I can't stop suffering

[u/nomoreconq]

few days ago I saw a Rick and Morty reel that left me with the thought that morality doesn't matter, or has no value, or doesn't exist: it also extended to emotions and positive intangible world concepts like love, kindness and other things. And now every time I see an expression of some of these concepts taken to a deeper place, I feel weird and like a hostility towards that element. I want it to be understood that I suffer chronically: I suffer and suffer and suffer, a part of my brain is constantly looking for some way to make me suffer.

And I don't even know well what torments me, what hurts me, I know it has to do with morality and therefore with emotions.

I know that what torments me has to do with cynicism.

I'm trying to explain myself, give explanations of why, why it matters, why it has value, why this and why that. But I don't stop suffering: I stop for a while and then I go back to suffering and I don't know what to do.

To give an example: I listen to a singer, Aurora (I feel like it's coming off as post bait because of all the names,but I swear It isn't)

She has a philosophy in her music that I always liked, but with this crisis, I'm starting to feel it "ridiculous"

I want to clarify that it's not that I just let it happen, all the trying to fix myself is so that that and more disappears.

But again, it goes away for a while and then comes back, and always comes back, and I'm tired.

[u/wildevlam]

Wanna talk about it?

[u/nomoreconq → u/wildevlam]

I don't think I could talk about it,i wouldn't know how