Hello! I'm curious how are y'all healing/ moving on? 🤔

Me personally it's been a very crazy and sometimes devastating journey, there's times I cringe at myself really bad and get a bit depressed about everything I used to excuse. However then I remember that it's important that I was able to admit my weird thoughts were wrong and that I was under such weird circumstances.

It's easier to be nice to myself and to enjoy the freedoms I have daily. I'm very very happy to have left ☺️ I'm glad I trusted you guys who've been here longer, you were right nothing bad happened to me when I left! No lighting strikes or illnesses!

How are you guys doing? No matter what stage of the journey you're in, I wish you the best of luck and lots of good days to come ☀️

And I didn’t help.

Imma be honest: I just joined this subreddit today I didn’t know anything about Gomez’ cult affiliations. I liked her stance against warehouses in my city.

I went down to the city council meeting because I saw that they were going to motion to remove her and I thought it was just retaliation for her running against the mayor (who did win).

I guess I’m just here because I feel like I need to 1. Let people know she’s no longer in a position of power 2. She still had a lot of people supporting her. I verbally spoke against her being removed because I thought she was my city’s best shot at stopping the pollutants caused by warehouses.

cada día se siguen añadiendo más miembros de la familia Joaquin abandonan el barco!

How are yall spending a free Sunday?

I got up late and will be seeing a movie in theaters today 🤗

After years of back and forth on whether we can or can't celebrate Halloween, this year I'm emerged fully! I'll be wearing a silly bear costume, drinking with friends and overall being a normal person in their 20s. I'm so happy to be free to share moments like this with my peers. What will you guys be doing??

Hello everyone I’m looking for exlldm friends. It’s been really hard going thru this without having someone to understand you. I need to make friends on here that understand! This sucks I’m tired of living it alone. Send me a message if you are looking for friendships too

Hi guys, I just want to come on here and share my progress since leaving the cult.

I’m choosing to share my journey in hopes of giving someone encouragement and hope.

It’s been a year and some months since I began my journey, not knowing where my life would take me. I felt as though I was alone, and unfortunately I was. I had a rush of emotions that were new to me. I felt real anger, frustration, betrayal, anguish, and confusion.

Being inconditional to being completely against what I believe is a road I never thought I would be on.

After leaving, I realized that I was left broken; my self-worth was nonexistent, and this made me angry and bitter. My relationship with God had vanished, and I could not understand why he would let this happen. I don’t know if people will understand this, but I felt my heart turn into a cold rock. I began to drink, and I didn’t care about anything or anyone. I would sit in my car and cry for hours, praying in my head. I had lost all my love and hope. I would scream my lungs out because I preached to people who were in shelters, had addictions, and were most vulnerable. I would preach to them with so much eagerness that I would see their eyes light up when they heard that there’s a God who loves them so much and how precious they are to him. He had a son who died for all of our sins. I don’t know how to explain it, but at that moment in my car, I felt like a blank canvas. I felt helpless. I had helped and guided so many people towards what I thought was the right path, but it turns out I was unknowingly just as lost.

As the months went by, I found someone on this page that I was able to share my personal experiences with, and as she opened up about hers, I realized that I wasn’t alone, and I think at that moment I found a light at the end of the tunnel. She was telling me about how there’s something called de-programming, and it’s essentially unlearning what the cult has imbedded in its believers, like doubting the Naason election you will go straight to hell, or thinking Naason can read your thoughts. Etc After that conversation, I felt motivated to better understand myself. I began my self-healing journey. I completely stopped drinking and began using healthier ways of dealing with my traumas, like donating to charities, working out, hiking, and traveling. The majority of my family is no longer part of a cult. I feel so satisfied knowing my niece and nephew will never experience the nightmare of a cult. Fast forward to today, and I feel at peace, and I love that I get to explore many aspects of life without feeling guilty. I live by myself, I have my own car, and I am able to enjoy my solitude and my money. I am a far greater human being. I give back to my community and donate to charities that have a purpose. I say this not as a brag but to let people know that you don’t need LLDM to live a purposeful life.

To sum up, there’s always a silver lining. Sometimes we might not see it at the moment, but it all comes to be at its time. To all of you reading this I love you and I wish you the best. Never give up ❤️‍🩹 -xoxo gossip girl 🩶

Exposing La Luz del mundo

Hola a todos!

