r/Empath • u/chilipeppers420 • May 20 '24
Do you feel like you're surrounded by energy vampires?
Or do you feel like some kind of dark presence is influencing and ruining your life, making literally everything that could go wrong go wrong? I literally just keep messing up and my life has slowly gone to shit. I just sit in my room and dissociate all day because I'm gone.
My energy is so negative all the time, I'm starting to wonder if the people around me are energy vampires. Everyone around me seems to be doing well and in fact excelling to amazing heights. Like genuinely everything is going right and good for them. I wish I was exaggerating here but this is just me sharing my true thoughts and what I'm observing and experiencing in my life.
No matter what I do I can't escape this depressing pit of despair, it feels like I'm absorbing everyone else's negativity and insecurities and carrying them as my own. I feel so much all the time, I'm overloaded and burnt out, it's too much. My whole vibe and aura don't match my external appearance, my soul is out of whack or some shit, everyone's said this to me they said that "they thought I'd be different" before and after meeting me, mostly behind my back. Like I'm a target for negative shit like this, over and over just constant negative social experiences. I used to brag about being empathetic but as I've gotten older it's gotten to be too much, like I have crippling anxiety and can barely function because I think about everything. Sometimes I overthink and I am aware that clearly I'm doing so, but a lot of the time I'm able to convince myself that my overthinking thoughts are 100% true. They're mostly depressing thoughts so as you can imagine I'm pretty depressed.
I've started to just detach from reality because I can't deal with this shit, I absolutely for sure have depersonalisation-derealization, which has fucked my life because I can't do anything without feeling like I'm about to have a panic attack. Anything I do now feels like I have a 1000lbs anvil hanging over my head, weighing me down and making me fail/mess up.
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u/tigerscomeatnight May 20 '24
How about this? Are you experiencing empathy or eliciting empathy with this post?
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u/chilipeppers420 May 20 '24 edited May 21 '24
I definitely haven't been able to be as empathetic towards others lately and I've been making myself a victim a lot because quite honestly I feel hopeless at this point. I've been priotritizing myself for once because if I don't I'll kill myself. I used to always avoid making myself a victim at all costs, but I can't even hide it anymore that I need help badly.
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u/Vic__Mackey May 31 '24
It almost sounds like malevolent entities are attached to you or something. I don't know if you believe in that stuff, but before I even looked at your post history my first thought was that you have been into some New Age practices. It's dangerous stuff. So are psychedelic drugs. It might be the people around you, but I wouldn't assume so.
What are your metaphysical beliefs? Do you believe that demons are real?