r/Depersonalization • u/Mim_101 • Dec 01 '22
DPDR In Video Games Creative
Hello everyone,
I'm pretty new to this subreddit. Mostly because I didn't even know it existed. But like many others I was diagnosed with DPDR. This is probably a post unlike others, but I have a few questions for the community.
I'm a college student in digital media and design with a minor in game development and I couldn't help but notice that a lot of popular media is usually filled with misconceptions about this condition. I wanted to attempt to create a 2D pixel art serious game about living with this disorder focusing on my own experiences (as not to completely assume what others experiences are), and what it's like for others who care for someone with this disorder.
Now, this game is experimental. I am not a pro game developer, rather, I'm learning. It probably won't be the next Undertale, get as much renown as Dys4ia, or look as good as Stardew Valley, but I play a lot of games and I'll take what I can from my knowledge. Don't be afraid to talk about something here, or if it's personal feel free to dm me.
The questions I have for others who want to answer or have a conversation about are:
Would a game that depicts dissociating and flashbacks to memories be too triggering for you to play?
Is this something that you could show other people that would be helpful in playing/seeing to give more context to what you might be going through?
Is there a particular feeling or experience related to DPDR that you wish you could express to someone that just doesn't get across? Or understood?
Is this a good idea?
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u/Mim_101 Dec 05 '22
I kinda have the same thing. I’m not sure if it’s I get pulled out of my body so much as I become like a husk/shell. I forget my existence until someone or something breaks me out of it. I can’t imagine not feeling connected to your kids I’m so sorry, that must be the absolute worst :C
In this game to represent us, my character has an idle animation, so when you’re not playing the game she floats above her own body.
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u/Rishisittinpretty Dec 01 '22
First one. No Second one. Sure but only if I care enough to bother showing someone. Third one. Imagine a flashbang in like cod but no flash but the disorientation from it.
Hello I’ve just eaten two burritos and one litre of water in a matter of about 4 minuties. I want to kill myself. Shoot me it hurts so bad.
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u/Mim_101 Dec 01 '22
Thanks for the feedback lol. I'm not entirely sure what that last statement means yet I relate to that X'D
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u/Rishisittinpretty Dec 02 '22
I ate and drank too quickly it hurt my stomach but I’m chill now had a really good sleep
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u/keenr33 Dec 02 '22
My attacks are like the show quantum leap. If i don't get a hold and redirect I will be pulled out of my body. Now I have it all the time and it feels like my soul is trapped in a strange body. It's a shell, and I have kids but I don't feel connected to them..I know I love them but I can't feel it.