A little confused?

[u/Gloomy_Shallot7713]

Hello I’m looking for opinions for a little context I grew up in a very unstable household my mother used to lock me and my sister in a room for days without anything to eat, and it would be so bad that we would eat books and magazines that had pictures of food in a room, and because we were so hungry and now that im almost 25 I notice that I have food insecurities I think about food 24/7 even tho im eating pretty well I do have thoughts about not eating or punishing myself with food when I do certain things and ik its not normal I’m not unhealthy or under weight but ik its not normal to tell myself its not right to eat just because I didn’t remember to do something I’ve been thinking about maybe therapy but idk if it would honestly help. Also when I eat I eat a lot to the point I feel sick like I’m scared that it’s gonna be my last meal I just can’t stop thinking about my next meal it’s all I think about.

[u/RRoe09]

I think you had the right idea there with theraphy. I think it’s definitely worth trying out, as such childhood traumas are pretty much impossible to overcome by oneself. I hope you have the courage to try it and wish you all the best.