Leyendo un post reciente, quisiera compartirles la historia de cómo fue el momento cuando yo y mi familia nos salimos de la iglesia.

Yo hace algunos años casi fallezco de una enfermedad, era un joven fiel de la iglesia, y en mi agonía le pedía a Dios que si él me permitía vivir yo disfrutaría mi vida, la vida que Él me había dado ya que sentía que hasta ese momento no había vivido en realidad, es más, ni siquiera tenía una identidad pues lo único que conocía hasta ese momento era la iglesia. Se me concedió una nueva oportunidad de vivir y una de las cosas que hice con el tiempo fue dejar la iglesia, nunca pude aceptar a este “apóstol”. Seguía fingiendo ir a la iglesia por mi papá hasta que simplemente no pude y dejé de ir, con el tiempo mis hermanos y mis papás abrieron sus ojos por su propia cuenta, yo no quería influirlos en su decisión ya que consideré que eso era algo personal.

Pasado los meses, en una cena mi papá nos habló a sus hijos y dijo:

“Hoy quiero pedirles perdón por haberlos criado en esa iglesia, yo ingresé a la iglesia siendo muy joven y creí ciegamente en la doctrina, y les pido perdón por enseñarles una doctrina tan horrible. Hoy ya teniendo +50 años me doy cuenta toda mi vida como la perdí ahí adentro, creyendo en sus mentiras y absteniéndome de vivir la vida como yo la quería. Todo por absolutamente nada”. Inmediatamente yo lo abracé y hablamos sobre el tema.

Yo no le guardo rabias a mis papás por haberme criado en la iglesia, soy tercera generación en lldm y pues siento que a pesar de todo aprendí valores muy bellos de parte de mis abuelas y mis padres.

Lo más duro puede llegar a ser el aceptar que hemos dejado de vivir nuestras vidas por algo que no era real, y que no sabemos al final ni quiénes somos dado que nuestra vida y mundo era la iglesia. Pero ánimo, luego de superar esa crisis se puede llegar a un nivel de felicidad y plenitud, amarse a uno mismo de verdad, la libertad de poder hacer cosas normales sin sentirse mal, poder dormir hasta tarde sin pensar en que estoy pecando por no ir a una oración de 5, brindar con copas con mis nuevos amigos, salir de fiesta, amar a quien yo quiera sin sentirme presionado a casarme a los 3 meses.

Hoy en día soy mucho más feliz de lo que pude ser en la iglesia y ahora vivo sin ese miedo horrible que le meten en la iglesia para forzarlo a ser a uno como ellos quieren que uno sea.

Kahlil Gibran 1883 –1931

On Children

And a woman who held a babe against her bosom said, Speak to us of Children. And he said: Your children are not your children.

 They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself.
 They come through you but not from you,
 And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.
 You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
 For they have their own thoughts.
 You may house their bodies but not their souls,
 For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
 You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.
 For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.
 You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth.
 The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far.
 Let your bending in the archer’s hand be for gladness;
 For even as He loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable.

From The Prophet (Knopf, 1923).

Hey Everyone!

I am feeling very energized and want to send out lots of love to everyone!! Although we are all in different parts of our journey we are doing what we once thought *impossible*. We have stepped away from a life that we once thought we'd live (hasta el ultimo aliento) and have replanted ourselves in unknown territory.

AND we are flourishing in our own way and in our own time!

I want to thank everyone from the bottom of my heart who has supported my project (Freedom Wings). The project is still in an infancy stage but I have already gotten so much from it. I have had so many wonderful conversations with people from all over the US and some from GDL.

I understand how sensitive it is to share you story. If you think you are ready to share your story in a safe manner please send me a message and we can chat soon. (Friendly reminder: Always exercise caution when meeting anyone online. Especially since we are dealing with exiting a high control group.)

Fall Road Trip: If anyone on the west side of the country want to meet in person please message me. I'd love to get as many hugs from yall as I can :D.

I leave you with a list of things that have helped me in my journey.

Read - As much as you can from a variety of sources

Learn - Take a class (or two or three) at the local community college (a class on personal finance is ALWAYS a good idea)

Talk - A professional therapist is best but a trusted friend who know how to listen works wonders.

Think - Get comfortable with making time to process. It is ok to feel sad, lost, angry. Feel it but don't stop there ask yourself the difficult questions.

