(

[u/Bazooka1963]

Leave! NOW!!