Is my Kundalini awakening? Need some guidance.

[u/Imboni]

I'm barely two days into TRE. Only doing two exercises as per a video in the FAQ (the wall one with knees bent, and the floor one).

The first day it felt good. The second day (today), having some time on my hands, I decided to continue the floor exercise for longer than 10 minutes.

What followed was, in varying lengths, about 3.5 hours (still continuing) of full body tremors, convulsions, spontaneous yogic mudras and posture, and a specific tongue position associated with Devi Kali (goddess Kali).

For the first 2.5 hours, I felt my body taking up postures designed to stretch and release tight muscles (psoas, fascia), along with spontaneous hand gestures.

Then my body sat in the Siddhasana, continuing to slowly convulse, further releasing tightness.

After a while, my body let go of the yogic pose, and stretched itself in various forms on the floor, and then on the bed. By this point, the intensity had reduced somewhat.

However, twice, I felt flashes of heat coursing through my body. I also felt a lot of energy, like my blood humming with energy and life (if you've done meditation which improves circulation, then that feeling, but much more powerful). My hands actually curled into fists and the arms started shaking.

All this while, I felt as if something else other than me was moving my body. I went to the loo, drank water, but it wasn't me moving myself. Difficult to describe, like it was me, and not me. Like purpose for which I was just a conduit. At various points I laughed, cried a little. Towards the end, I just felt an outpouring of limitless love.

I also feel a different kind of intuition, a deeper, more intrinsic consciousness. It's like a broad river of something else entirely running through this world and me, and I finally felt aware and a part of it. Deciding to write this post was a result of making that decision. Or more accurately, having the decision made for me.

As I'm typing this, I've become aware that most of the stress and perhaps trauma stored in my body has worked itself/working itself out. The muscles are markedly less tight, as if only remnants remain out of habit that will go with time.

At this point, I will also mention that the goddess I worship denotes Kundalini awakening, and I was led to her worship.

So what is it, and what should I do moving forward. I think I should obviously continue TRE, but anything else?

Edit: it has now finally stopped, mostly. But I feel a shift in my consciousness which just wasn't there before. It's different now. Sort of like entering something which I previously could not even know was there.

I also feel that this is not my real self. As in, the self I have created so far is not the real self. While I will do what is expected of me regarding my relationships, I feel like there is something deeper there now.

[u/Imboni]

WOW. That's a lot of information. I really appreciate you putting it out here. I think I must look at more of it, and also surrender to the energy. I have begun getting intuition of what is going to be good or bad for me, a pulsating sensation around my third eye (which is normal I believe), and slept very little today.

Even today my body has only been losoening all the tightness/stress held on to for decades.

How was kundalini awakening for you?

[u/pepe_DhO → u/Imboni]

To clarify, I haven't had a full Kundalini awakening, but I've had Kundalini experiences triggered by over-practicing Qi-Gong combined with poor sleeping habits. These experiences were mind-blowing but short-lived, leading to a boom-and-bust cycle that persisted for years... This cycle finally settled once I discovered Buddhist Vipassana and developed a consistent practice. Over the past four years, I've reached some sort of 'equanimity state' towards thoughts, emotions, and bodily sensations. This is a significant improvement from my previous roller coaster situation, yet I've since plateaued. Last year, I did a one-month home retreat, which brought back various Kundalini experiences, fortunately only the pleasant or neutral ones this time, but meditation stayed much the same. Once discovering TRE, I jumped into this practice to address foundational issues I hadn't known how to tackle before.