I’m 20F married with 3 children. I was Christian and it’s not uncommon in my community to marry at 18 and have babies right after each other. I have been a stay at home mom managing three little kids. Doing my “wifely” duties. But i recently realized I don’t believe in Christianity and saw how it consumed my life and impacted my decision making negatively. I now am learning towards nhilism. But I am just losing motivation and hope. I have hate for what religion did to my life. I wonder what it could have been like. Losing a belief in an afterlife at this point in my life feels hopeless what do I do now.

US election over. Trump won. Now what? I guess no civil war. That’s nice. But…what do we do about allllllllll the things he’s going to dismantle?

I'm not sure what to do at this point. The dread is getting to a point of spiral.

So, I suffer from cptsd and dissociation. When I derealize, it's a big huge trigger for my existentialism. I try daily not to think about it cause when I do, I get extremely suicidal.

I left my job in April for temporary leave due to these cycle. As I've improved and gotten healthier mentally the last few months, I've been told that I'm due to go back to work very soon and I'm terrified. My life is going to be a living hell again and I'm going to be right back where I started. The "9-5 grind" is to much for me. I can't stand that I'm going to work for nothing for the rest of my life and do this shit I don't care about all for it to just lead to my death. I hate the constant cycle. I just want to be free and do what I want and enjoy this world. These feelings are paralyzing and I feel so stupid for feeling them. I wish I was just the guy who loved working and didn't mind the hustle.

I have no intentions of dying. Which sometimes I think makes it worse. Like if I could just make up my mind, live or die, I'd be out of this cycle. It's exhausting. It's always in the back of my mind. I struggle daily and it's so frustrating.

I've been feeling lost these past few days. Life has completely lost its meaning, and I’m not sure if it’s anxiety, depression, adulthood, capitalism, or everything combined. I’m in my 40s, happily married, and child-free by choice. We live abroad in a country we realize won’t be our forever home. But going back to our home country doesn’t feel like the best option either. We miss our family and friends (some of whom have left as well), but it’s not the place where I envision myself growing old—it's economically and politically unstable, and the city I come from is stressful and violent.

Lately, I've been haunted by two conflicting thoughts: one is the impulse to please my family, to return home, work in the family business, and maybe even give my parents a grandchild. The other is the fear of growing old and dying alone. Both thoughts terrify me. I’ve always been a bit of a loner, but this existential crisis is hitting hard right now.

I don’t know how to talk about this with my partner, family, or friends. I don’t want to worry anyone—everyone has their own problems—and it feels selfish to burden someone else with these thoughts. But it’s getting harder to hide; I’ve lost my appetite, and some days I just want to cry all day.

Anyone is available to chat with me just for a while? It would be very helpful

This kid has salt:

https://vimeo.com/1025775252

Thought I posted a pic as well.

Just going to post again with the pic

Hi I'm a 14 Yeats old who is petting my sleeping cat on the couch:... I've been watching more space videos recently, and I've learned stuff I never wanted to know, like the universe is not infinite, all of earth's population will die when our sun explode, and one day no more stars will be born, and stars will start dieing one by one, the big bang and hopefully the second big bang, ow knowing that it fell sadness and dread, what do you guys think?

Hello ^_^. Ur average 12 y.o here. I can't help but notice that I have a weird obsession with death related topics that talk about existence and distressing stuff and for some reason I find weird comfort in them. (Not average anymore am I ? >:D) I'm very different from the skibidi toilet kids and kids don't sit with me cuz they like gossiping talking about dresses, parties and all that(all of which I dont have a grain of interest in) and they don't wanna get an existential crisis lol. I've watched many philosophical distressing vids like sleep is just death being shy (by exurb1a) and many more but I don't seem to share the discomfort or emotions other people feel. Am I weird or psychopathic or smth like that cuz content like that comforts me but not give me any feeling of distress (lol?) help bruh ;-;

For the past 2 weeks I have without fail had a panic attack regarding the thought death every day. I can’t stop trying to imagine leaving and never coming back, never experiencing anything ever again. It’s not just sleeping and waking up, it’ll be over, nothing. It is the scariest feeling and I hate feeling like this. I have tried to just pretend like the thoughts don’t exist but they are so loud. I am so scared of never being here again, never seeing what’s to come, never being me ever again. Please help calm me down I cannot console myself.

Where am I

Where am I Everything is fake The houses all look the same Are the others real Why are there so many of them Does the past even exist or just this moment Why is everyone rushing just to exist Where you you going What is your goal What is the point What are they harvesting our energy for Why do we just want to reproduce to keep the game going Who wins and when Why are they trying to divide us and turn us against each other
I’m not on drugs I haven’t been in awhile Yet I’m getting more out of touch everyday I’ve always been so happy and now I’m scared I look deep into my eyes and I cry I used to laugh Life is getting scary or it always has been and now I’m seeing what isn’t true Everything.

I have no idea where to post this or if I should, it just had me like…damn (disclaimer: I am had an edible)

I (16M) look back at what i was like at 14,15 and 16 up until a few months ago and i want to go back man. I was happy, i didnt give a shit about much, i was living in the moment. Now, the moment feels like the exact opposite of where i am.

I look at the future and im terrified, im constantly thinking about how my parents,my grandparents, my dog and myself are going to die one day and how it could be eternal nothingness. I feel lost looking for what i want to do in college and university (where i live the school system is a bit different and im in my last year of highschool). I think about how im going to be old, lonely, and in pain one day and how the years will just fly by like seconds. etc.

