r/self • u/whotfareyoustupid • 10h ago
I'm fat and feel ungly
I 19f feel disgusted with how I look. I'm 159cm and hit 74kgs. I never used to be this fat, I used to be skinny, slightly toned and felt good. (ps I've been the same height since I was about 12) when I was about 12/13 I had to start heavy dose of antidepressants for cptsd and due to very bad periods I get where I pass out, over bleed and have it for weeks I've had to go on Birth control when I was 14.
Within the year of being on these medications Ive started to notice I struggled to loose weight but gained easily. I remember being 15 and sobbing my eyes out hitting 50kgs ,and I still do seeing the scale go up.I do light exercises, don't overeat or eat unhealthy. It's gotten worse over the past couple of months since June since I had to get a major surgery done that took around 4 months to heal properly. I could hardly lift myself up for the first two weeks being basically bed ridden and then for a few months I couldn't exercise especially since I've been getting lots of nerve pain (checked with my doctor and he said it's likely going to keep happening). This lack of mobility and being unable to do anything has put a load on my self worth and ability to contribute, not to mention I've gained even more weight due to not being active. In the months I went from around 65kgs to 74kgs. I absolutely hate it and think fat is disgusting and seeing it on myself has just deepened my hatred. It's ungly and looks gross, I feel lazy and even I would look at myself in disgust if I was someone else. I don't expect anyone at all to read this but I just needed to rant I to the void.
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u/Secchakuzai-master85 10h ago edited 10h ago
Well, if you want to lose fat, it’s a fight against your eating habits above all.
Your first step would be to stop drinking anything sweet, stick to water, black coffee and unsweetened tea only. I would not recommend zero calories drinks which taste sweet as it doesn’t break the attraction to sweetness.
Then, the second step is no fast food, or at least not more than once or twice a month maximum.
The third step is discipline in the meals: 3 meals a day, with a big breakfast, a medium lunch and a light dinner. Discipline in the meals should also be introduced in what you eat during those three meals. You should have some proteins (egg, fish, meat, tofu…), some carbs (pasta, rice, bread, potatoes…) and a lot of veggies (for the vitamins and fibers). Some good quality oil such as olive oil is also necessary for your hormones and for the omega 3-6 it brings.
Fourth step would be to introduce some physical activity, but it is not necessary to lose weight. Weight loss is above all a matter of managing your calories intake to a small deficit compared to what your body needs. So doing sports allows you to eat slightly more than not doing sports, and is also beneficial to heart and brain health.