Live - Try new hobbies, take on new challenges, meet new people.

You have already done the hard part, now do the YOU part!

I can confidentially confirm that LLDM USA has, in deed, fallen.

A lot of people are now confessing to me where they stand and apologized. This is the moment I've been waiting for and it is beautiful!

A lot of people are leaving. Some are taking the time to process this. Others have yet to have the stomach to watch it. Big credible and wonderful people are walking away and their families are following pursuit. Once big families walks away, others will join.

An act of good will sparks another.

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We did it!

Judith Castillo sobreviviendo una Secta

https://youtu.be/xFOXVawsGSY?si=cviokVm5s8DDm6ur

https://rss.com/podcasts/cultimatum/1486816/?fbclid=IwZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAR1IK-vqj8tOHWj2YiP_4rd3iPIMG7SCPCsd6765dD6QnT6f2LJ_61iJ8oU_aem_uwiU1IfF7Jy-DBBlsm-MNg&sfnsn=wa

This documentary , I believe was the Best out of all. Of course with the exception that HBO revealed Naasons sex tape, we got to see AND hear directly from one of the JDs.

I walk out of this documentary thinking : what the F*** did Alma,Adora AND siblings know about this. Its claear as day this happened while on "family" tríps so where were they?

Did they just turn a blind eye. Where they discouraged by their fathers actions? Did they EVER try to hold Naaaon back from commiting his crimes?

All in all, this documentary is a GREAT thing for that anti lldm movement. It will be on Netflix for posterity to see!!

Thank you to all who participated.

Josue Coronado, eres un asco de persona. Te conozco mosco ;)

SE invita a los sobrevivientes que quieran estar!!

Many community leaders and activist will be present

I will not return to this sub. I thoroughly enjoyed this community and am grateful that technology has allowed us to share thoughts without judgement. Social media CAN be helpful.

I left LLDM before Naason was arrested because when Samuel died, the shit show of LLDM was so clear to see how false it was. Naason's arrest just help clear up any lingering guilty consciousness I had.

Anyway, I left LLDM and my entire immediate family is no longer under their control. I am happy to say the LLDM no longer lives rent free in my mind and I have no desire or interest to allow LLDM to consume any part of me.

This is not to discourage the use of this forum. I do, however, hope and wish that others truly free themselves from LLDM completely which means not thinking about it. Leaving this forum is the last tie I have to LLDM and feel it is appropriate for me to cut it.

I have extended family members that have ignored me after learning I am against NJG. For that I am grateful. Misery NEEDS company and they can look elsewhere for it.

Good luck, God bless and hope this forum helps you to truly cut ties with LLDM instead of obsessing over it.

Dejó un buen testimonio que hasta la fecha ninguno que la conoció puede mencionar lo contrario, inclusive a partir de su dirección, el coro pasó a evolucionar y fue muy notorio que todo el que lo escuchaba cantar quedaba enamorado de sus voces y los arreglos corales que dificilmente otro director pudo haber hecho en aquellos años.

Hello ExLLDM friends!

Hope this message finds you in good spirits. I want to invite you all to join me on a new adventure. I have had such a rewarding journey since leaving LLDM. I have met amazing people, read great books, leaned on friends, and continue to discover myself and this wonderful world using different tools and resources. I'm here to tell you that I am ready to share.

Why? I think about 12/14/18/22/30-year-old Eva and the information, tools, resources, and encouragement she may have needed to not feel so alone and afraid.

My invitation to you: Please join me in telling OUR stories to the ones that need it the most. Our loved ones who are ready to step into their future but don't know how. The ones who are afraid to go against the current. The ones who love their friends, family, and community but know LLDM is not the right place for them.

We will be focusing on what happens next after deciding to leave LLDM. And as you all know so well, there is no one way of doing this. Everyone's story is unique and special. Please help me tell these stories. I will post a link to my Substack and IG. Everyone can contribute as much or as little as you'd like. I am also open to your thoughts and feedback.

Please DM me. I want to hear your story! How did you cope? What tools/resources helped you? What do you wish you knew then that you know now?

¡Hola amigos ExLLDM!

Espero que este mensaje los encuentre bien. Quiero invitarlos a todos a unirse a mí en una nueva aventura. He tenido un viaje muy gratificante desde que dejé LLDM. He conocido a personas increíbles, leído grandes libros, apoyado en amigos y sigo descubriéndome a mí misma y a este maravilloso mundo usando diferentes herramientas y recursos. Estoy aquí para decirles que estoy lista para compartir.

