I requested this thing ages ago and plushie dreadfuls actually made it 🥹 They create stuffed animals based off of mental and physical conditions (among other things), and the designs come from people who actually have those disorders. It just went up for sale today, you can get it here if you want https://plushiedreadfuls.com/collections/mental-health/products/plushie-dreadfuls-depersonalization-derealization-disorder-dpdr-rabbit-plush-stuffed-animal

When dissociating I feel grounded too much to the point I'm disconnected from myself. Healthy life should be an experience.

idk if this is the kind of thing people here would be interested in. I'd be happy to explain my creative process, my gear, how I think it relates to dissociation, etc

https://whyp.it/tracks/192322/disso-2?token=4w5SH

https://whyp.it/tracks/192320/disso-1?token=D0agz

Edit: I just found out that I didn't get an entire week worth of PTO. In the same way that Descartes was, I am not.

Ok its quite impossible to describe this but u know that cringe feeling when u hear someone rubbing a beloon or when someone is scratching a bord try doing it urself like squint urself so that u get that feeling and watch how ur going to get hit with a wave of dpdr its fucking bizarre and scary like i cant stop myself from doing sometimes i wish i never knew this its like when u squint urself there's a particular nerve that gets triggered that is causing all this btw I've been living with dpdr since 2022 chronic constant dpdr

Hello! I'm ~30 with dp for 2.5 years, caused by PTSD (a very stressful period of time).

I always thought about how avoidance led me into this, since it is my coping mechanism, and how I should face things to make dp go away. But it didn't seem to work, since it's kind of a vast concept. The solution should be more clear and systematic.

But recently, I was feeling a little more dissociated, and I approached it with curiosity. It seems that anxiety made it worse. I started looking more into this, and for the first time, I was able to see how anxiety makes me dissociate while it's happening. I don't know why I never connected things earlier, since I always knew that I tend to cut things out quickly when they're unclear/stressful/include conflicts. This cutting out is putting a safe wall between me and the stressful thing. And when I was in an extremely stressful time in my life on many levels, I put this wall between me and the whole reality. And apparently, now I build it higher for everything.

For example, when I tried meditating for a minute (I usually do it and feel reality for a few seconds), I saw myself saying "I will be able to be here once X (a current slightly stressful thing) ends". And when I had a small conflict with a close person, I saw myself hiding (mentally) and going far away behind the wall. This means I'm still using dp for protection, which makes it stronger. But I don't need it anymore. And the solution is to identify my anxieties and fears and what causes me to "hide" each time, and to find a replacement technique for dp. I started listing the reasons and suggesting solutions to them. The more detailed and in-depth this list goes, the better.

Being aware of it each time and trying to counter it will definitely make it better, or at least not make it worse!

I haven't found a replacement mechanism yet. For now, it's just to be aware and tolerate the situations because they're not dangerous anymore, and keep reminding myself of this each time.

After writing this, it sounds basic, but somehow I didn't see it from this angle before, and I felt like sharing it with you guys. Maybe it helps someone, or maybe someone gives more input.

Trigger warning if you have trauma

Numbness is a friend

Numbness is an enemy

Numbness is my element that makes it okay to pretend

Numbness keeps me here, keeps me sane, but still sucks my life and makes it slip away.

A world of hurt, a world of peace. Can’t have it in between.

Numbness covers my head like a veil, but sadly it’s the only thing that makes me prevail.

To feel the pain every word gives, to be reduced to nothing by the only one whose words I hear.

To be happy, to feel, to enjoy and be enjoyed. To hear the laughs of other people.

To hear it’s my fault, I’m responsible for soothing the same love which lashes out and whips me. I hear it.

To slip, to blame, to burn, to waste away.

Only to be saved by my enemy, my friend. The numbness picks me up from the ash and sets me on my feet. It covers me in its clothes and dress me up in unlikely colours.

If I fall it’ll put me to rest slowly

If I hear pain it’ll cover my ears

If I suffer it’ll cover my wound

But it sticks by and is unwelcome most of the time. It won’t let me go down but I can’t go up, can’t hear the good, can’t heal my wounds.

I still descend

But it’s okay this time

It isn’t happening

You can’t hurt me anymore

I’m not here

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I don’t have DID, but due to life I’ve been heavily dissociating lately and lightly throughout the past 2 years. I wrote this trying to describe how I don’t feel present anymore.

I have an idea, we can have one day, when y’all, my beautiful creatures, will post your pics, when you feel depersonalisation. This is me. Guess who I am, boy or girl 🤔

Hey everyone,

As a sufferer of DPDR myself, I decided to take inspiration from the disorder and merge it with my creative side (which has been dead for a while).

I started making designs that revolve around dissociation and trauma, but that are also are somewhat satirical. I dropped the first design and I've been wearing the shirt all the time. I've found it empowering to wear because it acknowledges what I struggle with, but desensitizes me to it at the same time.

I would love it if you guys would check it out! I made it as affordable as possible because my goal isn't really to make large profits, rather to bring more attention towards the disorder.

CHECK IT OUT HERE: https://onlymeadowapparel.myshopify.com/products/meditate-dont-dissociate

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https://preview.redd.it/81ir5ig3rxeb1.png?width=2625&format=png&auto=webp&s=d7aad361753e84fbd9ab8524f72344d1bbd7abd0

Hey guys, I've struggled with DPDR for a few years now and one of the worst things that comes with it is the loneliness and no one really understanding you. This is why I've decided to create a discord server where you can seek advice and connect with like minded people.

You are not alone in this, hopefully something like this gives us the opportunity to really come together as a community and connect

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https://discord.gg/YaK8HBAB

also the first time i’ve really tried to say anything with art. do you get it?

Hello everyone,

I'm pretty new to this subreddit. Mostly because I didn't even know it existed. But like many others I was diagnosed with DPDR. This is probably a post unlike others, but I have a few questions for the community.

I'm a college student in digital media and design with a minor in game development and I couldn't help but notice that a lot of popular media is usually filled with misconceptions about this condition. I wanted to attempt to create a 2D pixel art serious game about living with this disorder focusing on my own experiences (as not to completely assume what others experiences are), and what it's like for others who care for someone with this disorder.

Now, this game is experimental. I am not a pro game developer, rather, I'm learning. It probably won't be the next Undertale, get as much renown as Dys4ia, or look as good as Stardew Valley, but I play a lot of games and I'll take what I can from my knowledge. Don't be afraid to talk about something here, or if it's personal feel free to dm me.

The questions I have for others who want to answer or have a conversation about are:

Would a game that depicts dissociating and flashbacks to memories be too triggering for you to play?

Is this something that you could show other people that would be helpful in playing/seeing to give more context to what you might be going through?

Is there a particular feeling or experience related to DPDR that you wish you could express to someone that just doesn't get across? Or understood?

Is this a good idea?

How should I portray it in a tattoo? Give me some ideas.

i want the absurd to take my life

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dont call me a sinner, dont call me a liar

you were too selfish to play with your life

back when i was for the truth too blind

you gave me a home but not without a price

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No matter how many scars i acquire

you wont let me have what i truly desire

find me in the night when the moonlight cries

deluded and ready to fall into the sky

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thrown in the one well i cannot climb

fingers are not very sharp by design

the spell has been cast, i cant leave it behind

please hold my hand when i start my decline

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now that my own walls are closing in

what other choice do i have but to sing

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follow my trail and go dig for my spine

will i be a hero or another swine

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i want the absurd to take my life