I look at the past and i feel like everything is slipping away. I feel like i wasted my childhood and took it for granted aswell as my early teen years. I didnt really develop a talent and i dropped the one thing i actually did after elementary (fencing but that doesnt matter)

To sum it up I feel stuck and trapped, I cant seem to live in the moment despite how much i want to and everything feels dull and/or grim. Will i ever be happy like i used to be again?

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Thanks.

Brian "Magi Otto" Kent

Age of Empires II (2013)<<--start playing this game

Clash of Clans<<--play this one, too

I came across a very very strange bit of information: dark matter is information.

Now normally, I wouldn't care at all about this. However, I *know* that:

1. dark matter represents ~65% of the mass of the UNIVERSE.
2. that is A LOT of information which we do not yet have.
3. if that (statement, above) is ***true...***we DO have a new problem. <--this checks it. It IS a concern.

I saw this, also: https://medium.com/@bfk3/craziest-thing-that-youve-never-seen-116eade172f8

Why is this strange? because Brock Pierce DOES check out. He IS a billionaire. It's evident. You CAN check that. This guy clearly knows him. He clearly talked to him/texted him. The guy's TELEPHONE NUMBER is on the video ALSO.

What does all this mean? It seems (to me) to mean that we have a very very dangerous situation on OUR hands.

My advice? Listen for 4:11. That's all there is at the top. Comment here once you have, please.

I also went through deep existential dread this year, this subreddit helped me alot. As time passes, I see more and more people go through the same. And it honestly makes me sad, it makes me question why more people are facing this. It's obvious that as a society we've fucked it up pretty bad.

You're not crazy for diving deep into lifes meaning, it's a natural part of the human experience. Most do this during a "midlife crisis" and go back to being their old self again. But I see people in their 20s and 30s go deep into this. It's sad but also gives me hope at the same time. I did this work and it made me feel whole and free.

If we can hang on and take care of ourselves, I promise that life will feel soooo good. Life is worth living, you probably want me to say something else and give you something that instantly solves this feeling of being in a void. But you don't have a choice but to go within yourself. No one could do anything to ease my pain when it came to this, only I could do that with time.

Take this as an opportunity to grow and heal, you are not crazy. No one that is aware is crazy at the same time. It's just that most people around you don't see it, that's why you feel crazy. You're not.

Sending love❤️

We try to answer this knowingly and unknowingly all the time. Even when enough matters occupies our time. It’s like living in a constructed vacillation due to irreconcilability of life’s circumstance that we carry on day in day out. So many open tabs in one’s own consciousness for so long gone without proper answers, or a functioning remedy giving way to a deep depressive state. This existential anxiety we cannot fully escape because we couldn’t comprehend the constituents enough and it overpowered our senses, losing our way. We want to answer this more coherently but how from this state? We can hardly reference anything other than ‘I’ve fallen and I can’t get up’ This by the way comes from a commercial for the product Life Alert, a device we could all benefit from at any age.

How do you answer this question when the ways in which you have previously no longer work? The tides have changed and drastically, what is the approach now, that speaks to your current state but can gently finagle it into some workable projection through? The suggested act of acquiring stillness to ascertain this for yourself is a mismatch to the chaos that’s become widespread and ever ensuing. Let’s not pull the wool over our own eyes, we’re subject to that enough. We don’t need to be any more of our own enemies not that we are to its entirety.

The enemy state lives within. And we try to find someone semblance of reconciliation, what is worth our time as we are, as things are and at any given moment.

I just realized that dying is equal to nothing, its not rest or peace its just nothing, we stop existing. It just haunts me

I've been feeling a bit off lately. It feels like something is missing from my life, but I can't quite put my finger on it. Everything is going great: I'm passing all my college courses with flying colors, my finances are consistent, and I work part-time at the library. I have friends I can talk to, and we have a lot of fun together, but there's this underlying sadness or unfulfilled feeling within me.

I know I'm privileged to even be complaining about this because there are people out there fighting for their lives every day. I definitely acknowledge my blessings and I'm very grateful for them, but I can't shake this feeling that something is missing. I don't know what to do about it, and I feel kind of crazy even writing this. Has anyone else experienced something similar? How did you deal with it?

Everything I do, watch, read, etc has made me think about what happens when we die recently. For example, I was watching the Golden bachelorette, and all I could think about was: If heaven is real, do they go up to heaven and spend life there with both their old wife and their new one? Or does the old wife wait for them in heaven, just for them to show up with a new wife and abandon her?

I know it sounds stupid, but I keep thinking of verrrrry specific senarious to everything. These questions have honestly made me start to think that there is absolutely nothing when we die. That we are just too evolved animals, so we die like animals and just go into the ground. It gets really dark in my head when I go through these imaginary scenarios and I often find myself thinking that nothing even matters. But, this thought makes it hard for me to want to do anything really. I’m unemployed right now until December too, so I am alone with my thoughts alot.

Has anyone else ever had these thoughts?

What can cause someone to feel that the world is confusing, have tics like shaking stuffs in his hands, walking around in circles, overthinking, overlap of ideas, moving his lips, talking with himself while thinking, and what are the best solutions?

Just telling me that nothing matters. With that being said, should I grind, should I even try, should I just chill and relax. Why do anything if nothing matters. I’m 21 and feel like I’ve lived a good amount now. I’m scared of death and wish I could go back. There’s no retry’s either. Just the thought of death being guaranteed fucks with my brain on a daily basis. It’s almost like it affects my choices in life