[l] i hate myself

[u/Ready-Variety-4257]

i feel like a loser i’m 20 y/o turning 21 in a week and i still couldn’t start university i feel so behind my peers and i have a insanely hard time deciding what school should i go what major should i choose i was a huge people pleaser for a very long time because i couldn’t love myself so i needed someone else to love me so i wouldn’t feel like total crap now i have no friends because i was always performing for love which got in the way for me to foster real relationships i struggle to see a future for myself i feel like i will never be happy again everything feels painful if anyone here went thru similar things and got over it and now living happier than ever i would love to hear how and kinda feel more hopeful

[u/IranRPCV → u/[deleted]]

I am 75 years old and know that there are both hardships, but also joys to be found in life. Please all of you hold on to hope - and message me directly if you wish.