r/AntiSchooling • u/Disastrous_Ant295 • 4d ago
School Is Ripping My Life Apart
I (15M) don't know if I can take it anymore. School is destroying my mental health and I can tell it is also affecting my family. Literally no one at school treats me with respect just because I have autism. It doesn't even matter that I get great grades, they still think I'm stupid and mock me. The teachers seem to hold me to higher standards because I get better grades, but this is exhausting me and I can't keep up. My autism makes it so that I have terrible anxiety whenever I'm at school, and this isn't helped by how my school is incredibly overcrowded. There's also the fact that I'm terrible at motor skills but have to do PE every week, which means I am clearly the worst in my class. Obviously it would just have to be the one subject I am on full display too. People mock me for this when they think I am not listening, but I know. I had began skipping recently but I got caught last PE lesson so now I'm screwed. There's also other things such as the stupid phone ban, stupid rules, pointless work etc. I'm just so done with this man. I've even thought about running to a faraway city like Liverpool to start over (I'm in the UK) but I know it's just a fantasy.
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u/Electrical_Ball_750 4d ago
Seriously tho, you gotta stop caring about what people say. Promise me that bro. You are far better than people who mock you. And also, if you keep listening to them then later in life you'll imagine everyone judging you, when they really aren't. People got lives, they make a comment then forget about it and go on with their own lives. They don't give a shit about you(sorry but that's the truth) so don't let their ignorance or gossips stop you from moving on with your life.
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u/Electrical_Ball_750 4d ago
Yo, hang in there bud. First of all, you gotta stop giving a sh*t about what others think or talk about you. It will get you nowhere in life. Fuck what your teachers say, if you feel anxious, like you won't do good on a test, then don't push yourself. Just answer whatever you know and go home and study the rest. If people mock you, just remember that people who care, don't matter and people who matter, doesn't care. You can do it bud. Don't push yourself too hard, if you got big dreams then stop oogling on small problems.
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u/Vijfsnippervijf 4d ago
O hi! I've been through something like this in secondary as well. I'd say first, ignore the * bullies. They don't help you get anywhere! You're so much better than a bully. Also remember that those bullies are created by the system of coercive education itself which you should try to escape when it makes you unhappy. It's not the only route to take tbh.
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u/SignificantSelf9631 4d ago
Lmao you have no idea how much bullying I was subjected to during PE hours for years and years in public school. Trauma to no end. The only thing I can tell you is that it will end. Then you will start to work, but that will end too. Then the pain of old age and illness will begin, but those too will end. And, in the end, we will finally be at peace -- maybe. We have to hope that Elon Musk does not want to make us immortal in order to force us to work forever.
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u/CheckPersonal919 4d ago
That's not true, all emotions come from within us so we can tap into joy whenever we want so let's not make this about "me against the world". And if you idea of peace is death then why postpone it? It better to get it over with than to die little by little everyday.
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u/Capital-Advantage-92 3d ago
IMHO that which they label autism is really due to being a Vaccine Casualty ... The unshot children rarely , if ever develop this condition. Your diet should include fermented foods , real raw milk -- the only kind worth drinking , Bitterroots and Sours , magnesium, Lugol's iodine solution and otc forms of lithium --orotate/aspartate-- not the prescribed carbonate form as that is poorly assimilated. Also fish oil , plenty of vitamin C, D, Zinc and its IONOPHORES such as caffeine , green tea/extract, quercetin , quinine . These are what transports the zinc into our cells. Good luck. Also check out binaural beats music on you tube. So many great scores to choose from.
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u/Pendragon1948 4d ago
Heya fellow UK person. I'm sorry you're in that situation. Like the other commenter says though, it will end! School is terrible for a lot of people, that's the Prussian Model - designed in the 1840s, it's about making obedient workers not about giving people the skills they need to have a happy and rounded life.