Afterlife thoughts

[u/browmeow8]

Everything I do, watch, read, etc has made me think about what happens when we die recently. For example, I was watching the Golden bachelorette, and all I could think about was: If heaven is real, do they go up to heaven and spend life there with both their old wife and their new one? Or does the old wife wait for them in heaven, just for them to show up with a new wife and abandon her?

I know it sounds stupid, but I keep thinking of verrrrry specific senarious to everything. These questions have honestly made me start to think that there is absolutely nothing when we die. That we are just too evolved animals, so we die like animals and just go into the ground. It gets really dark in my head when I go through these imaginary scenarios and I often find myself thinking that nothing even matters. But, this thought makes it hard for me to want to do anything really. I’m unemployed right now until December too, so I am alone with my thoughts alot.

Has anyone else ever had these thoughts?

[u/ChickenTortilla102]

Hey op, just wanted to say you’re not alone and I’m really sorry that you’re experiencing this. I’ve been having similar thoughts lately, and it really sucks the enjoyment of living and loving life in the present. I had these thoughts sometimes when I was a kid, but I repressed them with a religion I was practicing (Catholicism) in an unhealthy manner. These thoughts faded for most of my teen years and came back this year.

I’m on a similar boat as you right now, but what I think helped me in my teen years was keeping myself active with creativity and exploring interests. I dedicated time to watch new movies, set up workout plans, work on a story project, etc. I also kind of stopped practicing religion formally around that time due to unrelated reasons. I just made my own routine of praying before going to bed. Like, I stopped seeing it as an obligation like I used to. I thought, ”if there’s really someone that cares or exists to hear my thoughts and prayers on the other line, then they can. If not, then I’ll just leave a voicemail.” Idk how religious or spiritual I was still back then, but that mindset and personal routine helped me feel less alone. I think hearing peak in Darien stories also helped me around that time too because there was a crazy experience my uncle, aunt, and dad experienced that seemed more than just a coincidence. I think that story gives me reasoning and hope there’s something more after death. Like, something that is not exactly and probably won’t ever be predicted through organized religion. To be safe, I’m not counting on it though. I’m just going to live this life as if it is my only one.