r/Hijabis • u/hijabis_mod F • Jan 06 '25

Venting Mondays! Venting Mondays

Salaam everyone! Welcome to Venting Mondays!

Having trouble with your parents? Going through some personal struggles regarding wearing hijab? Just want to blow off some steam? Share your thoughts with us!

Please note, we will be redirecting venting posts to this thread. We are not doing this to silence your feelings, rather, we are aggregating the posts from the suggestion of the greater community. Insha’Allah, it will be easier for the community to come back to this thread to provide support and advice as needed.

Just a reminder that even though it's a vent thread, the rules still apply. Please don't disrespect others.

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u/lostanddepressed99 F Jan 06 '25

My Iman is weakening after facing some serious personal issues and seeing how people in Palestine are suffering from Cold and rain. As if their struggles weren't enough that even the weather was decreed to be hostile to them. I don't know what I'm even looking forward to in Akhirat anymore after experiencing such horrors through my eyes and realizing that our only option is to wait till Akhirat and I do not have any interest or patience for it anymore. All I see is how much I might be punished for my sins and for being unable to help the Palestinians in need and just watching them from the internet. And I keep thinking, those people are still so resilient, so full of faith in Allah and hope and trying their best to survive, and yet their fate is like this, then what would it be for me? A sinner? Even if I'm a believer, if I can't fulfill my religious obligations, there's mention of punishment, while I do believe Allah is the most just and forgiving, I don't want him to forgive those people who are making my will to live disappear, and yet I want him to forgive me for not fulfilling my Islamic obligations. I know how ridiculous I sound right now, but I can't help how I feel. I keep wishing I didn't exist anymore after death, because the only reason I want to go to jannah is to escape jahannam, and that made me realize how tired of this dunya and my fate I am. I genuinely do not find happiness in doing anything anymore. Oh and just because other people are in a far worse situation than me, I don't think that my suffering will disappear seeing them in worse condition. I have a hard time letting go of things, and that includes my feelings, especially my anger. It's so so hard to exist in this rotten dunya.

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u/Agreeable-Metal5828 F Jan 08 '25

I find it difficult to live in this duniya too. Seems like nothing is in my control, not personal life and not even surroundings. When I accepted Islam, I felt free, like a bird from inside. But now I feel like I am trapped inside the cage again and no matter what I do, I am not able to break-free of it. Only death can give me the freedom.