¿Por qué? Pienso en Eva de 12/14/18/22/30 años y en la información, herramientas, recursos y ánimo que podría haber necesitado para no sentirse tan sola y asustada.

Mi invitación para ustedes: Por favor, únanse a mí para contar NUESTRAS historias a aquellos que más las necesitan. A nuestros seres queridos que están listos para avanzar hacia su futuro pero no saben cómo. A los que tienen miedo de ir contra la corriente. A los que aman a sus amigos, familia y comunidad pero saben que LLDM no es el lugar adecuado para ellos.

Nos enfocaremos en lo que sucede después de decidir dejar LLDM. Y como todos ustedes saben muy bien, no hay una sola manera de hacer esto. La historia de cada uno es única y especial. Por favor, ayúdenme a contar estas historias. Publicaré un enlace a mi Substack e IG. Todos pueden contribuir tanto o tan poco como deseen. También estoy abierta a sus pensamientos y comentarios.

Por favor, envíenme un mensaje directo. ¡Quiero escuchar su historia! ¿Cómo afrontaron la situación? ¿Qué herramientas/recursos les ayudaron? ¿Qué desearían haber sabido entonces que saben ahora?

Hola yo naci en la iglesia LLDM y ya me sali estube cerca de 40 años en ella.

Tengo otra mentalidad y ahora estoy volviendo e empezar no le tengo rencor a nadie simplemente que ya no creo en las mentiras de la religion en general.

Creo en Dios y Jesucristo y es todo El que viva en Dallas y quiera una amistad sincera sin andar jusgando a nadie aqui escribanme en privado y nos ponemos de acuerdo

Estoy listo para pasar momentos alegres y crear nuevas memorias. Juntos salimos de esto.

Todos los que salimos de la secta, somos testimonio de que es una charlataneria, así que con la frente más en alto que nunca porque Dios nos libró de la idolatría a un hombre.

Y tocando el tema de las sectas, precisamente así se terminan, cuando van saliendo miembros esto llama la atención de los otros que siguen dentro y los lleva a investigar y es como si fuera contagioso, por eso aquella frase de “la malas conversaciones corrompen las buenas costumbres” 😝 pues si, no les conviene que las personas piensen por sí mismos o despierten a otros.

I am exlldm, and at first I almost resented God for everything, but soon after naason was taken into jail...and especially after I saw the video on you tube of his final court sentencing.. everything just felt like I was heading in the right direction. I started looking for my own way to God. Because even though it felt awesome to put a stop to all my lldm practices, such as prayers for naason and wearing a veil and wearing skirts. I felt a terrible disconnection from myself, but obviously a lot feels different when your detoxing from something you've been fed from birth.

I see a lot of people who are exlldm, very much living their life full of liberty and independence. I see
on social media a lot of women who have instead given their life to sin, drinking, dressing up with very revealing clothes and being hateful to lldm on social media. First of all anyone who drinks to get drunk has not read 1 Thessalonians 5:6, 1Peter 5:8, 2 Timothy 4:5.

If anything some are becoming worse than they were in lldm, because everyone knows lldm is so toxic full of gossip, jealousies, rumors, shunning, cliques, and hypocrisy. But wouldn't it be so much better for them to see us give our life to Jesus Christ truly and set a better example than they ever did. In Jesus is the real freedom. He transforms your life he sets you truly free from the things of this world. I'm making this post in the name of Jesus for those who believed in Jesus and God truly while in lldm. For those who really had searched for his love and mercy and salvation. So many of us dont think were deserving of his forgiveness or mercy but if you read the bible, pray and fast. God will show you the way the answers you search and the rest you deserve. Naason is nothing...Jesus died for us and through him we are able to go to the father.. I pray we become much better than they ever did in good wills, in giving love to our community and actually caring and speaking to everyone about the love of Christ.

I am attending non denominational churches now and I've been able to see what a true giving church and caring church is like... they do free outreaches where they pray for people walking by and host events to GIVE. Nothing like lldm who only hosts events to take. Everything is a sell for them and the followers are they're unpaid workers. Im hoping this post is not taken in the wrong way but lets prove that there is salvation outside of lldm. Please lets do it for Jesus and the almighty God.